Falling for the Bad Boy
Chapter 34 - When Reality Hits.
Chapter 34 - When Reality Hits.
Jase POV.
I slowly turn my head and look around my room. My eyes analyze all the pictures on the wall; they all meant something. My eyes land on a specific picture and a smile makes itself onto my face. It was a picture of the first kiss that Angie and I shared.
'The kissing booth.' I remember that day all too well. I also remember the way Angie stuttered as her face flushed. That was the first time I realized that I had feelings for her.
Suddenly the feelings of sadness rushed into me and I let out a sigh. I move forward, taking one step at a time. 'Why do my legs feel so heavy?' I walk over to the bed and pick up the Duffel bag that Stacey had packed this morning. Today is the day of the surgery. To say that I'm scared would be an understatement because I'm terrified. Not of the surgery but of the chance that I might be leaving everyone behind permanently.
I hear my room's door open behind me. "Jase, are you ready?"
I force a smile onto my face and turn to look at Stacey. I nod my head and sling the Duffel bag over my shoulder. I frown as I approach my sister; she had bags under her eyes.
My eyes narrow. "Were you crying?"
I watched as she visibly swallowed and tears leaked out of her eyes. She takes a step forward and leans her head on my chest. I bring my hand up and set it on her head.
"Don't cry. I don't know what to do when you cry. I need you to be strong for me, Stacey." I close my eyes as I try to make sure my voice didn't break.
Stacey slowly lifts her head up and her eyes meet mine. She wipes her tears away. "I won't cry."I give her a small smile and caress her cheek. "Are you going to see Angie before you leave?"
My smile drops and I step away from her. "Yes." I whisper.
Without another word I make my way down the stairs. Hopefully Angie won't be awake just yet. I glance at the clock as I pass by the living room. 4:56AM. No, she's probably still sleeping.
I blink my eyes to stop the stinging sensation. Everyone decided to sleep in my room when they found out about the tumor. That was an hour ago. The lack of sleep is really making my eyes sting and it's giving me a headache.
I walk across the front yard over to Steven's place. I sigh in relief when I find the front door unlocked. My eyes meet Steven's when I open the door. My widen and I look around the room.
"She's still asleep."
I close my eyes and take deep breaths.
"I knew you'd come."
I open my eyes and narrow them at Steven. "I just wanna see her face before I leave." I admit.
My eyes lower to the ground. The thought of not being able to come back was eating my heart. But I can't tell Angie about the tumor just yet. 'When I come back I'll tell her.'
Steven nods and moves aside. Not wanting to waste time, I walk up the stairs towards Angie's room. I slow down as I get closer, not wanting to wake her up. I pause when I'm standing directly in front of her room's door. My heart starts to race. I carefully open the door and step inside. My heart starts to beat even faster when my eyes fall on Angie's sleeping form.
I walk over to her and let the bag fall onto the floor. I open the bag and take out an envelope and stare at it. I look around the room and try to spot a place where Angie can see this. I walk over to the dresser and place the envelope on top of it. Then I turn back to Angie and walk towards her sleeping form. I drop onto my knees on the floor beside her bed. She looked to carefree and happy in her sleep. I lift my hand and brush the hair out of Angie's face. I let my hand linger on her face as my fingers brush along the side of it.
I lean forward towards her lips. Just one kiss. I close my eyes. Her sweet smile flashed in front of my eyes, the sound of her voice when she whines and chases after me, her flushed face when she told me that she loves me. 'I love her.' My eyes snap open and they widen with realization. I look down at her with sorrow.
"I love you..." I whisper.
Angie POV.
"I love you..."
So familiar. I try to put a face to the voice. I know this voice. I try to open my eyes but I couldn't so I gave up. I relax and try to drift back to sleep. 'Its only a dream'.
I feel something soft on my lips and I relax further. A familiar scent clouds my senses and confusion swarms me.
'Jase?'
My eyes snap open and I look at Jase's closed eyes. My lips open and Jase jerks away from me. I sit up and watch him with confusion. I reach my hand out to touch his arm. Before I can touch him, Jase flinches away. I watch as he quickly backs away from me and picks up his Duffel bag from the floor. Without another glance Jase storms out the room. I break out of my trance and quickly get up to chase after him.
I slip and fall when the sheets tangle with my feet. I quickly get up and scurry behind him.
