Take a Breath

|| Liam ||

Its been a week and still nothing. Bella hasn't woken up or anything. The more time passes the more worried I get. The four of us boys refuse to leave her side.

Leslie had just came back with clean clothes for us boys. The hospital was kind enough to let us use the showers and stay in Bella's room.

I was putting my dirty clothes in a bag when the heart monitor Bella was hooked up to started making a weird noise. I ran out of the bathroom and seen that her heart rate was going down.

This isn't good. Panicked I ran out into the hallway and yelled for help. I seen Niall, Harry, Louis and Leslie at the end of the hallway. When I yelled for help again the four of them began running and I heard Harry shouting. A handful of nurses rushed past me and a second later Doctor Scott was rushing in.

"What's happening!?" Harry asked panicked and out of breath

"Her heart is stopping," I whispered holding back tears

We tried staying in the room but they wouldn't let us.

"We're losing her!" I heard doctor Scott say as a few nurses pushed us out of the room.

I watched as a nurse rushed into the room with this weird machine. It was one of those machines where it shocks you. It took me a second to realize that they were going to shock my baby sister back alive. Screw that. I managed to push my way past the nurses. Right as a walked in i seen Doctor Scott press those things against Bella. Her whole body jolted upward. I didn't like that. Doctor Scott had to do it two more times before her heart started beating again.

I wasn't sure how to react. My sister just died and got brought back to life. I felt like my heart was about to give out on me. I went over and sat in a chair.

"You alright there?" I heard someone ask

I looked up to see Dr. Scott. I nodded my head cause I was still in shock of what just happened.

"She's fine now. We don't know what cause that but we are going to run some tests just to be sure," Dr. Scott said with a reassuring smile

Again I just nodded my head. Harry was sitting next to Bella's bed holding her hand. He hardly leaves her side. We've had to make him eat, sleep and shower. Louis and Niall sat in the on the opposite side of her bed. Leslie stood next to them staring at me with concern. I gave her a small smile to let her know I was okay.

"Bells wake up please, you can't leave me wake up," Harry whispered with a few tears falling

No matter how many times we said to wake up she never did. An hour or so later Dr. Scott came back with the results.

"The results came back normal everything is fine," Dr. Scott smiled

"You don't know anything about her still being in a coma?" I asked nervously

"There's nothing we can do about it. The longest I've seen someone in a coma of an attempted overdose suicide is three weeks. She could wake up at anytime now or be in a come for another four weeks but don't worry everything will be fine ... Oh and keep in mind just because she's unconscious doesn't mean she can't hear you" Dr. Scott said before leaving the room.

She could be in a coma for four more weeks? How is that even possible? Its already been a week. I don't know how much longer I can last.

"I love you Bella," I barley heard Louis whisper

-

"Oh my god!" Harry gasped causing everyone to look at him

"What!?" Louis asked eyes wide

"She squeezed my hand!" Harry whispered with a smile

I couldn't help but to smile as well. I believe that's a good sign right?

-

Three more days had past by and Bella still hasn't woken up. I can't handle it. It's taking its toll on me.

It was around two am when I finally decided to lay down. I had to make Harry lay down and get some rest to or he would be up all day. I was just on the urge of sleep when I heard Leslie whisper my name.

"Yeah?" I whispered back

She didn't answer she just whispered my name again.

"Babe are you okay?" I asked turning over to face her

When she didn't reply I sat up and looked at her in the poorly lit hospital room. My named was whispered again but it wasn't from Leslie. Oh my god Bella !!!

I quickly got up blankets falling off my body and quickly went to her side. Almost tripping on my way. Bella's lips were barely moving but I could hear her whispering my name.

About another twenty minutes passed before Bella's eyes slowly fluttered open. My heart felt like it was going to burst. She's finally awake. She looked around confused. When her eyes landed on me tears instantly formed in her eyes.

"Liam I'm so sorry," Bella breathed

"Don't you ever do this to me again," I choked on a sob I wanted to hug her but stopped myself due to all the machines she was hooked up to.

I waited awhile before I woke everyone up to tell her she's awake. I've missed her so much.

We all stood around her bed with tears of joy. Later on in the morning Dr. Scott came to check on her. Everything was fine she needed to say an extra day for observations.

