Status: gay love :D
Our End Never Got to Be Happy
patterns of a dead man
ronnie's p.o.v-
someone once told me 'noone lives once ' it took years for me to uncover the meaning behind his words . but now i know that it means everyone has multiple chances at life . they keep liveing again untill they live their life how they were meant to . its confuseing but correct . the same thing has haunted me for 50 years , the death of my boyfriend jacky . the fact my father had been the cause of his death . i loved jacky more then anything . and after i was changed i wanted nothing more then to find a way to stop my eternal life . to be with jacky . i never could find a way . vampires cant kill themselves . they have to have help to die .. not one of the four vampires i knew wanted to help . they said i would get over it . i soon learned of something called ' The soul mate princeple ' the one who made me thought i was not still connected to jacky because i was too young to have found true love already , he was wrong . The vampire who changed me is called Alexander , i call him alex . for years he tried to convince me hope wasnt lost . when i finally decided to listen to what he had to say .. i learned jacky could very well still be alive . since then i have done nothing but search for him . i also learned alex has been apart of everyone of my lives . at one point he was my brother . He told me in everyone of my many lives i had always found jacky . we have always been in love . and he has always died .
1) drowned
2 ) attacked
3 ) stabed
4 ) strangeled
5 ) fire
6 ) drowned
7) attacked
8)stabed
9 ) strangeled
!0 ) fire
and the order repeats . drowned , attacked , stabed , strangeled , fire . Wich means next jacky will drown . if the order is correct . a part of me believes its my fault jacky can never be happy , and live. alex did say in every life we find each other and in every life jacky is killed . always by either my father , a brother , a friend , or someone who cares for me . he even admitted the last life he was human he drowned jacky in a river . Said he has now realized how idiotic that was . He says after watching me suffer repetdly after jackys many deaths he realized i love jacky more then anything in the world now all we do is search for jacky . i have some friends searching for him too . their names are Ryan , Derek , and Mika . im starting to trust mika less and less though ....i dont know why
four years later -
i was standing by the rivers edge stareing into the painfully black water . i growled and kicked a tree so hard it fell into the river . two years ago i found jacky .. i found the love i had missed for so long . i told him about everything that had happened . about how we used to love each other .. he didnt remeber , but he believed me . i watched him 24/7 and protected him from everything . but in the end it was mika who killed him ... MIKA !!! my friend !!! someone i had trusted !
" how could i be so stupid !!! " i screamed and fell to my knees at the edge of the river . "im sorry jacky , im so so sorry . "i sobbed . apparently vampires souldnt be able to cry , they can only cry because of love . since most vampires can't love i am one of the few vampires who can cry too . i dnt care how long it takes but i WILL find jacky again and i WILL keep him alive and with me
someone once told me 'noone lives once ' it took years for me to uncover the meaning behind his words . but now i know that it means everyone has multiple chances at life . they keep liveing again untill they live their life how they were meant to . its confuseing but correct . the same thing has haunted me for 50 years , the death of my boyfriend jacky . the fact my father had been the cause of his death . i loved jacky more then anything . and after i was changed i wanted nothing more then to find a way to stop my eternal life . to be with jacky . i never could find a way . vampires cant kill themselves . they have to have help to die .. not one of the four vampires i knew wanted to help . they said i would get over it . i soon learned of something called ' The soul mate princeple ' the one who made me thought i was not still connected to jacky because i was too young to have found true love already , he was wrong . The vampire who changed me is called Alexander , i call him alex . for years he tried to convince me hope wasnt lost . when i finally decided to listen to what he had to say .. i learned jacky could very well still be alive . since then i have done nothing but search for him . i also learned alex has been apart of everyone of my lives . at one point he was my brother . He told me in everyone of my many lives i had always found jacky . we have always been in love . and he has always died .
1) drowned
2 ) attacked
3 ) stabed
4 ) strangeled
5 ) fire
6 ) drowned
7) attacked
8)stabed
9 ) strangeled
!0 ) fire
and the order repeats . drowned , attacked , stabed , strangeled , fire . Wich means next jacky will drown . if the order is correct . a part of me believes its my fault jacky can never be happy , and live. alex did say in every life we find each other and in every life jacky is killed . always by either my father , a brother , a friend , or someone who cares for me . he even admitted the last life he was human he drowned jacky in a river . Said he has now realized how idiotic that was . He says after watching me suffer repetdly after jackys many deaths he realized i love jacky more then anything in the world now all we do is search for jacky . i have some friends searching for him too . their names are Ryan , Derek , and Mika . im starting to trust mika less and less though ....i dont know why
four years later -
i was standing by the rivers edge stareing into the painfully black water . i growled and kicked a tree so hard it fell into the river . two years ago i found jacky .. i found the love i had missed for so long . i told him about everything that had happened . about how we used to love each other .. he didnt remeber , but he believed me . i watched him 24/7 and protected him from everything . but in the end it was mika who killed him ... MIKA !!! my friend !!! someone i had trusted !
" how could i be so stupid !!! " i screamed and fell to my knees at the edge of the river . "im sorry jacky , im so so sorry . "i sobbed . apparently vampires souldnt be able to cry , they can only cry because of love . since most vampires can't love i am one of the few vampires who can cry too . i dnt care how long it takes but i WILL find jacky again and i WILL keep him alive and with me