"Jase!"
I watch him as he exits my room. I speed up. Jase sprints down the stairs.
"Jase!"
Instead of slowing down Jase speeds up. I sprint down the stairs behind him. If only he could slow down and listen to me. I need answers. I need to know why.
Fear bubbles up inside me when Jase gets further and further away from me. I run towards the door and tears cloud my vision when I watch Jase get into his car. Suddenly all the hope I previously had leaves me. I stop running and just stand there. I close my eyes and take one deep breath. The tears fall from my eyes when I open them.
I take in another deep breath. "Jase!" I scream with all the strength in me.
His car abruptly stops for a second and then he starts to pull out of the drive way again. Then he's gone. Just like that, he left me... again. My shoulders slump and turn around and walk back to the house.
I find Steven standing at the door when I reach it. My bottom lip starts to quiver when my eyes land on him. Steven sighs and opens his arms and I walk into them. He puts his arms around me and runs his hands up and down my back.
"He'll be back, princess." He promises.
"He kissed me." I tell him. And he said 'I love you.' But that could've also been me dreaming. I shake my head.
Steven's arms tighten around me. "He'll be back." He repeated.
I step out of his arms. "I'm going to bed." I turn without waiting for him to reply.
I climb onto my bed when I enter my room. I pull the covers over my head and roll over to my side. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep with the thoughts of Jase on my mind.
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I groan and roll over to my other side. I put my arm over my eyes. 'What is that light?' I remove my arms and open my eyes and immediately close them when light enters my eyes. I groan and roll away from light.
Finally, I open my eyes and sit up on the bed. I stretch my hands over my head.
I glance at the door that Jase walked out from. I shake my head. 'Why can't I stop thinking about him?!' I get out of bed and walk towards the wall opposite from my bed. I stop in front of my parents picture. I lift my hand and trace my fingers over my mom and dad's face. Tears pool my eyes. I lean my head against the photo.
I lean away when a thought suddenly crosses my head. I quickly run to my closet and throw my night clothes off. Throwing them onto the side, I quickly pull on a pair of shorts and a shirt and grab a hoodie. Then, I run to the dresser and grab for my purse. I accidentally drop an envelope and papers.
"Shoot!"
I quickly pick up the envelope and put it back on the dresser and then I turn around and run to the door. I run down the stairs towards the main door. I pull my phone out and text my address to the taxi agency and lock the phone when I get a text back.
I patiently wait at the main doors and tap my feet on the floor. I straighten up when I see a cab pulling up. I open the door to the car and climb in. I sit back and relax on the seat after giving the driver instructions to my destination.
I climb out the cab when it stops and open my purse. Taking out the cash, I hand it to the driver. I watch as he drives away and then turn around. I stare at the entrance for a long time. 'Cemetery' it read. I stand there for a while longer before I take a step towards the cemetery.
I look at the millions of graves and drop my gaze to the ground. I walk over to the mini hill. Tears cloud my eyes when I find my parents graves next to each other. I put my purse and hoodie in between them and drop onto my knees.
"Hi mom," I run my hand over her grave. "Hello dad. Its been a long time since I visit. Three weeks to be exact. I'm sorry." I try to smile but my tears were falling.
I look down at my empty hands. "And I forgot your flowers. I was in such a hurry and I was so excited to see you guys that I forgot about the flowers. I'm sorry for coming empty handed." I apologize.
I wipe my tears and hiccup. "I know it's been seven months since you guys left but it still chokes me." I chuckle. "I also know I told you that I'll be bringing someone special next time I come...but things changed."
I play with my fingers. "Its a boy." I admit. "We were dating for four months and then he suddenly broke up with me. I loved him, I still do. His name is Jase." I pathetically cry in front of my parents. But that's OK, right? Its OK to be a baby in front of your parents. "I also know that its stupid to fall in love with someone just in four months. But I couldn't help it; he's an amazing person; harsh cover but he has a pure heart." I tell them about Jase.
"Enough about him. I hope you guys are doing good in heaven. I really miss you guys."
I sit there between mom and dad for the next three hours and talk about everything and nothing in particular. I reach for my purse and pull my phone out. I bite my lip when I see seventeen missed calls from Steven. I slowly climb onto my feet.
