White Noises

I woke up in the middle of the night sobbing. I woke Baylen up and he turned to me.

"Are you ok?"

I shrugged, tears still falling. I wiped them away.

"No you're not."

I didn't say anything.

"Nightmare?"

I nodded.

Baylen got up and sat next to me. "Wanna talk about it?"

I shook my head.

Baylen frowned. "Ok."

I looked at him. "Why do you care?"

"Because you seem really upset."

I was upset. My nightmares were recurring, and I always dreamt about drowning. I'm afraid of suffocating. It seems like the worst way to die, because you can't breathe and you slowly die from lack of oxygen. It's terrifying. Drowning is the same as suffocating, yet you're under water, so it's twice as scary.

I'm claustrophobic as well. So I'm all kinds of screwed up.

"I'm ok now. Thank you for caring."

Baylen opened his mouth, then shut it. "Ok."

"Ok," I replied, smiling a little bit

Baylen smiled back. "Are you gonna be able to go back to sleep?"

"Who knows?" I answered honestly.

Baylen frowned again. "Well I'm gonna go back to sleep, talk to you later."

"Ok. Goodnight."

Baylen's smile returned.

Holy fuck, it was beautiful.