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The "You're Not Fat" Campaign
I Will Not
"Have fun at camp, okay?" Rick says. I press my phone against my ear, wishing I could slip through the phone lines and land in his arms.
"I will," I reply.
"And remember to just focus on other things when you start freaking out."
"I will."
"Okay. I love you, Laura."
"I love you too."
We hang up without saying goodbye, because goodbye is awful. Goodbye means going away. Goodbye is forever.
I am going to camp for a week, just like I do every summer. This year will be different though. This year is my last year as a camper. And this year I am having these... attacks.
No, this year you're fat.
"Did anybody ASK you?" I snap under my breath as I fold up my tank tops and put them into my suitcase. Then I blast some music and dance around my room, singing along loudly and off-key. Anything to keep that stupid voice at bay.
The more I think about it, the more I think I'll be okay at camp. We do a lot of exercise-y things there, and the food portions are controlled so I won't feel like I overeat or anything. I have friends at camp, and I am always exhausted because it is constant movement.
I will distract myself and think about other things.
I will ignore it.
I will not give in.
"I will," I reply.
"And remember to just focus on other things when you start freaking out."
"I will."
"Okay. I love you, Laura."
"I love you too."
We hang up without saying goodbye, because goodbye is awful. Goodbye means going away. Goodbye is forever.
I am going to camp for a week, just like I do every summer. This year will be different though. This year is my last year as a camper. And this year I am having these... attacks.
No, this year you're fat.
"Did anybody ASK you?" I snap under my breath as I fold up my tank tops and put them into my suitcase. Then I blast some music and dance around my room, singing along loudly and off-key. Anything to keep that stupid voice at bay.
The more I think about it, the more I think I'll be okay at camp. We do a lot of exercise-y things there, and the food portions are controlled so I won't feel like I overeat or anything. I have friends at camp, and I am always exhausted because it is constant movement.
I will distract myself and think about other things.
I will ignore it.
I will not give in.
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I actually am going to camp, and I'll be there until next Saturday. Sorry, guys. :P But I will probably do some pre-writing and have stuff up by next Sunday. <3