"I'm going to leave you guys for now but I'll b-"
I quickly grab my hoodie from the ground and vomit on it, making sure that none fell onto the ground. I wrap the hoodie up and clutch my stomach with my free hand. I wince when my head starts to pound. I pick my purse off the ground and look at mom and dad one last time.
"Bye mom. Bye dad."
I walk down the hill towards the exit of the cemetery. I slow down when my vision starts to get blurry. I exit the cemetery and lean against the post just out of it.
'I don't feel so....'
And then everything goes black.
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I wake up to the annoying sound of something beeping. I slowly open my eyes and try to recognize the room but I fail. I slowly sit up and look around the room and my eyes land on medical machines. 'I'm in a hospital... but why?' Confused, I try to recall everything that happened today.
Jase left, then I slept, I went to visit mom and dad and then... then what? I clutch my head with both my hands. 'Why don't I remember?'
"You're thinking too hard. It's not good for you."
My head snaps up and I look at the woman in front of me. She was wearing a white coat and had a friendly smile on her face.
"I have to go." I tell her as I take the white sheets off me and get off the bed. I move my hair out of my hair.
I look around the room for my purse and and phone. Then suddenly all the oxygen rushed out of my lungs and I couldn't breathe. I collapsed onto the floor and try to gulp air in. I look up when I see a pair of white heels approaching.
The doctor crouches down until she's down to my level.
"Calm down and take deep breaths." I do exactly what she says. I relax when I start to breathe normally.
"Thank you." I smile
She simply shakes her head. "You almost had a miscarriage. It's not good to stress in this condition." She says softly.
My head snaps up and my eyebrows scrunch up in confusion. "Miscarriage?" I ask her
Her eyebrows shoot up in surprise. "Oh. I'm sorry. I had no clue that you didn't know." She says. "You're pregnant. One week to be exact."
My mouth drops open and my body goes numb. "Pregnant..." I whisper. I get up with the help of the doctor.
"I need to go." I tell her again.
"OK. But I need you to come back. I can set up an appointment. There are many things we need to discuss because I'm assuming this is your first child." She carries on.
Not paying her any attention, I walk towards the door. "I need to go home."
She stops what she's doing and watches me for a while. Finally, she nods her head. "Just promise me that you'll come back. Here's my card. You can call me anytime."
She hands me her card and my purse.
I take the card and purse from her hand. "I promise."
She nods and smiles. I turn around and leave the room. What I thought was a hospital actually turned out to be a clinic. I texted the cab when I exited the clinic.
I climb in when the taxi pulls in front of me. I sit back into the seat and close my eyes. There's too much going on and its making my head spin.
I open my eyes when the taxi stops. I get out and pay the driver. I open my purse and rummage through it for the house keys as I walk up the steps. I unlock the door and enter the mansion. I walk towards my room and sigh when I enter it. Then I make my way towards my bed and lie on top of it.
'I'm pregnant with Jase's baby.' I put my hand on my stomach and gently rub it. 'Jase broke up with me. He won't want the baby. My baby is going to be alone. No! I won't let my baby feel alone. I'll give my baby the love of a mother and a father.'
I sit up and get off the bed. I walk over to my purse on the dresser and look through it for my phone. I unlock the phone and dial Steven's number when something catches my eye.
It was the envelope that I dropped earlier. But it was Jase's name on the envelope that caught my eye.
I pick up the envelope and open it. Inside there was lined paper with writing on it. I recognized it as Jase's.
'I know you hate me and I don't blame you. I didn't break up with you because I don't care. Truth is that I care alot. More than you may think. I'm sick, Angie. And by the time you read this, I might already be dead. I didn't know how to tell you this; I'm a coward, I admit. There are medical reports in the envelope. I hope that one day you find the heart to forgive me. I truly do care; you're the best thing that happened to me.'
My heart was beating in my chest, I'm surprised that my rib cage didn't shatter into pieces yet. 'Dead...' my hands shake as I pull out the medical reports from the envelope. 'Just do it, Angie.' My heart stops when my eyes land on the word "brain tumor". My heart starts to beat even faster.
'He has brain tumor...' I look at the other paper. My eyes search the top of the paper for a name. "Country Hills Hospital" it read.
"Brain surgery at 12:00PM at Country Hills Hospital."
