Through Thick and Thin

(Brian)

She went in and spoke to him, when she came out there was a nice smile on her face, haven’t seen that in a while, my conscience was running wild,

Look at that smile? Do you really want to ruin it?

Do I have a choice?

YES! You do. Make the right one.

(Ruth)

He spoke to me, he was happy he let me hold his hand, he even gave me a hug, I couldn’t have been any happier, I looked and saw Bri sat in the same chair, he looked up and returned the smile I gave him,

“Whatever you said to him Bri, thank you, I really mean it, he’s going to be just fine.”

“Your welcome sweetie, can I have a word with you?”

I followed him to stand outside where he leant against the wall and lit up his smoke, I stood in front of him waiting,

“You wanted to speak?”

“Yeah I did, I have to say this now, but I don’t know how,”

“What are you trying to say Bri?”

I looked up straight into his eyes, they looked pained, I wanted to know what he had to say, I wanted him happy, could he not see he made me happy, could he not see that I was stood right in front of him while he just stood there breathing in cancer.

“Ruth look, ever since, well ever since I met you I started to fall, your beautiful, the way you are, you’re the whole package, you were what I had been looking for, what I needed to settle down, to stop the pointless one night stands to not be the gooseberry when out with friends.”

I didn’t get it, why is he telling me all this,

“Bri, I don’t,”

“I don’t think, as much as I don’t want to do this, I think you’ll be better off without me and with Zack,”

He just stood there, fidgeting his hands while telling me it’s over, my heart stopped, I felt it shatter into millions of tiny pieces. I reached my hand up and slapped him around the face and ran, as fast as my legs would carry me. My purse swung around bashing against my legs, there was a shop nearby which I ducked into running towards the razors, picking up a packet, then towards to the tablets and just to decrease suspicion I ran over and picked up some hair dye as well as some skittles before placing everything on the counter and paying for it all. I scurried off back to the hospital racing into the toilets ripping the packets open, pulling the blades out, I placed one on my wrist digging it lightly in watching the crimson liquid seep from my pale white skin, I pulled my phone from my purse as it rang again, looking at the id tears crept from my eyes, waiting until it shut off I went into messages and began to write a new one,

I don’t get it Brian, why? It’s not best for you to decide, you couldn’t even look me in the eyes when you ended it. Now I’m doing the same. Have a nice life Brian, let it be known I love you, I love my brother and I love all my friends. I’m gone

(Brian)

She wouldn’t pick up, she just slapped me then ran, I guess I deserved it, I had been sat outside with my head in my hands, thinking. Why did I do it? Why did I ruin the best thing I had in my life? Regretting my decision I felt my phone vibrate in my hands, I flipped it open to discover a message

I don’t get it Brian, why? It’s not best for you to decide, you couldn’t even look me in the eyes when you ended it. Now I’m doing the same. Have a nice life Brian, let it be known I love you, I love my brother and I love all my friends. I’m gone

Shit! What the hell? Where is she? What is she going to do?