Colorless Rose

I miss home. I missed him. I missed the smell of the air. I missed the ocean. I missed the heat. I missed the scenery. I missed the people...The people that I didn't even know....I missed the street noise. The cars. The annoying children screaming. I missed having my favorite boutiques 2 minutes away. I missed everything. Every little thing I hated. How is that even possible? The city just had sudden meaning to me. Of course it wasn't because it's where I grew up, where I lived pretty much my whole life, where I was born, where I did everything....that I ever did in my past. It was him. He gave it meaning, Even after he left.
Yet that's all the more reason to leave. Why hold on? He'll never be back. He just up and left, Why not me?