'12:00PM.' I look at the clock and my eyes widen. 5:00PM. The surgery took place long time ago! I quickly get up and grab my phone and run down the stairs. Not wasting any time, I texted the cab yet once again.
I ran towards the taxi when it approached the main gates.
"Country Hills Hospital." I say as soon as I get inside. The driver doesn't waste any time and immediately starts to drive.
'Jase has brain tumor. He might be dead. His surgery was at noon. I'm pregnant with his baby. Will the baby have no father?' I shake my head. 'No! Jase will be fine. He said he still cares. He'll be fine.' I assure myself.
"We're here, ma'am." I break out of my thoughts and look up. I hand the driver some cash and dash out of the taxi. I run into the hospital and make my way towards reception.
The woman looks up as I approach her and smiles.
"How can I help you today?"
"I'm looking for someone."
"Do you have a name ma'am?"
"Jase Del-Rey Delsavio." I say immediately.
She nods her head and turns to the computer beside her. She types something on the computer and turns back to me.
"Room 304, third floor. The elevators are to the left." She tells me.
I nod my thanks and run towards the elevators. 'Please be OK. Please be OK...' I chant in my head as I enter the elevator and punch the button for the third floor. I step out when the door opens. My eyes scan the numbers written on top of the door as I walk past them.
'309...308...307...306...305...' my eyes land on Naline's crying figure. She had her arms wrapped around her older son as she sobbed into his chest. I immediately walk towards them. She looks up and her eyes fill with hatred when she spots me.
"You!" She points her finger at me as she steps towards me. "It's all your fault! Ever since he met you, bad things have been happening to him. You did this to my son!" She raised her hand.
Before she can slap me, Romaine puts his arms around her waist and pulls her away. He looks at me and motions me to the room with his head.
I nod back and step around Naline and Romaine.
"...he might wake up today or tomorrow or he might never wake up."
I freeze.
"Never wake up?"
All heads turn to me but my eyes were on Jase. There he lay on the hospital bed. I slowly walk towards him. My eyes tear up when I see how bad he looked. I bring my hand up and cup his face. He had bags under his eyes and even in his sleep he looked exhausted. There were white bandages wrapped around his head. The sight of him made me cry. I felt guilty. Here I've been crying the whole time while Jase was just as miserable inside.
"Jase." I whisper. "Jase, wake up." My voice sounded weird as I tried to hold my tears back.
No response.
"Jase, I'm serious. Game over. Please wake up." My voice was rising.
Still no response.
I put my hands on his arm and I start to shake him. "Jase you have to wake up. You promised that you won't leave me." My tears start to leak.
Still no response.
"Jase!" I scream.
I stumble backwards when I still don't receive a response. I back away from him until by back hits the wall opposite of him.
"What about our baby?" I place my hand on my stomach.
"What?" They all ask at the same time. Everyone but Jase.
"I'm pregnant."
"The next heir." I hear Naline say behind me.
A hand grips my arm. "Are you sure, Angie. Do you hear what you're saying?"
I look up and narrow my eyes at Steven. I throw his hand off me and he backs away with surprise written all over his face.
"You knew," I accused him. Then I turn to face everyone standing in the room. "You all knew yet you didn't tell me!" I scream.
Steven pulls me into his arms. "Believe us, Angie, we wanted to tell you but Jase wouldn't allow us." I try to push him away but his arms only tightened around me. "Calm down."
"Don't tell me to calm down!" I push him away. "That," I point to Jase, "is the man I love but he's on a hospital bed and I don't know when he'll wake up. Not only he had brain tumor but I also found out that I'm pregnant with his baby. How do you expect me to be calm, Steven. I need him..." I pathetically wipe the tears streaming down my face and sob.
Steven puts his hands on my shoulder. "Don't worry about the baby, princess. We're with you. And don't you worry about Jase, he'll wake up. He is only in comatose. I will find the best doctors and he will wake up." His eyes held a promise.
"Really?" I look at him with my tear filled eyes. I look around the room and found the crew members nodding their head.
"Yes, really." They all say at the same time.
I move my eyes from them to Jase. I step away from Steven and towards Jase. I drag the stool towards Jase's bed and take a seat.
"Can I be alone with him for a while?" I ask them.
"Alright. We're outside if you need us." I hear Stacey.
I take Jase's hand in mine and kiss it softly.
"Wake up, Jase. I need you. Our baby needs you."
