Obsession - I Just Miss You Is All.
Three and some coffee
“So…Elameno, that’s a funky name” I stated stirring my coffee…I was grasping for conversation and I think she could tell…we were sitting in the window of the vegan cafĂ© on Winston ave, it was raining, though much lighter then it had been 15 minutes ago.
She smiled a little, she had an awesome smile.
“Yeah, it’s “L-M-N-O”…P-Q-R-S-T-U-V, some sort of twisted Sesame Street name I always thought but apparently my mom thought that ‘elameno’ was an actual letter when she was a kid”
“That’s crazy!”
“Yeah but like Mitzi is a normal name either?!”
Mitzi….that’s my name…Mitz, kinda like mutt…oh well.
“Yeah,” I stared into my coffee, and she seemed stunned a little by the silence…yes she had just hurt my feelings….I wanted her to think I was pretty and cool and smart, all of which I wasn’t but god couldn’t she please just maybe think that?
“No, I meant I liked it, I mean it’s not normal but its good…You know, like artistic, it fits you.”
I looked up at her to see her wearing an unsure but reassuring smile…wait…was she trying to impress me as much as I was trying to impress her?
Did she like me?
Does she like me?!?
I smiled back, reassured, and said thank you.
Awkward silence.
What can I say what can I say?
“uhm so were your parents hippies or radicals or something?” I asked.
Well that came from nowhere…..
Ellie gave me a really weird look….
shit
Shit
Shit!
“Uhm I just mean I mean rallies and everything, anti-scientology is not like, just something that you just do as a hobby I mean right?”
She laughed “Well why are you doing it.”
She’s got me there….
“It’s…a hobby…”
We both burst out laughing, “No I mean,” and try to recover “It’s a cause, I mean, to be against it is a cause, and it’s a good cause.”
“We need shirts!” She’s excited now, on a totally different subject.
“Yes! Shirts that say…..”
“Were not the C word!”
“C word?”
“cult…or cunt”
Her phone rings and she pulls it out looking apologetic…It’s okay, I know, I know now that she likes me, I mean she does right?
“Hey Sweetie!”
Sweetie who??
Sweetie…fuck, she has a sweetie.
A baby, darling, honey, Iloveyoumorethananything…sweetie...
Hey Sweetie
My life is over…
She smiled a little, she had an awesome smile.
“Yeah, it’s “L-M-N-O”…P-Q-R-S-T-U-V, some sort of twisted Sesame Street name I always thought but apparently my mom thought that ‘elameno’ was an actual letter when she was a kid”
“That’s crazy!”
“Yeah but like Mitzi is a normal name either?!”
Mitzi….that’s my name…Mitz, kinda like mutt…oh well.
“Yeah,” I stared into my coffee, and she seemed stunned a little by the silence…yes she had just hurt my feelings….I wanted her to think I was pretty and cool and smart, all of which I wasn’t but god couldn’t she please just maybe think that?
“No, I meant I liked it, I mean it’s not normal but its good…You know, like artistic, it fits you.”
I looked up at her to see her wearing an unsure but reassuring smile…wait…was she trying to impress me as much as I was trying to impress her?
Did she like me?
Does she like me?!?
I smiled back, reassured, and said thank you.
Awkward silence.
What can I say what can I say?
“uhm so were your parents hippies or radicals or something?” I asked.
Well that came from nowhere…..
Ellie gave me a really weird look….
shit
Shit
Shit!
“Uhm I just mean I mean rallies and everything, anti-scientology is not like, just something that you just do as a hobby I mean right?”
She laughed “Well why are you doing it.”
She’s got me there….
“It’s…a hobby…”
We both burst out laughing, “No I mean,” and try to recover “It’s a cause, I mean, to be against it is a cause, and it’s a good cause.”
“We need shirts!” She’s excited now, on a totally different subject.
“Yes! Shirts that say…..”
“Were not the C word!”
“C word?”
“cult…or cunt”
Her phone rings and she pulls it out looking apologetic…It’s okay, I know, I know now that she likes me, I mean she does right?
“Hey Sweetie!”
Sweetie who??
Sweetie…fuck, she has a sweetie.
A baby, darling, honey, Iloveyoumorethananything…sweetie...
Hey Sweetie
My life is over…
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Been offline for a little while but this is the new chapter, i'm writing more but I'm trying to decide where to go with it as I am going through a sort of rough spot in my life.Comment and tell me what you think!