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Stay With Me

"I walked into this life a lover And I was carrying a deep hope for you.."

I somehow managed to get to sleep with everything inside me at war. I woke up refreshed and trying to prepare myself for the long day.
I ended up getting myself a cup of tea and sitting on the floor of my room watching the colors of the sky change colors as the sun rose outside my window.
How am I going to make it through all this?
The tour?
Seeing him with her.
What if she doesn't like him?
Of course she will, who wouldn't?
He is wonderful, caring, funny, talented and so sweet, who wouldn't fall in love with him?
I never imagined my life turning into this, being the recipient of unrequited love.
But oh the places I've seen with them all, the people I've met.
The relationships that never really worked out.
Can I really do this?
Let go…forever?

“I have to.”
“You have to what Sawyer?”

Say anything quick!

“I have to get up and start getting ready; we have a long day ahead of us.”
“You got that right, I ordered breakfast already. Are you okay?”

How does he always do that?

“Yes I’m fine.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes.”

Well up we go.
I stood up to make my way to my suitcase to start picking out my clothes for the day.

“D-Do you always sleep in just a shirt?”
“Yes.”

He was looking at my legs and flushed a little.

“Geez Gerard they are just legs I am sure you seen some pairs that are way better than mine with your track record now out because I have to change.”
“S-“
“Out!”

He is such a weirdo sometimes.
15 minutes later he knocked on my door.

“Yeah?”
“Blue breakfast is here.”
“Okay I’ll be out in a minute.”

He was sitting at the table sipping on his coffee and looking over something.

“What did you order?”
“Well sit and have a look.”

I uncovered the plate oh he didn't…
“Waffles!”
“I know how much you love them and I figured might as well start the day right.”
“Is there any more coffee?”
“Is there anymore coffee Sawyer really?”

He produced a pot of coffee wow…

“Oh gosh I love you right now.”
“ha ha I love you too now eat your breakfast.”

That’s probably the only I love you I will ever get…when did I turn into such a downer?

We got into the town car and we on our way to the conference meeting for Revolver Magazine.

“Hey Gee..”
“Yeah?”
“Who is going to be at the conference?”
“As far as I know its going to be Mike & Chester, Ville and Adam.”
“So I finally get to meet Adam?”
“Oh yeah you haven’t met him yet have you?”
“No I didn’t go with you guys when you toured with them.”
“One of the first tours you decided to stay behind…”
“Yeah seems so long ago.”

Out of nowhere I was hit with a..

“Please don’t stop coming with us…”
“What?”
“Please…just stay with us…”
“Gee I-“
“I need you to be with us.”
“You won’t need me for much longer.”
“What do you mean we won’t need you for much longer? Of course we will always need you.”
“I didn't mean you guys I meant-“

“Mr. Way we are here.”

Thank you driver.

“Thank you. Come on we don’t want to be late.”
“Yeah.”

We were greeted by the receptionist who told us what floor to head to and what room it was, we took the elevator and he was determined not to drop the subject…

“What were you going to say in the car?”
“huh?”
“In the car you said ‘I didn't mean you guys I meant-‘”
“Can we just continue this another time? You have to go be a rock star professional at the moment.”
“Saw-“
“GERARD! HEY BUDDY!!”

Adam spotted Gee and walked over to him.

“Hey man! A whole summer with you guys it’s going to be great!”

He saw me standing next to him

“Oh I’m being rude right now my name is Adam Lazzara nice to meet you.”
“Hello Adam I’m Sawyer Bellerose.”
“Pretty name for such a pretty girl.”

Did he just say that?

“I uh-thank you.”
“Anytime.”

Gee cleared his throat. Adam let go of my hand.

“So Gee this is the famous Sawyer you kept talking about.”
“Yes this is my best friend.”
“How come I haven’t met you sooner?”
“She didn't come with us that tour.”
“Shame we could have gotten to know each other earlier.”
“I think I’m just going to let you guys do your thing while I stand over here and pick at the snack spread they laid out.”
“Ok Coraline.”

He gave me a quick peck on the cheek.
And I flushed again.
That was odd…did Adam just hit on me?
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