All I got in response was the beeping of the heart monitor and silence.
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Jase POV.
I slowly turn my head and look around my room. My eyes analyze all the pictures on the wall; they all meant something. My eyes land on a specific picture and a smile makes itself onto my face. It was a picture of the first kiss that Angie and I shared.
'The kissing booth.' I remember that day all too well. I also remember the way Angie stuttered as her face flushed. That was the first time I realized that I had feelings for her.
Suddenly the feelings of sadness rushed into me and I let out a sigh. I move forward, taking one step at a time. 'Why do my legs feel so heavy?' I walk over to the bed and pick up the Duffel bag that Stacey had packed this morning. Today is the day of the surgery. To say that I'm scared would be an understatement because I'm terrified. Not of the surgery but of the chance that I might be leaving everyone behind permanently.
I hear my room's door open behind me. "Jase, are you ready?"
I force a smile onto my face and turn to look at Stacey. I nod my head and sling the Duffel bag over my shoulder. I frown as I approach my sister; she had bags under her eyes.
My eyes narrow. "Were you crying?"
I watched as she visibly swallowed and tears leaked out of her eyes. She takes a step forward and leans her head on my chest. I bring my hand up and set it on her head.
"Don't cry. I don't know what to do when you cry. I need you to be strong for me, Stacey." I close my eyes as I try to make sure my voice didn't break.
Stacey slowly lifts her head up and her eyes meet mine. She wipes her tears away. "I won't cry."I give her a small smile and caress her cheek. "Are you going to see Angie before you leave?"
My smile drops and I step away from her. "Yes." I whisper.
Without another word I make my way down the stairs. Hopefully Angie won't be awake just yet. I glance at the clock as I pass by the living room. 4:56AM. No, she's probably still sleeping.
I blink my eyes to stop the stinging sensation. Everyone decided to sleep in my room when they found out about the tumor. That was an hour ago. The lack of sleep is really making my eyes sting and it's giving me a headache.
I walk across the front yard over to Steven's place. I sigh in relief when I find the front door unlocked. My eyes meet Steven's when I open the door. My widen and I look around the room.
"She's still asleep."
I close my eyes and take deep breaths.
"I knew you'd come."
I open my eyes and narrow them at Steven. "I just wanna see her face before I leave." I admit.
My eyes lower to the ground. The thought of not being able to come back was eating my heart. But I can't tell Angie about the tumor just yet. 'When I come back I'll tell her.'
Steven nods and moves aside. Not wanting to waste time, I walk up the stairs towards Angie's room. I slow down as I get closer, not wanting to wake her up. I pause when I'm standing directly in front of her room's door. My heart starts to race. I carefully open the door and step inside. My heart starts to beat even faster when my eyes fall on Angie's sleeping form.
I walk over to her and let the bag fall onto the floor. I open the bag and take out an envelope and stare at it. I look around the room and try to spot a place where Angie can see this. I walk over to the dresser and place the envelope on top of it. Then I turn back to Angie and walk towards her sleeping form. I drop onto my knees on the floor beside her bed. She looked to carefree and happy in her sleep. I lift my hand and brush the hair out of Angie's face. I let my hand linger on her face as my fingers brush along the side of it.
I lean forward towards her lips. Just one kiss. I close my eyes. Her sweet smile flashed in front of my eyes, the sound of her voice when she whines and chases after me, her flushed face when she told me that she loves me. 'I love her.' My eyes snap open and they widen with realization. I look down at her with sorrow.
"I love you..." I whisper.
Angie POV.
"I love you..."
So familiar. I try to put a face to the voice. I know this voice. I try to open my eyes but I couldn't so I gave up. I relax and try to drift back to sleep. 'Its only a dream'.
I feel something soft on my lips and I relax further. A familiar scent clouds my senses and confusion swarms me.
'Jase?'
My eyes snap open and I look at Jase's closed eyes. My lips open and Jase jerks away from me. I sit up and watch him with confusion. I reach my hand out to touch his arm. Before I can touch him, Jase flinches away. I watch as he quickly backs away from me and picks up his Duffel bag from the floor. Without another glance Jase storms out the room. I break out of my trance and quickly get up to chase after him.
I slip and fall when the sheets tangle with my feet. I quickly get up and scurry behind him.
"Jase!"