-

The five of us were sat in chairs around Bella's bed.

"Why did you try killing yourself?" Louis asked breaking the awkward silence

Bella was quiet for a minute before answering.

"I thought it would be the best for everyone if I was dead" Bella answered not making eye contact with any of us

"How could you even think that!?" Leslie asked the hurt clear in her voice

"Because I just cause problems for everyone" Bella mumbled

"Doesn't mean you try and kill yourself" Niall whispered

"I wanted to be dead! I wanted to be with my mum!" Bella said with a raised voice

"Did you think about how it would affect everyone else?" Harry asked his green eyes burning into her brown ones

"No I didn't. I thought no one would care" Bella whispered

"We all care Isabella! If I would've lost you I'd be the next one trying to kill myself! You don't understand you're the only one I've got. I was a mess this whole time we all were. I can't lose you" I said fighting back tears

Leslie placed her hand on my knee and squeezed it slightly in a way to tell me ti calm down and its alright.

"I'm sorry" Bella frowned

"We all love you Bella" Louis said with a sad smile

|Next Day|

"You ready to finally go home?" Dr. Scott asked Bella

"Yes I am" Bella weakly smiled

"Before you leave boys, Leslie can I talk to you outside for a second?" Dr. Scott asked

We followed Dr. Scott out to the hallway.

"She should be fine but you all should keep a close eye on her just in case. We don't want her ending up here again," Dr. Scott said

"Oh we definitely will be watching her. What about school?" I asked

"Its to soon for her to go back so she'll have to do her studies from home," Dr. Scott answered

"Okay,"

"Good luck"

"Thanks for everything"

|Bella|

This is the stupidest thing that I have ever done. I don't know what I was thinking. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't move any part of my body. My eyelids felt like they were glued shut. I heard several voices around me. I knew right away it was the boys. I could also tell that they were crying. I wanted so badly to open my eyes and tell them that I'm fine.

Everything seemed to be going fine when all of a sudden I felt like I couldn't breathe. Every second that past it got harder and harder to take a breath. When finally I had no air at all. Out of nowhere I felt a jolt of shock go through me. I could breathe again. That was strange. But I still wasn't awake. I heard voices but I couldn't make out what they were saying.

"I love you Bella," I heard Louis whisper

I wanted to scream out 'I love you too' but nothing.

I somehow managed to squeeze Harry's hand. I didn't feel my hand move but he obviously did.

Ugh I need to wake up dammit! Liam. Liam. Liam. Liam. Liam. Liam. I kept well thinking Liam's name. I don't know why I thought this would work cause it wasn't ... Or so I thought it wasn't. Liam was the first person I saw when I opened my eyes.

I knew I shouldn't have done what I did. But my mind wasn't in the right place. Everything didn't seem right and I wanted to be with my mum.

When I was time for me to go home I couldn't have been happier. I knew things were going to change and be a lot different. When I got up Liam helped me to my room and a sat on my bed.

Harry was standing in my doorway and I couldn't help but to smile.

"You don't know how happy I am that you're okay" Harry said walking towards me

I sighed. I knew exactly where this was going. I patted the empty stop next to me on the bed. My Curley haired friend came and sat next to me. I turned to him. I grabbed his face between my hands and kissed him. After a minute I pulled away. Harry had a cheeky smile on his face.

"Our first kiss," Harry smiled bringing his fingers to touch his lips

"And our last," I mumbled

"What do you mean our last?" He asked clearly confused

"Harry look I do love you with all my heart but ..." I Didn't finish my sentence how could I ?

"But what Bella?"

"You belong with Kate"

"I what? No I belong with you"

"harry please I don't want to argue or fight with you over this"

"Just tell me why"

"You love Kate so you should be with her"

"I love you more" he insisted

For fuck sake this boy makes everything nearly impossible. The next words that came out of my mouth I knew I was going to regret but they needed to be said.

"Harry I ... I don't want you," I mumbled playing with my fingers.

Harry looked at me surprised before getting a hurt look on his face. And it hurt my heart.

"That's all I needed to hear you say ... I guess me never leaving your side when you were in a coma meant nothing to you," Harry's voice cracked

And with that he left my room. Slamming the door as he left. I tried holding back my tears. Not even an hour out of the hospital and all the drama is starting up again.