True Danger.
Eli in History
I sit in my class, thinkin over what was said with Jake. And Lea. Why does Jake care? I mean isn't our friendship for when he is bored? And Lea.. Lea is right. What would my peers think if I walked into school like I was some big thing? They would hate me instead of being indifferent.
My stomach growls. The hunger that is my stomach crushing itself, in and out. For some reason it always brings a red steel flower blossoming in my stomach to mind. A steel flower cold as ice and red as blood blossoming out and crushing your stomach in.
Have you ever been so hungry it hurt? Felt like your stomach was caving in. Maybe most of you haven't. But I always feel this way. My stomach threatening to eat itself away. But Lea... I don't need food nor deserve it. I don't need to be skinny, no. This isn't for beauty. I knowI can never acheive that. I need to be nothing physically as well as mentally. I need to be unnoticed.
I try to pay attention to the lesson. Salem Witch Trials... I know all this. I allow my mind to wander. And wander. Blocking out everything. Including myself.
My stomach growls. The hunger that is my stomach crushing itself, in and out. For some reason it always brings a red steel flower blossoming in my stomach to mind. A steel flower cold as ice and red as blood blossoming out and crushing your stomach in.
Have you ever been so hungry it hurt? Felt like your stomach was caving in. Maybe most of you haven't. But I always feel this way. My stomach threatening to eat itself away. But Lea... I don't need food nor deserve it. I don't need to be skinny, no. This isn't for beauty. I knowI can never acheive that. I need to be nothing physically as well as mentally. I need to be unnoticed.
I try to pay attention to the lesson. Salem Witch Trials... I know all this. I allow my mind to wander. And wander. Blocking out everything. Including myself.