Baby I'll Be Your Frankenstine

I wake up in the hospital room, Gee is drugged out cold. All the meds are fucking him up.

"Gerard?" I whisper.

"Hmmm?" He opens his eyes and says groggily.

"How do you feel?" I ask.

"Like absolute shit."

"I'm sorry babe." I say softly, kissing his forehead.

"Frankie, it's not your fault, I'm the one who should be apologizing for dragging you into my fucked up life."

The doctor walks in.

"Mr. Way, can I speak with you for a moment?"

"OK, shoot."

"It's about your father..."

"Yeah?"

"He's dead, I'm sorry."

"What?!" Gerard gasps, choking on the air.

"But...how?!"

"He committed suicide."

"How the fuck do you know that?!" He snarls.

"There was a call from your mom, saying that she found empty vodka bottles and a knife in his chest. Also there was a note that said:
To my family,

Donna, I love you more than anything in the world, but I can't stand my life. Lets see what's wrong with it...
Gerard- Why I loved you, I don't know. You were gay. I'm homophobic. When you were with Bert and now that Frankie kid, it made me cringe. I don't miss you at ALL.
Mikey- Hey buddy, my life has no meaning left. I miss you.
Claudia- your my hyper little girl. I would never miss the world for you.
Lidia- I love you girl. I can't believe I'm leaving you.

My son is a fag. My two daughters only care for him! Mikey is just this kid that leaves everyone alone. Donna, I love you. I see no meaning in my life. My oldest kid is a druggie. So God bless and screw you!

-Dad"

"When the police got there he was long dead. I'm sorry I had to tell you this."

She leaves and Gerard buries his face in his hands.

"No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!" He kept repeating.

"There is no way this could be happening!" He moaned.

I lift up his head and hug him tightly.

"Gee, I'm so sorry, I know you thought you hated him, but still..."

"Frankie, I feel like I'm going to puke."

Shock overcame him and he threw up over the side of the bed.

Lidia walks in.

"Gerard?!" She gasps. "What's wrong?!"

"He's dead...!"

"Who?"

"He's dead! Gone! Game over! We're fucked!"

"Dad's gone Lidia! He's never coming back!!" Gerard sobs.

"I know that he beat you, but still to see you like this.." She trails off.

Claudia walks in.

"Gee?"

"Gerard?"

"What's wrong?"

" He's gone! How many times do I have to tell you this?!" He screams.

"Cloudy, Dad's dead." She whispers.

"What?"

"He committed suicide."

Gerard leans over the edge of the bed and pukes again.

"Lidia, what's wrong with Gee?"

"Its the shock, it's too much for him." She whispers sadly.

"Nanna Elena, where are you?" Claudia calls.

"She's at the house."

Lidia calls Elena and tells her to come to the hospital.

Elena walks in and sees two vomit puddles beside Gerard's bed.

"Gerard? Honey, what's wrong?"

"DAD'S DEAD! HE NEVER IS COMING BACK! NEVER!" Gerard screams at the top of his lungs.

Gerard starts crying again, his frail body shaking.

"F..F...Frankie..d....d..death..is...a...bitch...A stupid bitch!" Gerard sobs.

"I don't know whether to be happy that I'll be OK, or be so depressed I should drink myself into a coma."

"Personally I like the second idea better," He quietly gasps.

He walks out and comes back two minutes later with some stuff called, "Ever clear".

He takes a huge swig of the clear liquid.

He stumbles around the room and starts asking everyone, "Where's Mama?" in Japanese. Wait, how did he figure out Japanese?!

"Gee, how did you learn how to say that in Japanese?"

"Chi's Sweet Home!!" He smiles drunkenly. "It's a really freakishly cute anime!"

"It's about a kiiiiittttyyyyyyy!" He slurs.

Lidia grabs the bottle.

"OK Gee,. no more Ever clear for you!"

"But..It's my only escape...I need it!!"

He suddenly starts drunkenly singing:

"You are the dancing Queen
Young and Sweet
Only 17
Feel the beat from the tambourine
Oh yeah."

"Mama nia! Here it goes again! Mama MIA!"

"The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking!"

"Hey! Get, get, get, get over it!"

Lidia and myself are shocked, and Claudia is half crying, half laughing.

He passes out on the floor and Lidia, Claudia, and myself drag him to his bed.

"Oh Gee," We all say sadly.

"How the hell did he get the Ever clear?"

"It was in his bag with his medicine. He must have put it there earlier."

****3 days later*** THE FUNERAL

I am sitting beside a very high and wasted Gerard and a quiet Mikey and two speechless sisters.

