Beautiful

I was in pain.

So, so much pain.

Everything hurt. But I pushed through it and continued making breakfast for the whole house. Flipping a couple of pancakes, I went back to dicing the fruit. Looking around, I made sure that Missy was no where near me before popping a diced pineapple into my mouth and chewed fast. Wiping my mouth with the sleeve of my sweater, I turned back to the stove and took the cooked pancakes out of the pan and placed some more batter on to make a sixth batch. Pulling out plates for everyone, I set the table before making some bacon and hash browns. Checking the time on Bam's heartagram wall clock, I saw that it was already nine, meaning the whole house was about to wake up.

Getting out the orange juice, I placed it in the middle of the table before putting the diced fruit beside it. As soon as I did, I began to hear voices coming down the stairs, looking up, I smiled when I saw Ville and my brother coming down. I watched as Bam looked at me, his eyes holding pain and sorrow and sadness. I gave him a concerned and confused look. I saw him opening his mouth to tell me something, but nothing came out. The reason? Missy's annoying voice calling out. I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath before opening them and getting everything else settled on the table.

"Bam! I want to go shopping today!" Missy yelled.

"Missy," my brother sighed out, rubbing his eyes," not today. I'm not in the fucking mood."

"But Bammie!" Missy whined.

"God damn it!" Bam yelled," I fucking said no!"

As that came out of his mouth, Missy jumped back a bit, scared out of her mind. I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep from laughing. But I must not have been quick enough because Missy suddenly turned her head towards me and glared.

I looked away, not wanting to meet here eyes. Soon, everyone was at the table.

"This looks fucking good,"Dunn said as he sat down beside Novak.

"Dig in,' I said, smiling at him.

"Well, if you insist,"Raab said before leaning over the table and getting a couple of pancakes and bacon, along with some hash brown.

"This is marvelous!" Ville exclaimed, taking another bite on pancake," you are an amazing cook."

I looked over at Ville and gave him a warm smile. He smiled back, and something. Something in his eyes made warmth fill my body and heat on my cheeks. I looked away, knowing that I was blushing. For some reason, my eyes landed on Missy. And when they did, I saw that she was glaring at me.

"I'm going to shower," I announced quickly.

"Don't forget to eat something when you're done!" Bam yelled out.

I didn't say anything. Just continued my way upstairs. Quickly going into my room, I locked the door behind me before going to my closet. Getting out a pair of black sweats, a long sleeved, roucn collar gray shirt and a blue lacy bra and pantie set. Grabbing two towels, I rushed to my bathroom and shut and locked the door. Turning on the hot water, I let the steam rise before putting on the hot water a bit. Stripping out of my sweaty clothes, I quickly entered the shower and closed the glass door behind me. Getting under the spray of water, I let the water run down my body before getting my lavender scented shampoo and washing my hair out twice. Getting the conditioner, I lathered some on before pulling my hair up in a clip. Getting my lufa, I squirted some of my body was on it before scruubing my scarred body and shaving before scrubbing again.

The whole while I was scrubbing, I couldn't help but let my mind wander to Ville.

He is so handsome. And his eyes. Oh God, his eyes. I can look at them for hours and never get tired of it. I couldn't help but think of him being with me. Me as his girlfriend. As someone he would love and care for and hold me in his arms and tell me that everything will be ok and that he is their for me.

But that will never happen.

I'm nothing.

A nobody.

I'm just a waste of space.