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“SO TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT WHAT YOU REALLY REALLY WANT!” We all screamed while on our way to the mall. I couldn’t help but laugh at how crazy my friends are the looks we got from cars passing by were priceless! Jack was walking on my right, Alex was on my left, Lisa was on the other side of Alex holding his hand, Re Ann was behind me, and Kara and Rian were ahead of us being all lovey dovey. I couldn’t help but take glances at Alex every few seconds; he is my ex-boyfriend and also the one that took my virginity freshmen year. We were in love, or so I thought until I caught him in bed with my worst enemy, Allie. I was still pretty hung up on him, we still hooked up every now and then but never when either of us was dating someone. I didn’t cheat, and I didn’t want to be the reason two people broke up because I decided to be a whore for a night. The way his voice sounded when he would sing would melt my heart like butter in a microwave, and when he would smirk at me, oh gosh don’t even get me started. That boy had my heart in his hands, and he took that to good use. I know he’s still in love with me, he’s told me hundreds of times, and of course I am as well.

“Jade, Jade, JADE!!!” Jack yelled and snapped me out of my trance, just in time because I almost ran into a light post.

“What?!” I yelled at my best friend of 16 years.

“Light post…” Jack said and smiled at me like a big goof then ran off towards the entrance of the mall.

“Thanks jackass!” I yelled after him and took off running after him.

“You guys are freaks,” Alex said with a laugh, and next thing I know he’s hot on my tail trying to catch up to Jack.

“Not, you are,” I said and stuck my foot out in front of his and made him trip and fall, “NOW YOU ARE BITCH!” I yelled and came to a stop when I set foot into the mall.

“What’d you do that for?” Alex said with that damn smirk on his face once he got up and caught up with me.

“Because it was fun,” I said with a mile long smile on my face. It was easy talking to Alex when he was being so cute, because I’m so used to it. I’ve had a lot of practice.

“Sure it was,” Alex said and threw his arm on my shoulders and started walking towards Jack.

“Won’t Lisa get mad at you for touching me?” I asked Alex, Lisa wasn’t too fond of me. She’s new to our group only because she’s dating Alex, and she knows about our past.

“Yeah, but I don’t care. I like you more than her,” He said while looking down at me. I just smiled at him because I honestly didn’t know what to say.

---6 hours later---

I walked the halls of this stranger’s house which was PACKED with students from Delaney, the high school I attend. Guys were drunk, and girls were acting like sluts and here I was, sitting on the kitchen counter slowly drinking my beer when Lisa walked up to with tear stains on her face.

“Uh, Lisa? Are you okay?” I asked her, cautiously because we don’t get along.

“Alex and I broke up,” she quietly said, and I instantly passed her a drink, “thanks,” she said and took a sit next to me on the counter.

“Mind if I ask why he broke up with you?”

“He cheated on me…” she said, as if she was ashamed.

“Allie?” I asked her.

“You guessed it, why is she such a whore?” She asked me.

“I have yet to figure that out, but when I do you will be the first to know!” I said to her with a laugh.

Lisa laughed and took a sip of her drink, “you’re so funny, I don’t know why I never took the time to be nicer to you.”

“Eh, don’t worry about it. A lot of girls hate me for dating Alex, you’re not the first,” I said to her after taking a sip of my beer.

“How did you deal with it?” Lisa asked.

“The girls hating me? I just ignored them; I wasn’t fixing to waste my time on them.”

“No, I meant when he cheated on you with Allie, how did you deal with it?” She asked.

“Well, I cried my eyes out to Jack for like a month, and at soccer practice I’m pretty sure I nailed Allie in the face at least twice a week, it was awesome,” I carelessly told Lisa.

“Are you serious? Did you break her nose?” Lisa asked with a surprised look on her face.

“Nope, but the very last time I did it I gave her a concussion, she had it coming. In plus, I needed target practice,” I said while laughing at the memory.

“That’s so messed up!” Lisa yelled while laughing.

“I know! That’s the best part, girl!”
“I could never do that to someone!” Lisa said.

“I know you’re so innocent!”

“Seriously, I know, it’s so sad!” Lisa said, and we just burst into a fit of laughter. After our laughing died down we were interrupted by the man of the hour, Mr. Alex “Man Whore” Gaskarth.

“Jade, can I have a second with you?” Alex asked me, and I looked at Lisa and saw the look of hurt on her face.

“No,” I simply stated then hopped off the counter and walked away. “Lisa if you need me just give me a call or shoot me a text, bitch!” I heard footsteps behind and I knew it was Alex.

“Jade, wait up!” He said while getting a hand on my shoulder and spinning me around to face him.

“I’m going out front, if you want to talk then I suggest you follow me out front,” I said to him then turned around and made my way out to the front porch.

“Can we talk now?” Alex said with a hint of an attitude.

“Lose the attitude and we can.”

“Okay, let’s talk,” Alex said.

