These Things I've Done

Days turned into weeks without even a glimpse of Kellin. Dr. Roberts had made sure to take him completely out of my sight with his new scheduling. I assumed he had suspected what was (potentially) going on between us. Though technically, nothing was. But, it was all intended.

I sat in my office, watching the clock, ready to leave in the next five minutes. I decided to pack up my things, that way I was able to be out quickly, and hopefully, avoid Dr. Roberts in the parking lot again. I was in no mood for another outing with the doctors.

Soon, there was a knock at the door. I sighed, suspecting Dr. Roberts decided to just meet me at my office, knowing I had been planning a quick getaway. I hesitated, dreading the thought of getting up to open the door. I sighed.
"Come in" I called out. The door knob turned, and the door slowly opened. My heart dropped.

"K-Kellin?" I said. I stood up. He walked in, quietly closing the door behind him. He sighed, leaning back on the door, smiling at me.
"W-what are you doing here?" I asked. He slowly made his way over to me.
"Taylor.. I.. I just.. I needed to talk to you. I'm.. I'm not even allowed in this wing anymore. But, I just.. needed you to know. Please, don't think I'm avoiding you. You're.. you're the only thing that kept me waking up in the morning. Now, sometimes I barely leave my bedroom."

I stared into his eyes. So big, so beautiful. He stared back.

Then, his hands reached forward, gently grabbing my waist. He pulled me close, almost up against him. My heart was racing. I clung to him, holding my stare. He was still staring back, now licking his lips. His hands began traveling up my body until his fingers gently ran up my neck, and my face was now in his hands. He moved closer, gently leaning his forehead against mine.

"Taylor, I may never get this opportunity again.. There.. are so many things I want to tell you. So many things you should know.. I I just.."

I bit my lip. My heart was pounding out of my chest.
"Kiss me." I whispered.

And he did.

Finally, I was met with those same lips I had dreamt of. He held me tightly, running his fingers through my hair, kissing me, more passionately that I had expected. I was pushed up against my desk to catch my balanced. I wrapped my arms around his neck. Soon, I felt his hands move down to my hips. He effortlessly lifted me, placing me on the desk, kissing me harder than before. My hands traveled up into his hair, tangling my fingers within, pulling him closer. All I wanted was him closer. I was feeling light headed. I gently moved away, leaning my forehead back against his. He was breathing deeply, now looking back at the desk. He bit his lip, and with a swipe of his arm, had cleared everything on my desk onto the floor.

Grabbing his shirt, I pulled him back over to me, and his lips collided with mine once again, his arms traveled back down to my waist, holding it tightly, pulling it up against him as he kissed me harder, pushing me back onto the desk as he climbed over me.

Was this actually happening? Was I dreaming?

His passionate kisses moved as his lips began to travel up and down my neck. I tangled my fingers in his hair once again, pulling him closer. He was never close enough.

"Taylor.." I heard between kisses.
"Hmmm?" I managed to say. His hands moved up my waist, sliding under my shirt. The feelings of his hands against my skin made my heart pound. I was starting to feel dizzy again. He moved away, now staring down at me. His beautiful eyes, as if staring right through me. I couldn't help but stare back, getting lost in those eyes. He bit his lip, silently questioning whether or not to go further. I managed a nod between my now rapid breathing and pounding chest. He sighed.

"Taylor.. you.. you mean so much to me.. I just.. I just wish.. I could.. have you somewhere more.." He stopped himself. I knew what he meant. He leaned down, kissing me again. More gently this time, his lips barely brushing against mine.
"I.. I could love you better than anyone, Taylor." He said softly. "I could.. if you'd let me."
"And.. I want you too." I said. I saw a subtle smile go across his face. I couldn't help but smile back, gently running my fingers through his hair.
"This isn't fair.." He said "They.. they can't keep me from you, Taylor. They.. they don't understand how I feel." I nodded.
"I know how you feel." I said. He sighed, gently kissing my forehead.

It was never said, but we both knew. He was mine, and I was finally his.