I watch him as he exits my room. I speed up. Jase sprints down the stairs.
"Jase!"
Instead of slowing down Jase speeds up. I sprint down the stairs behind him. If only he could slow down and listen to me. I need answers. I need to know why.
Fear bubbles up inside me when Jase gets further and further away from me. I run towards the door and tears cloud my vision when I watch Jase get into his car. Suddenly all the hope I previously had leaves me. I stop running and just stand there. I close my eyes and take one deep breath. The tears fall from my eyes when I open them.
I take in another deep breath. "Jase!" I scream with all the strength in me.
His car abruptly stops for a second and then he starts to pull out of the drive way again. Then he's gone. Just like that, he left me... again. My shoulders slump and turn around and walk back to the house.
I find Steven standing at the door when I reach it. My bottom lip starts to quiver when my eyes land on him. Steven sighs and opens his arms and I walk into them. He puts his arms around me and runs his hands up and down my back.
"He'll be back, princess." He promises.
"He kissed me." I tell him. And he said 'I love you.' But that could've also been me dreaming. I shake my head.
Steven's arms tighten around me. "He'll be back." He repeated.
I step out of his arms. "I'm going to bed." I turn without waiting for him to reply.
I climb onto my bed when I enter my room. I pull the covers over my head and roll over to my side. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep with the thoughts of Jase on my mind.
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I groan and roll over to my other side. I put my arm over my eyes. 'What is that light?' I remove my arms and open my eyes and immediately close them when light enters my eyes. I groan and roll away from light.
Finally, I open my eyes and sit up on the bed. I stretch my hands over my head.
I glance at the door that Jase walked out from. I shake my head. 'Why can't I stop thinking about him?!' I get out of bed and walk towards the wall opposite from my bed. I stop in front of my parents picture. I lift my hand and trace my fingers over my mom and dad's face. Tears pool my eyes. I lean my head against the photo.
I lean away when a thought suddenly crosses my head. I quickly run to my closet and throw my night clothes off. Throwing them onto the side, I quickly pull on a pair of shorts and a shirt and grab a hoodie. Then, I run to the dresser and grab for my purse. I accidentally drop an envelope and papers.
"Shoot!"
I quickly pick up the envelope and put it back on the dresser and then I turn around and run to the door. I run down the stairs towards the main door. I pull my phone out and text my address to the taxi agency and lock the phone when I get a text back.
I patiently wait at the main doors and tap my feet on the floor. I straighten up when I see a cab pulling up. I open the door to the car and climb in. I sit back and relax on the seat after giving the driver instructions to my destination.
I climb out the cab when it stops and open my purse. Taking out the cash, I hand it to the driver. I watch as he drives away and then turn around. I stare at the entrance for a long time. 'Cemetery' it read. I stand there for a while longer before I take a step towards the cemetery.
I look at the millions of graves and drop my gaze to the ground. I walk over to the mini hill. Tears cloud my eyes when I find my parents graves next to each other. I put my purse and hoodie in between them and drop onto my knees.
"Hi mom," I run my hand over her grave. "Hello dad. Its been a long time since I visit. Three weeks to be exact. I'm sorry." I try to smile but my tears were falling.
I look down at my empty hands. "And I forgot your flowers. I was in such a hurry and I was so excited to see you guys that I forgot about the flowers. I'm sorry for coming empty handed." I apologize.
I wipe my tears and hiccup. "I know it's been seven months since you guys left but it still chokes me." I chuckle. "I also know I told you that I'll be bringing someone special next time I come...but things changed."
I play with my fingers. "Its a boy." I admit. "We were dating for four months and then he suddenly broke up with me. I loved him, I still do. His name is Jase." I pathetically cry in front of my parents. But that's OK, right? Its OK to be a baby in front of your parents. "I also know that its stupid to fall in love with someone just in four months. But I couldn't help it; he's an amazing person; harsh cover but he has a pure heart." I tell them about Jase.
"Enough about him. I hope you guys are doing good in heaven. I really miss you guys."
I sit there between mom and dad for the next three hours and talk about everything and nothing in particular. I reach for my purse and pull my phone out. I bite my lip when I see seventeen missed calls from Steven. I slowly climb onto my feet.
