Almost Human

I had returned from work, picked up Zero and took off to Matt's house. Tonight was movie night. No dinner, just popcorn, marshmallows and soda. Jimmy had also said to wear pyjamas. So I wore my long dark blue plaid pants and an old, loose t-shirt from back when I was in university.

Along the way I was also thinking about work. Apparently, my song was so popular.. that some record label had requested a whole album. I needed a suitable theme for the album.. Love? Too typical. My brain was stuck. My thoughts were interrupted by the buzzing of my phone, telling me that I had a text.

Luckily, I stopped at a red light. The text was from Brian and it read:

'Hey! Cud u pick me up? 2 lazy 2 drive.. plz?<3'

I smiled. That boy... I u-turned and turned into his housing area. 66,66 where is house number 66? A-ha! Found it!

Brian was sitting on the porch steps, stepping on his cigarette. He walked to the shotgun seat where Zero was comfortably sitting. He glared at Zero and said as he jerked his thumb to the road, "Scram!"

Zero blinked at him and ignored Brian's harsh words. I laughed at him but he didn't seem to find it funny. I picked Zero up and placed him on my lap. Zero made a sad noise.

Brian huffed heavily and climbed into the seat. "Hey!" I greeted him, half laughing. He grunted in response. "Who shit in your cereal?" I muttered under my breath but he had seemed to hear that but chose to ignore me.

All the way to Matt's house, the atmosphere was awkward and had an uncomfortable silence. Why was he so pissed? He seemed fine when he texted me...

We pulled up to Matt's house, and did the usual routine of getting into the house Everyone was already seated on the couch. Today, it was just Jimmy, Tracy, Matt, Val, Michelle, Brian and me. Zacky, Gena, Johnny and Lacey were on some sort of date.

The Matt and Val occupied the 2-seater, and the 3-seater was occupied by Jimmy and Tracy, Brian and Michelle, leaving the last open seat on it for me and Zero.

Bella and Pinkly were lazing on the carpet. It felt so awkward sitting next to the guy, I was secretly dating (at least I think so), and the girl who I was secretly back-stabbing.

Matt had selected a range of marathons, but there could only be one winner. Which turned out to be the marathon of Back to the Future. My favourite.

The only time I focused on the movie was the parts that Brian and Michelle weren't making out. Seriously... and I'm sitting right next to them...

I shook my head in disgust. Even the popcorn seemed to gross me out. Suddenly I felt a pair of eyes, staring at the side of my head. I looked at the person. It turned out to be Brian staring. His eyes changed to a glare, and started to make out with Michelle again.

My jaw hung open. The bastard... I had told him I love him, he even told me he loved me back. What changed? Why the sudden asshole-ness. Jimmy seemes to have noticed Brian and Michelle, and the look on my face. Tears stung my eyes as I excused myslef to the loo.

I locked the toilet door and looked at myself in the mirror. I had black hair, which looked knotted and in need of attention. Michelle's light brown hair was naturally wavy and perfect all the time. My used-to-be bright hazel eyes that were almost yellow looked brown. Michelle's eyes were a mix of blue and green that always seem to shine. My boobs were nothing special compared to Michelle's. She had long-tanned legs, and my legs were a normal length and my skin was pale.

Let's face it.. I'm nothing but trash standing next to Michelle. I dried my eyes, made sure they weren't red before I exited the bathroom.

While in the bathroom, the third movie had ended and everybody was stretching. Jimmy stood up and pulled me to the kitchen.

"Are you okay?" he asked with a face full of worry and concern. I didn't need to pretend and say it was okay because it wasn't, and there's no use lying too Jimmy. He can spot a lie from miles away.

I nodded but kept my eyes fixed to his feet. "Brian is just being an asshole, give him time.. he'll realize his mistake and it'll never happen again. Look, Brian is just having his famous mood swings. Don't take it too personally." he said again.

I answered, "Don't worry about me. Go have fun with Tracy!". He nodded and gave me a much-needed hug. He went back to continue one last movie because it was only midnight.

I fake yawned and said to everyone, "It's late and I have lots of work tomorrow. Night!" Everybody booed at my lack of having fun but received a chorus of 'nights'.

Before closing the door, I heard Brian shout, "Jay! Wait! You're my ride back!". I ignored him and unlocked my car door and got in.

Driving home, I couldn't stop getting the image of Brian and Michelle out of my head. How could Brian do this...

Immediately when I got home, I lied down on my bed, but couldn't fall asleep. Some reading my make me sleep. I started to re-read some of my old science-fiction books.

~BRIAN'S POV~

"Jay! Wait! You're my ride back!" I shouted to her back before she closed the door. The room was silent. Everyone seemed concerned about Jayden.

"She's got at stomach ache.." said Jimmy has he broke the silence, but his eyes glared at me.

Fuck... I had made Jay angry, probably hurt her and I'm the reason why she left. Why was I so selfish! But Michelle was my girlfriend too... 'But you glared at her and made out with Chelle to piss her off' whispered somebody, who I'm guessing is just my heart.

Fucking perfect!

I'm going to have to apologize later.

~JAYDEN'S POV~

I had finished half a book when my phone rang. Brian's name lightened up on the screen. I rejected his call and returned back to my book.

But Brian was persistent and is used to getting whatever he wants. I had made this conclusion because of how many times he called, which was 7 times.

The 8th call I had picked up. "What!" I snapped into the phone speaker. "I'm sorry." was the reply I got. I felt bad for snapping now... NO YOU CAN'T!

"Why should I forgive you?" I asked. I heard him sigh but he replied, "Because I'm standing outside your house?" I gasped and jumped out of bed towards my window. True to his words, he really was outside my house. I ran downstairs with my phone and opened the door for him to come in.

He started, "First of all, I really am sorry. Sincerely.. but what happened tonight was a mistake that I regret. I was pissed because of how we have to date secretly, then I felt bad for Michelle. But I couldn't let you go because I really do love you. So I was angry at myself and I took it out on you.."

I nodded but kept silent. I don't know what to do or say, forgive him? Or not? I fixed my eyes onto the floor. "Can I answer you tomorrow?" I asked, hoping that he would agree.

"Okay.. but Jay, I really am sorry." he said and sighed before turning around and walked back out.

I went back up to bed, but still didn't get any sleep. The decision to forgive him was all I cou'd wonder about. I went back down to the kitchen and took half a sleeping pill.

I'll think about it tomorrow. Now I need sleep.