Sequel: Unhinged ›
All of Me
When You Fall Asleep Tonight, Remember That We Lay Under The Same Stars
I couldn’t believe how fucked up this whole situation has made me.
I was -, I felt like a different person than before.
“Nick, how are you doing?”
I shrugged as my Mom joined me out on the patio swing.
“You seem down lately.”
I swallowed hard, “I don’t know what it is Mom. I just… I just don’t feel happy I guess.”
“Is it us? Destiny?” She asked as she rubbed my back.
I shrugged again.
“Maybe both?”
“What can I do to help?”
I stood quiet.
“Do you not want to be with D anymore?”
“I don’t know, I love her. I really do. I’m just, in a funk I guess.”
“Knock, knock.” D’s sweet voice said.
“I’ll leave you two.” My Mom said. She got off the swing and offered her spot to D and went back in the house.
“Hi Nick.” She said and she placed a quick kiss on my lips.
“Hi.” I mumbled.
“You alright?”
“I’m fine.” I said coldly.
“You sure don’t sound fine.”
“I’m sorry, I’m just, I don’t know.”
She placed her hand on my arm and squeezed.
“I think I just want to be alone for now.” I said, pulling away from her grasp.
“Oh,” She sounded hurt, “I’ll go then.”
She got up to leave.
“Do you ever think this was a mistake?” I asked.
She stopped in her tracks and turned to face me.
“What was a mistake?”
“Us.” I whispered.
“What are you talking about Nick?”
“You don’t think things were easier when we were just friends?”
“If you’re asking me if I regret our relationship Nick, I -”
“That’s not what I’m asking, I’m just saying weren’t things much simpler before we, you know, started fucking?” I spat
“Is this what that is to you? Fucking me, is that why you’re with me?”
I shook my head in frustration, “Forget it.”
“No, I will not forget it. Nick are you listening to yourself?” Tears were streaming down her face.
“I just need some time D.”
“Are you breaking up with me?”
“No, I just need some time to myself.”
“Are we going to be okay?”
“I don’t know. I need to think.”
“Nick, we shouldn’t take time from each other like this, we’ve never really -”
“Fine, I’m breaking up with you.”
She didn’t say a word.
“You can let yourself out.” I said as I got up and walked to the other side of the patio.
“Seriously?” She asked.
I said nothing more to her. I couldn’t. I was drained. Honestly I didn’t know why I was doing this. I needed happiness and at the moment, my family and D couldn’t give that to me. At least not right now.
“Dude, what did you do? D left in hysterics.” Joe asked curiously.
“We broke up.”
“Why?”
“Can you just fuck off Joe? Go ahead now’s your chance. I know you’ve always wanted her.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I see the way you look at her. By all means, go for it.”
“You’re a dick.”
--
I was depressed. I didn't even really know why.
I laid on my bed in silence.
“Nick, what happened between you and D?” My Dad asked.
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“I know you love her. What’s going on?”
“I said I don’t want to talk about it.”
He sighed but left my room.
Did I regret the way I treated her? Yes. But I knew this would be good for me. Or at least I hoped.
I unlocked my phone and clicked her name.
I’m sorry for the way I treated you. xx
My hand hovered over the send button for what felt like hours.
I finally clicked the button
Message Deleted
I was -, I felt like a different person than before.
“Nick, how are you doing?”
I shrugged as my Mom joined me out on the patio swing.
“You seem down lately.”
I swallowed hard, “I don’t know what it is Mom. I just… I just don’t feel happy I guess.”
“Is it us? Destiny?” She asked as she rubbed my back.
I shrugged again.
“Maybe both?”
“What can I do to help?”
I stood quiet.
“Do you not want to be with D anymore?”
“I don’t know, I love her. I really do. I’m just, in a funk I guess.”
“Knock, knock.” D’s sweet voice said.
“I’ll leave you two.” My Mom said. She got off the swing and offered her spot to D and went back in the house.
“Hi Nick.” She said and she placed a quick kiss on my lips.
“Hi.” I mumbled.
“You alright?”
“I’m fine.” I said coldly.
“You sure don’t sound fine.”
“I’m sorry, I’m just, I don’t know.”
She placed her hand on my arm and squeezed.
“I think I just want to be alone for now.” I said, pulling away from her grasp.
“Oh,” She sounded hurt, “I’ll go then.”
She got up to leave.
“Do you ever think this was a mistake?” I asked.
She stopped in her tracks and turned to face me.
“What was a mistake?”
“Us.” I whispered.
“What are you talking about Nick?”
“You don’t think things were easier when we were just friends?”
“If you’re asking me if I regret our relationship Nick, I -”
“That’s not what I’m asking, I’m just saying weren’t things much simpler before we, you know, started fucking?” I spat
“Is this what that is to you? Fucking me, is that why you’re with me?”
I shook my head in frustration, “Forget it.”
“No, I will not forget it. Nick are you listening to yourself?” Tears were streaming down her face.
“I just need some time D.”
“Are you breaking up with me?”
“No, I just need some time to myself.”
“Are we going to be okay?”
“I don’t know. I need to think.”
“Nick, we shouldn’t take time from each other like this, we’ve never really -”
“Fine, I’m breaking up with you.”
She didn’t say a word.
“You can let yourself out.” I said as I got up and walked to the other side of the patio.
“Seriously?” She asked.
I said nothing more to her. I couldn’t. I was drained. Honestly I didn’t know why I was doing this. I needed happiness and at the moment, my family and D couldn’t give that to me. At least not right now.
“Dude, what did you do? D left in hysterics.” Joe asked curiously.
“We broke up.”
“Why?”
“Can you just fuck off Joe? Go ahead now’s your chance. I know you’ve always wanted her.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I see the way you look at her. By all means, go for it.”
“You’re a dick.”
--
I was depressed. I didn't even really know why.
I laid on my bed in silence.
“Nick, what happened between you and D?” My Dad asked.
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“I know you love her. What’s going on?”
“I said I don’t want to talk about it.”
He sighed but left my room.
Did I regret the way I treated her? Yes. But I knew this would be good for me. Or at least I hoped.
I unlocked my phone and clicked her name.
I’m sorry for the way I treated you. xx
My hand hovered over the send button for what felt like hours.
I finally clicked the button
Message Deleted