"I'm going to leave you guys for now but I'll b-"
I quickly grab my hoodie from the ground and vomit on it, making sure that none fell onto the ground. I wrap the hoodie up and clutch my stomach with my free hand. I wince when my head starts to pound. I pick my purse off the ground and look at mom and dad one last time.
"Bye mom. Bye dad."
I walk down the hill towards the exit of the cemetery. I slow down when my vision starts to get blurry. I exit the cemetery and lean against the post just out of it.
'I don't feel so....'
And then everything goes black.
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I wake up to the annoying sound of something beeping. I slowly open my eyes and try to recognize the room but I fail. I slowly sit up and look around the room and my eyes land on medical machines. 'I'm in a hospital... but why?' Confused, I try to recall everything that happened today.
Jase left, then I slept, I went to visit mom and dad and then... then what? I clutch my head with both my hands. 'Why don't I remember?'
"You're thinking too hard. It's not good for you."
My head snaps up and I look at the woman in front of me. She was wearing a white coat and had a friendly smile on her face.
"I have to go." I tell her as I take the white sheets off me and get off the bed. I move my hair out of my hair.
I look around the room for my purse and and phone. Then suddenly all the oxygen rushed out of my lungs and I couldn't breathe. I collapsed onto the floor and try to gulp air in. I look up when I see a pair of white heels approaching.
The doctor crouches down until she's down to my level.
"Calm down and take deep breaths." I do exactly what she says. I relax when I start to breathe normally.
"Thank you." I smile
She simply shakes her head. "You almost had a miscarriage. It's not good to stress in this condition." She says softly.
My head snaps up and my eyebrows scrunch up in confusion. "Miscarriage?" I ask her
Her eyebrows shoot up in surprise. "Oh. I'm sorry. I had no clue that you didn't know." She says. "You're pregnant. One week to be exact."
My mouth drops open and my body goes numb. "Pregnant..." I whisper. I get up with the help of the doctor.
"I need to go." I tell her again.
"OK. But I need you to come back. I can set up an appointment. There are many things we need to discuss because I'm assuming this is your first child." She carries on.
Not paying her any attention, I walk towards the door. "I need to go home."
She stops what she's doing and watches me for a while. Finally, she nods her head. "Just promise me that you'll come back. Here's my card. You can call me anytime."
She hands me her card and my purse.
I take the card and purse from her hand. "I promise."
She nods and smiles. I turn around and leave the room. What I thought was a hospital actually turned out to be a clinic. I texted the cab when I exited the clinic.
I climb in when the taxi pulls in front of me. I sit back into the seat and close my eyes. There's too much going on and its making my head spin.
I open my eyes when the taxi stops. I get out and pay the driver. I open my purse and rummage through it for the house keys as I walk up the steps. I unlock the door and enter the mansion. I walk towards my room and sigh when I enter it. Then I make my way towards my bed and lie on top of it.
'I'm pregnant with Jase's baby.' I put my hand on my stomach and gently rub it. 'Jase broke up with me. He won't want the baby. My baby is going to be alone. No! I won't let my baby feel alone. I'll give my baby the love of a mother and a father.'
I sit up and get off the bed. I walk over to my purse on the dresser and look through it for my phone. I unlock the phone and dial Steven's number when something catches my eye.
It was the envelope that I dropped earlier. But it was Jase's name on the envelope that caught my eye.
I pick up the envelope and open it. Inside there was lined paper with writing on it. I recognized it as Jase's.
'I know you hate me and I don't blame you. I didn't break up with you because I don't care. Truth is that I care alot. More than you may think. I'm sick, Angie. And by the time you read this, I might already be dead. I didn't know how to tell you this; I'm a coward, I admit. There are medical reports in the envelope. I hope that one day you find the heart to forgive me. I truly do care; you're the best thing that happened to me.'
My heart was beating in my chest, I'm surprised that my rib cage didn't shatter into pieces yet. 'Dead...' my hands shake as I pull out the medical reports from the envelope. 'Just do it, Angie.' My heart stops when my eyes land on the word "brain tumor". My heart starts to beat even faster.
'He has brain tumor...' I look at the other paper. My eyes search the top of the paper for a name. "Country Hills Hospital" it read.
"Brain surgery at 12:00PM at Country Hills Hospital."
'12:00PM.' I look at the clock and my eyes widen. 5:00PM. The surgery took place long time ago! I quickly get up and grab my phone and run down the stairs. Not wasting any time, I texted the cab yet once again.
