My Life That You'll Never See
Hurt.
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"Patrick just go away." I whimpered through my door as tears streamed down my face.
"I'm just a brother trying to help." Patrick said calmly.
"We'll talk later." I said as I turned my stereo up blaring Green Day through my room.
Why am I crying may you ask?
Well, let's start from the very beginning.
*Flashback*
"Ryan stop." I whimpered as his hands roamed me.
"What, your not ready is that it?" He asked me as he tried unbuttoning my pants.
"Yes, now stop!" I screamed, of course no one heard me since we were in his car in the middle of no where.
"Shut up you bitch." He told me as he smacked me pulling my pants off.
"Stop please!" I whimpered as I started to cry.
Of course he never stopped.
That night he raped me and threatened that if i told anyone that he would kill me, and Patrick.
I knew I couldn't tell anyone from that day on.
He raped me when ever he had the urge.
I gave up fighting back anymore, never showing emotion everytime.
It's been a year since it first started and its only getting worse.
I couldn't help but come home crying one Tueday night.
I had to tell Patrick because he made it all better.
Even though he wasn't my blood brother he made it seem like we were brother and sister.
*JJ's POV*
Later that night I crept across the hall trying not to wake the rest of the guys.
Pete, Andy, and Joe to be exact.
Yea, we all lived together in a pretty big house.
My, well Patrick's parents died in a car crash when they went up to Canada one summer.
Well, back to the point.
So I knocked on Patrick's door, hoping he would hear.
He immediatly opened the door quietly and let me in.
"What's wrong JJ?" He asked me as I sat down on his bed bring my knees to my chin.
"I, have to tell you something Patrick." I said a little nervously.
"Yea, anything." He said as he sat down next to me.
"You know how I go out with Ryan, almost every night?" I asked him as I messed with my pajama pant leg.
"Yea." He said knowing something must have happened between me and him.
"Well, he..he has been raping me for the past year." I spat out.
He looked so astonished that Ryan, of all people would do that to me.