“What’s on your mind slut?”

“Really?” He asked.

“Yes.”

“Okay, so I think it’s safe to say you heard the news about Lisa and me?” Alex asked, and he was nervous. Alex is never nervous.

“Sure did, now why do you wanna talk?”

“I didn’t cheat on her.”

“Alex, she just told me you did, and with Allie again so you don’t have to lie to me,” I told him, generally confused.

“I know she did, but when I hooked up with Allie, it was while Lisa and I were talking, and then I asked Lisa to be my girlfriend a week later,” he explained but it still didn’t make any sense to me.

“I’m confused,” I said to him.

“Okay, I told her I cheated on her because I don’t want to be with her anymore, I wanna be with somebody else, and so that’s how I went about breaking up with her.”

“What the hell, Alex?! Are you seriously that big of a man whore?!” I yelled at him.

“That’s not being a man whore Monk!” He yelled back at me, using the old nickname he gave me.

“You lied to your girlfriend saying you cheated on her so you could break up with her and go date another girl! How is that not ridiculous?” I said to him, still confused. He didn’t have anything to say after that, he just stared at me and I just stared at him. We stared at each other for a few minutes, I’m still confused as to what the hell is going on, and the next thing I know Alex takes my face in his hands and places a soft kiss on my lips, and with that soft kiss a million fireworks went off. Then it clicked, I was the girl he wants to be with, holy shit.

“Alex, we can’t do this,” I said to him, my head to foggy from the kiss.

“Why not?” He asked while stroking a loose strand of hair behind my ear.

“You broke up with Lisa 20 minutes ago! That’s wrong!” I exclaimed to him.

“So you’re saying if it was like 3 weeks later instead of 20 minutes later, you would go for it?” He asked me.

“Your chance of getting back together with me in three weeks is a lot higher than getting back together with me right now,” I told him as we gazed into each other’s eyes.

“But something tells me you want to be together now Monk…”

“Alex, I do want to be with you right now, I would do anything to be with you right now—“

“But you don’t have to do anything! You just have to be my girlfriend!” Alex cut me off.

“Let me finish,” I said to him and he simply nodded his head. “I would do anything to be with you right now…but it wouldn’t be fair to Lisa, so that’s why I won’t say yes right now.”

“Monk, please,” Alex begged.

“You’re making this hard Alex.”

“Because I’m in love with you! Completely in love with you, there is no other girl for me! JUST YOU! I can’t stand going to your soccer games and not being able to tell people ‘that’s my girlfriend’ whenever you score, it kills me inside when I see other guys flirting with you and you flirting back. The way you smile so carelessly at things, how you are just so wrapped up in the world and how you can change it, drives me insane. I love the way your eyes sparkle when you’re talking about something you are passionate about. How on good days, which is pretty much every day, you have this bounce in your step and you give off this feeling like no one can bring you down, it’s contagious I swear. It truly makes my day when I’m on stage, singing my heart out, and I can look in the crowd and see you smiling, singing along with me, and dancing like nobody is around you, it feels wonderful knowing you support me in my dreams, just like I support yours. I wanna spend forever with you Monk,” He exclaimed and before he could say anything else I reached up and kissed him on the lips, like I’ve never kissed him before.

“Is that like an ‘Oh my god I love you!’ kiss or like a ‘here’s our final goodbye’ kiss?” Alex said in a preppy girl voice, and a voice you would have at your dog’s funeral.

“It’s an “Oh my god, I love you!’ kiss!” I said while laughing.

“So?” Alex said.

“Soooo…..”

“Will you?” He asked me.

“Will I what? I’m not sure I know what you’re talking about?” I teased him.

“Will you be my girlfriend?” He asked me while taking my hands in his and kissing my knuckles.

“Of course I will,” I told him and we connected our lips for a kiss.
“I’ve missed you,” He said once we pulled apart from the kiss.

“I’ve missed you too.”

“I love you,” Alex said to me while pushing my hair behind my ear for me.

“I love you more,” I said while smiling at him.

“Wanna blow this popsicle stand?” He asked me with a childish smile on his face.

“I thought you’d never ask too many drunken sluts for me to be around!”

“You know, we’re going to get a lot of shit on Monday from people, since we’re dating again,” Alex casually said as we walked hand in hand down the street in the direction of Alex’s house.

“I know, I’ve dealt with it before, I can deal with it again, but only because it’s you. If it were any other guy, hell no, I wouldn’t have done it, nope, nope, nope!” I said to him with the hint of laughter in my voice.

“That is why I love you, because you just say FUCK THE WORLD!” Alex yelled into the cold October night.

“You’re so silly,” I told him while playfully slapping his arm.

“But you love it!” Alex said while stopping us on the side walk so he could look into my eyes.

“I do,” I said to him and reached down and kissed me, and I kissed back.

This is just what I’ve always wanted to happen, to be with him again.