I ran towards the taxi when it approached the main gates.
"Country Hills Hospital." I say as soon as I get inside. The driver doesn't waste any time and immediately starts to drive.
'Jase has brain tumor. He might be dead. His surgery was at noon. I'm pregnant with his baby. Will the baby have no father?' I shake my head. 'No! Jase will be fine. He said he still cares. He'll be fine.' I assure myself.
"We're here, ma'am." I break out of my thoughts and look up. I hand the driver some cash and dash out of the taxi. I run into the hospital and make my way towards reception.
The woman looks up as I approach her and smiles.
"How can I help you today?"
"I'm looking for someone."
"Do you have a name ma'am?"
"Jase Del-Rey Delsavio." I say immediately.
She nods her head and turns to the computer beside her. She types something on the computer and turns back to me.
"Room 304, third floor. The elevators are to the left." She tells me.
I nod my thanks and run towards the elevators. 'Please be OK. Please be OK...' I chant in my head as I enter the elevator and punch the button for the third floor. I step out when the door opens. My eyes scan the numbers written on top of the door as I walk past them.
'309...308...307...306...305...' my eyes land on Naline's crying figure. She had her arms wrapped around her older son as she sobbed into his chest. I immediately walk towards them. She looks up and her eyes fill with hatred when she spots me.
"You!" She points her finger at me as she steps towards me. "It's all your fault! Ever since he met you, bad things have been happening to him. You did this to my son!" She raised her hand.
Before she can slap me, Romaine puts his arms around her waist and pulls her away. He looks at me and motions me to the room with his head.
I nod back and step around Naline and Romaine.
"...he might wake up today or tomorrow or he might never wake up."
I freeze.
"Never wake up?"
All heads turn to me but my eyes were on Jase. There he lay on the hospital bed. I slowly walk towards him. My eyes tear up when I see how bad he looked. I bring my hand up and cup his face. He had bags under his eyes and even in his sleep he looked exhausted. There were white bandages wrapped around his head. The sight of him made me cry. I felt guilty. Here I've been crying the whole time while Jase was just as miserable inside.
"Jase." I whisper. "Jase, wake up." My voice sounded weird as I tried to hold my tears back.
No response.
"Jase, I'm serious. Game over. Please wake up." My voice was rising.
Still no response.
I put my hands on his arm and I start to shake him. "Jase you have to wake up. You promised that you won't leave me." My tears start to leak.
Still no response.
"Jase!" I scream.
I stumble backwards when I still don't receive a response. I back away from him until by back hits the wall opposite of him.
"What about our baby?" I place my hand on my stomach.
"What?" They all ask at the same time. Everyone but Jase.
"I'm pregnant."
"The next heir." I hear Naline say behind me.
A hand grips my arm. "Are you sure, Angie. Do you hear what you're saying?"
I look up and narrow my eyes at Steven. I throw his hand off me and he backs away with surprise written all over his face.
"You knew," I accused him. Then I turn to face everyone standing in the room. "You all knew yet you didn't tell me!" I scream.
Steven pulls me into his arms. "Believe us, Angie, we wanted to tell you but Jase wouldn't allow us." I try to push him away but his arms only tightened around me. "Calm down."
"Don't tell me to calm down!" I push him away. "That," I point to Jase, "is the man I love but he's on a hospital bed and I don't know when he'll wake up. Not only he had brain tumor but I also found out that I'm pregnant with his baby. How do you expect me to be calm, Steven. I need him..." I pathetically wipe the tears streaming down my face and sob.
Steven puts his hands on my shoulder. "Don't worry about the baby, princess. We're with you. And don't you worry about Jase, he'll wake up. He is only in comatose. I will find the best doctors and he will wake up." His eyes held a promise.
"Really?" I look at him with my tear filled eyes. I look around the room and found the crew members nodding their head.
"Yes, really." They all say at the same time.
I move my eyes from them to Jase. I step away from Steven and towards Jase. I drag the stool towards Jase's bed and take a seat.
"Can I be alone with him for a while?" I ask them.
"Alright. We're outside if you need us." I hear Stacey.
I take Jase's hand in mine and kiss it softly.
"Wake up, Jase. I need you. Our baby needs you."
All I got in response was the beeping of the heart monitor and silence.
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