Forgive Me

I just turned on Nick Jr for Elijah when there was a knock on my door.

"Mommy will be right back, Eli. Just watch Dora, okay?"
"Okay, Mommy."

I smiled at him.
His eyes were glued to the tv.
I walked out if the livingroom towards the front door.
I opened it and immediately my smile dropped.
I walked outside and shut the door.
What was He doing here?!

"B-Brent?" I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
"Yeah its me..." He rubbed the back of his neck.
"Excuse my manners but why are you here? How did you find me?"
"I asked your parents. Let me tell you that was not easy. I'm here because I want to meet my kid."

I looked at him in shock.
I was pissed.
You wait five years to finally meet him?!
Leave your child's mother to fend for herself?!
Leave her a single mother?!

"I dont think that's a good idea."
"Bree...."
"Don't call me that." I growled.
"Sorry, Ever, please let me explain."
"Explain?! Brent you left me alone! Seventeen years old and pregnant! Do you realize how hard my life was?! Don't get me wrong. I love Elijah to death but he needed his father. Where was he? Gone. Elijah sidn't have a dad. He only had one father figure and that was a fucking bust."

I tried not to yell so Elijah didn't come out.
He sighed.

"Evermore, can you ever Forgive Me?"

I thought for a minute.
Could I?
The man I fell in love with in high school is standing right in front of me.
The man Who is the father of my child wants to be in our lives.
The man who I had cried over for years is back.

"It's going to take awhile. The shit you put me through..."
"I regret it every fucking day,Ever."

I looked at him shocked.

"Y-You do?" I whispered.
"Yes. Every fucking day. I couldn't get you out of my mind. Your face always poppe dup and I was overwhelmed with guilt."

I couldn't help myself.
I hugged him.
Because he was crying.
He hugged back and squeezed me.
God I missed this....

"Mommy, who is that?"

I broke away from Brent and looked down at Elijah.
I smiled and picked him up.

"Well, Eli, this here is your daddy."

Elijah's crystal blue eyes lightened up.

"Travis?" He asked.

I shook my head no.

"No. Brent. Thia is your daddy, Brent."
"Oh...Mommy why do his eyes look like mine?"

I lightly laughed and smiled at him.

"Because you got his eyes. When you were made God decided to give you the same color eyes as his."
"Oh."

I put him down and he ran inside.
I smiled watching him run into the livingroom.
I looked back at Brent.
He was all smiles.

"He's perfect."
"Yeah well, you made that. But so did I."
"I can't believe he got my eyes."
"He got my ridiculous curly hair."
"Your hair is beautiful just like you."

My heart beat began to pick up.
I hadn't heard anyone say that to me in a long time...
Not even from Travis.

"Can I ask who Travis is?" Brent said.

I sighed.

"I dated him when I was twenty. Lets just say after his dad died he got abusive. My dad got me out of it. Mostly because he threatened to kill me and take Eli. I couldnt let that happen." I looked down at my feet.
"Elijah was the only thing that reminded me of you...." I whispered and looked up into those crystal blue eyes.
"You missed me."
"More than I have ever missed anyone before. I lost track of myself for a little bit. Mom helped with Eli during that time. I'm good now."

Brent nodded.

"I have to make dinner. Wanna stay?"
"Sure. If that's alright."
"Yeah. Hope you like chicken and mashed potatoes."

Brent smiled and followed me in.