College For the Utterly Confused and the Fabulously Drag

Not long had passed since Gerard had gotten home with the pizza, that Frank’s mom had said her goodbyes and well wishes and left with a promise to call Frank after his classes. That left Frank and Gerard sitting alone in the dimmed lighting, eating pizza awkwardly as this was there first time being alone since the kiss that had happened just a few hours ago. It was now pretty late, now into the early morning. Neither of the boys were tired and at that point and sleep was not an option, whatsoever.

“Frank…” Gerard snapped Frank out of his thoughts as they both then put the pizza they were eating back in the box. Frank looked over at Gerard, as slowly as he possibly could, dreading the conversation that Frank knew he was about to have with him.

“Frank, you know I am straight, I was dating Lyn-Z and I told you myself that I was straight.” Gerard glanced over at Frank for just a second, but kept his gaze away from the boy next to him. “Frank I am so confused right now. I wasn’t even mad when you kissed me… I liked it. Well I didn’t just like it I fucking felt something in that kiss. Something that I have never felt before with anyone. I just couldn’t help but kiss you back and things just melted away and I never wanted it to it. I didn’t want to sleep with Lyn-z that night. And when you came in, stopped me and kissed me… I wished that Lyn-z was you right then. I wished that I was dating you and I wished that it was our anniversary and that I was about to sleep with you.”

Gerard sighed and rubbed his face with his hands, rubbing off his eyeliner and making his red lip stick even more of a mess than it was. Frank sat next to the man, shaking and not sure what the emotion he was feeling right now was happy, nervous or whatever else was going through his head. But one thing was for sure. Frank could not help but think of grabbing Gerard in that moment and kissing him as hard and powerful as he did just a few hours before.

“I told you before Frank. I may dress like a woman, but that does not mean that I take it up the ass.” Gerard smiled just as Frank frowned.

“Ow!” Frank shouted, as frowning had hurt worse than smiling had at that moment and rubbed his cheeks gingerly. Gerard looked over at Frank and starred at him for just a few seconds, before he smirked and leaned in close to kiss Frank’s lips better. He pulled away and smiled even more at the completely shocked Frank, who now sat there touching his lips.

“I thought you were straight? I… I don’t know what to say. Don’t think you need to pretend for me that you’re gay so it won’t hurt my feelings or make things awkward after this… I don’t want you to feel like you have to do this for me.”

“I’m not, Frank. Well yes, I am straight but I am not just doing this for you. I’m doing it for me too. You know, ever since the first day I met you I thought you were gorgeous. I was ecstatic that you were my roommate once I got to know you. I never thought that I would ever be so attracted to a man in my life. And I never thought that my attraction to that man would grow into me having feelings for you even more than I have ever had with anybody else. I wasn’t suspecting it and all and no, I’m still not gay. I’m just not… straight for you. You’re the only guy I will ever like and will ever fall for.” Gerard took Franks hand in his and entwined their fingers together.

“Gerard, you were the first person I had ever felt so strongly attracted to and you are the first person that I had ever even developed special feelings for. I have no one in my life that I had ever thought of dating. You’re the first person I had ever kissed and the first person I had even thought about making love to. You made my time in college even better and even more special than I ever had thought that it could be. I thought this was going to be hell until I saw you. Then everything made sense. I don’t miss my mom as much now and I’m not crying every night anymore. I feel right in the world now, and it’s all because of you.”

Gerard grabbed Frank’s face with his hands and quickly brought his face to his to meet his eager lips in a kiss. The kiss was slow, the kiss was magical, and if even possible had felt even better than the first kiss they had together had felt. Once their feelings for each other had finally came out into the open, it had seemed as if all of these other, unknown feelings had showed up and taken control of the past ones. Frank reached out with his bandaged hand and wrapped it around Gerard’s neck, Gerard’s hands making their way to Frank’s hair as he tugged and pulled at his locks. Frank couldn’t help but let a little moan escape as Gerard’s hands gripped his hair just a little tighter. Gerard smirked against Frank’s lips as he knocked the pizza boxes on the floor, pizza and all before he pushed Frank down on the conjoined twin beds, making the bed creak just a bit in the process.

