Please Understand This

Please understand this.

Please understand that on the inside I'm drowning in the words that I want to say to you, I'm suffocating on them.

But on the outside I can't say anything, because if I open my mouth and I start talking, I'll say all of the things that I've been dying to say and when I've finally exhausted my lips that I'll blow away.

Because all of the words inside of me will be used up and thrown away, and there will be nothing left to weigh me down.

I'll blow away with the wind.

Please understand that these letters are every ounce of fat and sorrow and blood that I have, and I hope I don't weigh you down too much.