Falling Slowly

"Hi dad.." I couldn't even look into my fathers eyes, I was to ashamed. Ashamed of what I've become, ashamed of what I've put him through. I was to selfish and concerned with myself, not even bothering to consider how much pain I would cause to him. He was the only person in my life that I have, well besides the pack, but I can't ever lose my dad. He's all I got.

"You run away for weeks, and all I get is, 'hi dad'?" I couldn't help but smile at my dad. "Give your old man a hug!" I bent down and threw my arms around him. I couldn't help but feel happiness run through me. I was finally home.

"Where is Embry and Quil?" I couldn't wait until I see my best friends. They were the ones I worried about. Every time they would phase, I could feel their depression, their sadness. I only had myself to blame for that. Every time I felt their emotions, I wanted to slap myself across the face. I never thought how much pain I would cause them either.

There was also a girl in their visions, she looked familiar but I never could pin point where I have seen her. Her name was Rhiannon though, that's all I saw or heard before they would stop their memory from coming forward. There was also another girl, I never truly saw her face full front, considering whenever I saw an image she was always turned with her back towards them. Or she had her face facing downward.

"Oh Embry and Quil will be here soon. Actually, they're here now." I heard a car door slam, and was indulged into a big bear hug with Embry and Quil. I couldn't help but let out a laugh as they started welcoming me back. I was so glad to have them back with me, I've missed my best friends.

"Ah, Jake! I want you to meet Amanda and Rhiannon Winters. They might seem familiar, you have met them at a Christmas party a few years back." I noticed that the older, taller girl was the one I saw in Embry's memory. Rhiannon, she was quite pretty if I say so myself. She had wavy, dirty blond hair. Her almond shaped eyes were a dark brown color. Her skin was slightly pale, but not as pale as ... Bella's..

Ah dammit! Why can't I just not think about her? Why do I always compare her to everyone I meet? Everything I see reminds me of her, and it just won't go away. I guess this is what heartbreak consists of.

Misery.

I watched as who I assumed was Amanda walk towards the porch, and watched her lift her face up. As our eyes connected, everything froze around me. God, was she beautiful. Her brunette hair was up in a messy bun, a few strands fell into her gorgeous face. Her bright blue eyes were mesmerizing, I could get lost in them. They had a sparkle to them.

Suddenly, I felt my heart leap into my chest as I watched her lips move silently. Everything in me changed, I felt a strong pang of adoration towards this pretty petite girl standing in front of me. I felt the urge to run up to her, lift her up and just plant a big kiss on her.

Wait...

Did I just...

Imprint?

That's impossible. I love Bella.

"Hi Amanda, I'm Jacob... Obviously." I watched her roll her sparkling blue eyes at me, I was hoping she didn't here the 'obviously' part. I felt heat that I already had, run up towards my cheeks, and creep into a blush when I felt her body brush past mine.

Oh, how I wish I could touch her every day. Stop Jake! Bad thoughts!


All through out the night I watched as Amanda was greeted by everyone. I warned her about Emily beforehand so she wouldn't stare, but as Emily approached her she seemed oblivious to the scars. I was impressed.

As my friends and dad tried to talk to me, I couldn't comprehend anything they were saying. I couldn't concentrate on anything but Amanda. She looked so angelic standing across the room talking to Seth. I felt a pang of jealously run through me when I saw Seth accidentally brush his hand against hers.

I'm such an idiot.

Across the room I could sense Amanda was getting uncomfortable. I quickly followed her gaze, which led straight into the direction of Leah. Great, what could Leah be doing now? I started to get pissed off when I saw the scowl and the glares Leah was sending towards Amanda. I took a few deep breaths to cool myself down before sending Leah into the trees behind the house.

I averted my gaze back towards Amanda, and noticed she had her eyes closed tightly. What is she doing? I didn't even realize I had walked over towards Amanda, until I saw her bright blue eyes staring up at me with bewilderment escaping them.

"Are you okay?" I asked, concern evident in my voice. She looked so frightened, I couldn't help but want to hold her, protect her from anything that comes to harm her.

She just stared up at me, I don't think she was even listening to me. "Amanda?"

"Oh, yeah.. I'm fine Jake." Oh, I loved how she said my name. I saw her weakly smile, I didn't believe that she was fine. She looked shaken up for some reason.

I watched as she just stared into my eyes, I couldn't look away. I had to though, I didn't want her to figure out who I was. What I was. But that's when I caught a whiff of an awful smell.

Vampire.