When You Died

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Its been 6 years since you died. I can't get you out of my head. You won't leave me alone. You just won't leave.

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You were like a sister to me. I'd wip away your tears when your foolish boyfriends broke up with you. You would always sleep over. You said you were scared of something, I don't know what. But when you screamed I climbed in bed with you and protect you from your dreams of horror. We were best friends. Until that stupid car hit yours. I wasn't there to protect you from the car. I wish I was.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

When we were little, we played in the water sprinkler. Your hair was all wet. You fell and scraped your knee. I was there to help you through the pain. Now your gone and you've broke my heart. And no one is there to help me. When I sleep, all I see is our memorys together. I heard you in my dreams, and I came.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I can't belive that I wasn't with you on the last breath you took. I wasn't there when you were lowered in your dirt bed. I regret not comming. I couldn't take it. Everytime I saw your pale face, I ran. I didn't want anyone to see me fall to my knees and scream.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

It is true that I barely came out of my room since you've died. I have no one to talk to but myself. I know your sitting with me everyday. I know you watch over me, but I still feel alone. Now I lay here on my bed with a knife in my hands thinking, 'Should I do this? Should I even be here? Of course I shouldn't be here.'

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

I remember everything about you. I take the knife and stab my heart. Everything turns black. Then everything gets warm and white. I see you. Your an angel, like you were on earth. You extend your hand for me to grab. Now I know this isn't a dream, I reach out and grab your hand. You pull me up into a light. As we go every memory I had flashes before my eyes like a sped up movie. You let go of my hand. The memorys stop. We land on a soft, carpet like, ground. Suddenly a light, brighter than the sun, flotes up to me. "Do you think your worthy?"

-One week later-
Mary walks into her sons room. He hasn't been out for a week. She was starting to wonder what he was up to. She opened up his door slowly. She gasped at the sight. Crimson blood stained the sheets . He lay there, unmoving, with a knife in his cheast.