We're Complete Opposites But I Still Love You

"You ready?"

Jason asked as he held my hand going down the stairs.
It'd been three weeks since my incident.
I'm almost a month and one week along now.
It was time we told Sam.
I was a mess.

"I think." I whispered.

He stopped once we got to the bottom and turned to look at me.

"Don't worry and stress yourself out, Babe. Everything is going to be okay. I promise."

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
When I opened my eyes again he kissed my cheek and we walked into the livingroom.
Sam was watching tv.

"Dad." Jason said.

Sam looked up and muted the tv.

"Yeah?"
"Teal and I need to talk to you. It's important."
"Alright."

We sat down on the couch.
Jason took a deep breath.

"Dad....You're going to be so disappointed in me.."

Jason was shutting down instantly in front of Sam.
I'd never seen him so ashamed before.
I took a breath myself.

"What is it?" Sam asked anxiously.
"I'm pregnant." I said.

Sam's eyes went wide.
Jason squeezed my hand.

"A-Are you serious?"
"Yes. Teal is pregnant with my child." Jason said.
"How could this happen?! I had rules! Did you not follow them?! I made them to avoid this!"

He was furious now.
I flinched and Jason kissed my temple.

"Dad please let me explain."
"Explain what?! That your whole life is fucked now?! How are you going to go to college?! You can't play football now, I hope you know that."
"We have it handled. We have a plan."
"Oh, so you have money for the docotr appointments? The extra food? Diapers and baby formula? Pediatrician visits? Medicine? A crib? Clothes? What if you lose the baby? What happens then?"

I was getting overwhelmed.
We hadn't made a plan for if I lose it.
Tears flowed from my eyes.
Jason wiped them away and rubbed my hand.

"Dad! Calm the fuck down!"
"What did you just say to me?" Sam was really pissed now..
"I'm sorry dad you're scaring Teal."

I had enough.
I stood up and they both looked at me.

"You know what? Since I couldnt succeed at killing myself i'll get an abortion. Tomorrow. I'll go call now."

I started walking away.

"Teal don't you dare do that." Jason said defensively.

I turned around.

"I'm sorry Jason. I already love the kid but we don't have anybody to help us. Sam took me in when I was in need of a home and look what i'm giving back. A child. That's not something I should be doing. We can try again a few years from now. I don't need my god father hating me."

I turned back around and went up the stairs to call up a doctor.
All I heard was muffled yelling from down stairs.
I looked at my phone.
Was I really going to do this?
I don't want to.
I really want this baby.
But nobody was going to help us.
I don't know what to do...