I'm Looking for Something More Than This

“Kirstie,” I heard Logan say, walking into my room.

I pushed the hair out of my face and looked at him as his face filled with concern. He came over, sliding onto my bed and wrapping his arms around me.

“What’s wrong?” He gently asked.

“Kendall,” I sobbed into his chest.

“What about him?” Logan prodded.

“He…he broke up with me,” I kept crying.

”What?” He quickly shot. “Why?”

“He doesn’t love me anymore,” I pushed out.

“Kendall said that?” Logan’s voice raised.

“He didn’t exactly say that, but I asked if there was another girl,” I started but he cut me off.

“If he was cheating on you, I swear I’ll kill him,” He muttered.

“No, there wasn’t someone else. Kendall wouldn’t ever cheat on me anyway, I know he wouldn’t do that. But he just told me he can’t be with me anymore, he wouldn’t tell me more so he must just not love me anymore,” I sobbed hysterically again.

“Kendall is a moron, don’t let him get you this upset,” Logan told me.

“But I love him,” I kept crying.

Logan just held me as I cried and I cried until I was so exhausted I fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, my eyes were so puffy and my face still red. My voice was all nasally and when I got up I felt all dizzy, I even had to go to the bathroom and throw up. This is what I hate about crying so much to the point I get sick.

I stumbled downstairs, finding Logie and Soph sitting at the kitchen table. I plopped down and laid my head on the table. Sophie asked me how I was but I could only let out a grunt in response until Logan pushed a cup of coffee towards me which I slurped down.

“How are you doing?” Sophie asked me, rubbing my back gently.

“I’m just really…sad,” I sighed, running a hand through my hair.

“It’ll get better,” She encouraged, “Trust me, I know.”

“Yeah, you could get an awesome guy like me,” Logie teased but I just raised an eyebrow at him.

“I don’t think I’m going to date for a long time,” I muttered.

“Aw, don’t say that. I’m sure you’ll find a cute guy,” Soph smiled.

“Yeah, forget about that idiot Kendall,” Logan told me.

“He’s not an idiot,” I found myself defending him. “But I’m going to take a shower.”

They nodded before I left the room, heading to try to wash away some of the heartbreak, but I quickly found it wasn’t going away. I just thought everything was going so great with us, I really love him but obviously he doesn’t feel the same. I think part of me will always love him though, no matter what.