They didn’t break away one bit as Gerard grabbed the blanket out from underneath them as he covered them both up. Frank gasped once again, this time because Gerard had discreetly opened his lips just a tad more before pushing his tongue though his own lips to let it trace against Frank’s bottom lip for an entrance. Frank immediately froze at this point. Hesitating, just for a second, Frank opened his mouth and allowed Gerard in to explore.

Frank struggled at first, not knowing what to do completely, but it had mostly come natural to him. Letting go of the fact that his hands were sweating and he had almost pissed his pants completely when Gerard placed his hands on the hem of his shirt and took it off, before taking off his own.

“Oh god…” Gerard moaned as their clad chests touched for the first time. Gerard smiled as he felt Frank’s beating heart, their hearts beating in sync.

“Frankie,” Gerard breathed. “Are you nervous?”

“Yeah,” Frank whispered back, shifting underneath Gerard causing some almost unbearable friction where Frank had not known was even looking for attention. Gerard gasped and dropped his head down on Frank’s clad chest.

“Do… Do that again.” Gerard whispered as he planted gentle kisses up and down Frank’s neck. Frank, to his immense surprise, bucked his hips up once again, with just a little bit of added force, causing him and Gerard both to gasp this time.

Gerard looked up at Frank once again, eyes meeting Frank’s gaze. Gerard looked at Frank, eyes full of lust and something else that Frank could just not pin point. His gaze had just got more and more intense as the time flew by, Gerard looking into Frank’s eyes and Frank looking right back at him.

“Gerard, I think I’m falling in love with you.” Frank whispered, breaking the gaze for just a second. Gerard’s eyes began to tear up at Frank’s words as they completely processed in his mind.

“I think I’m falling in love with you, Frankie.” Frank smiled before grabbing the back of Gerard’s neck to bring him down and smash their lips together once again.

There they laid, twenty minutes of long kisses and traveling hands that never went below the belt. They laid sweaty and huffing, moaning as hips bumped against hips every so often. What came out of Frank’s mouth after that though, was nowhere near expected.

“I- I think I want you to make love to me, Gerard.” Gerard’s jaw dropped open, eyes filled with confusion and want.

“Are you being serious?” Gerard asked, eyes almost bulging out of his skull as Frank laid beneath him, sweating and biting his lip, looking at Gerard with so much want, so much love, awaiting for Gerard’s answer. “I thought you wanted to wait till marriage, or to be with someone you love, or have been with for a while.”

“I’ve been wanting you for so long Gerard, in so many ways. I think I’m falling for you. And even if we never see each other after college I want you to be my first. I want to be your first. I want to experience all of this with you.” Frank whispered, eyes closing for just a split second, savoring Gerard’s touch.

“I have wanted you for so long Frankie. Even when I was Lyn-z I was thinking about you. And I would want nothing more for us to be another’s firsts.”

“And lasts?” Frank hummed out as Gerard went for Frank’s neck once more.

Gerard broke away from Frank’s neck as he looked into his eyes once more, both wet with tears of happiness and love. “And lasts.”
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Frank and Gerard lay in bed now, dripping from head to toe in sweat, naked bodies stuck together as they lay under the large comforter. Smiles on each other’s faces and love in their actions as they cuddled up to one another. After Laying in silence for a few more seconds, Gerard had finally broke the silence.

“That was so special, Frankie.” Gerard hummed as he rubbed Frank’s back soothingly and gently as he kissed the top of Frank’s head. Frank smiled and nodded his head in return.

“So special.” Frank concluded. “I do love you Gerard.” He whispered.

Gerard reached down, grabbing Frank’s face in his hands as he brought his face up to his. Frank looked into his eyes as Gerard’s bore into his.
“I love you, Frankie.”

That night had been the strangest, yet most romantic and love filled night Frank had ever had. It was also the most shocking. He had had his first kiss, got beat up the worst he had ever been beat up before and had made love for the first time, all in one magical and unforgettable night.

Frank was not expecting this to come from his college experience. In fact, his old self before college would have looked at him now in this instant and would have punched him dead in the face for going against his morals. He couldn’t help but smile and push himself even tighter into Gerard. Things were going so great for him in this moment, and he had never, ever wanted it to end. As he looked up at Gerard, everything became clear. He had everything that he would ever want in the world. He had his mother, he had Gerard and he had so many memories that he would never forget. His life was finally good, his life finally made sense.

Little did he know, that euphoria he was feeling would end so soon.