The priest talks about the kind things his dad had done. For example, when Gerard was learning to draw the first drawing said, "I luv you dad". Also when Lidia was learning to ride a bike when she fell her dad picked her up and said, "It's OK Lidi, you'll get it soon.". And when Mikey cried because his glasses broke his dad and said, "Mikey, don't cry, mom and I will fix your glasses." And when Claudia was too scared of the dark when she was 4 her dad said, "Cloudy, if you have this super-special-awesome flashlight, the monsters will go away." So he had helped the kids in his own way.

Mikey turned to Gee.

"Gee?" He whispers looking worried.

"What?" Gerard snarls at him.

Gerard breaks down.

"F...First he...he loved me...th...then when told...him...th...that..I...was...gay...oh God."

Gerard falls out of his chair and starts thrashing around.

'No.....why...I...I should have been a better son...." He sobs.. " I always regretted never saying this....Dad...if you can hear me....I love you,"

Gerard stops thrashing and the funeral ends. At the cemetery Gerard takes a huge swig of Ever clear.

I hold him upright and he tries his best to focus on the burial.

We go back to the Way's house and Gerard locks himself in his room.

"Gee, open up please." I whisper.

"Fuck you all! Leave me alone!"

"Gee! We just wanna help you!" I yell at him.

"I don't need any of your help!"

"You know Frankie, he used to be my fucking HERO!!"

"I loved him, but then in 8th grade, I turned gay. Now...he's gone. I won't get beaten up again...But now, there's a part of me missing."

"Boys! Dinner's here!" Donna calls.

"Gee, are you coming?" I ask him.

"Fine." He sighs.

We race downstairs and see take out, pizza, Arby's and some other crap.

Lidia grabs a paper plate and puts some steamed rice and veggies on her plate. I get the same, along with soy milk. Gee gets one spoonful of rice and some veggies and a glass of water.

Everyone got their food and are all eating it, including me. Gee is pushing it around his plate.

"Gerard, honey, are you OK?" Donna asks him.

"Sorry Mom, I'm just not hungry today, I'm going to my room."

Lidia and Claudia put down their forks and follow Gee.

"What are you doing Gee?" Lidia ask him.

"None of your business!" He hisses at her.

"Gee, don't get high or drunk, please. " Claudia begs him.

"Cloudy, just leave me alone!!"

Gerard slams his door shut.

I finish my meal and head down to Gee's room.

"Gee?"

"What do [i[you want!?"

"We want to help you!! So please get out of your room and talk to us!!"

"NO!"

"Stop acting like a 3 year old and get your butt out here!"

"No Frankie, I'm not moving!"

I start thinking of something to get him out of his room.

"Hey Frank, what do you wanna watch, Narnia or Harry Potter?"

"Gee, we're watching movies. It'll be better if you're with us."

The door clicks open and Gerard has a tight Misfits hoodie on and tight black jeans. His hair is sticking up in various places, and his eyes are red and puffy. Wait! He's been crying?! I didn't think it would hit him this hard.

Claudia pops in Narnia and Gerard starts falling asleep.

"Oh man..now the pills ea kicking in..." He mutters before falling asleep.

"Gee, don;t do this to yourself."

"Shut up Frankie!"

"Whatever Gee."

I walk away from my boyfriend.

"He's just depressed, he'll get over it." I mutter.

**School**

"Today we are going to talk about homophobia." Our teacher says. We are studying different fears for physiology class.

"Homophobia is the fear of gays, bis, or lesbians. It is considered OK in the US society. Although there are some gays out there, the Christan religion things homosexuals are a sin."

I grit my teeth together. How can she say that?! Gee's been through HELL the past few weeks. Now his dad's gone and he won't get beaten up again.

I hear the person behind me start crying. It's Gee.

"Mr. Way? What's wrong?" Our teacher asks.

"Mr. Iero, Will you take him to the guidance office?"

I nod and walk out of the room with Gee.

"Gee?" I ask as I kiss his cheek.

We get down to the guidance office.

"Frank, Gerard, what brings you here? Is everything OK?"

"Gerard broke down crying during phycologay class."

"Why?"

"About a month ago he was in the hospital, then he found out recently his dad committed suicide."

"Frank can I talk to Gerard alone?"

I nod and walk out of the room.

"Gerard, do you want to go home?"

"Why?"

"I could let you leave, because of the circumstances."

"OK."

They page Claudia.

"Gee!" She gasps running in.

"Cloudy..." He sobs. "I don't wanna be here!"

"OK Gee," She says softly.

I watch as she takes Gerard to the car and drives him home. I sure hope he's OK."