Who Are You to Fall Apart on Me?

[Vic]

I waited up as long as I could.
I stared at the entrance to the bus, waiting for Jaime to get back. I tapped my foot and gnawed at my nails. Just wanting to talk to him so I could apologize or try to beg him for one more date. My eyes constantly shifting from the door to the lock screen of my phone to check the time. I was going crazy. Eventually my eyelids grew too heavy for me to keep propped up and I drifted off into a tense slumber, my last thought of Jaime, and why he was with Oli.
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When I finally woke up, it looked to be mid-morning. I was still sitting on the couch in my clothes from last night. I groaned and stood up to stretch out. My body ached from sleeping in such an uncomfortable position. I cracked my back and my neck before sighing. I started heading into my bunk, head down, planning on just sleeping in my boxers and not coming out for a very long time when I rammed into Jaime. His hair was all over the place and he was just in a pair of sweatpants. Once again, I found my eyes wandering down his muscular torso and biting my lip. I looked away with a blush and back into his eyes. His cocoa irises narrowed at me, and he tried to keep walking.
"Jaime, please talk to me." I grabbed onto his forearm and gave him a pleading look.
"Why should I?" He was angry. I could tell. His eyes looked at me with distrust, and that hurt the most.
"You said we were still friends, friends hear out other friends. Just sit on the couch for a damn minute and listen to me?" I saw him give me a resigned look, and he walked over to the couch and sat cross-legged on the couch. He looked at me.
"Well, talk. What do you want?"
"Listen Jaime, I know I royally fucked up, yeah? Selena is nothing but a friend! I don't even like her that way anymore, you know that. Jaime," I grabbed his hand in mine and I could see the inner war in his eyes, debating whether or not to continue to be angry with me, "I really like you. You're such a great guy. I promise that there's nothing between Selena and I. Just give me a chance to show you how much I like you. This is our last day before we leave tomorrow for our last venue in San Diego. Just please? We can go to the movies and I'll buy your popcorn and hold your hand during the scary parts." I gave him my most hopeful smile that I could. I saw his eyes soften at me, and a smile tugged at his lips. A giggle escaped through his mouth and this time his whole face lit up.
"Okay, okay. I'll go on a date with you to the movies, but I still don't like you around Selena. Everyone on this bus, including you, knows what she does to you. Before I make any commitment to be with you, let's just see how this goes. I make no promises." I grinned even wider. Yes, he's mad. But at least I have a running chance. He notices the change in my demeanor and laughs.
"But I'm telling you Vicky, I won't have my heart broken again. Especially not by you." Again? Jaime never really discusses his feelings with us.
"Again? What do you mean?"
"Forget it. Come on let's get everyone up and chill with BMTH." He gave me a big smile, and ran into the bunks, screaming at the top of his lungs, and I just grinned at him. That adorable fucker.
I felt the buzz of my cellphone in my pocket and pulled it out, biting my lip in anxiety seeing Selena's name flash across my screen, asking what time we should meet up. I told her around three after seeing it was only 10 in the morning. I tried to calm my nerves before Jaime reappeared, Mike and Tony in tow.
"Come on come on come ON! You can just go how you are it's fine!" Jaime was absolutely giddy. I couldn't help but admire how adorable he was, and became more and more excited for our date later tonight.
"You're probably just excited to go see Oli!" Tony laughed and smiled at him. Of course he'd be excited for him.
"Maybe! Plus they're having a big barbeque." He smiled back at him and I felt the pit of my stomach tighten.
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When we got there, Jaime released the grips he had on the two other band members and ran straight into the open arms of Oli. Jealousy flaired up through my whole body and I had to clench my fists and teeth while I watched Oli spin him around and kiss the top of his head as he giggled in response. I tried to compose myself again, considering looking like a jealous fool is not the way to win the heart of the man you love. I walked up to Jona and Matt to give them bro hugs, trying to brush off my anger and focus on having a good time. Curtis, Lee, and other Matt were all at the grills cooking burgers and other various meats. Oli and Jaime walked a little bit a ways from everyone, going to talk. All I could think about as I made small conversation and stupid jokes with everyone was how wrong it felt to see Jaime with him and not me.

[Jaime]

I'd be lying if I didn't say I was excited to see Oli again. When he twirled me around I couldn't help but to giggle. It was wonderful. He pulled me over to a bench and we started talking about what I was doing about Vic, and I told him how we were gonna go out to a movie tonight and how I was feeling towards him, and that I could see that he meant know harm. But Oli knew how scared I was of having my heart broken again, and obviously he liked me, so he began to caution me.
"Now, love, you remember what happened with Alec..." His eyes gave me a warning look.
"I know, but that was different. Vic's not him."
"Still, it seems so...rushed. I just don't want you to get hurt." At this he grabbed my hand and gave it another peck, looking into my eyes trying to reassure me. I blowed air through my lips and then gave him a goofy smile, which earned a laugh from him.
"Well since Vic is getting a chance to take you on a date, do I get a chance too?" He gave me a wiggle of his eyebrows and I gave out another giggle. He's adorable.
"Sure, how bout tonight you come on my bus for a few days and we can chill?" He gave me an unsure look.
"You think that would be okay if I did that? I mean Vic and all.."
"Don't worry! We'll stop at a rest stop tomorrow night and you can go back to your bus." I gave him a big grin and he picked me up and swung me around.
"Perfect!" His face was a picture of happiness, and yet all I could think of was Vic. And Vic's smile, when he was genuinely happy. Oli was so great and perfect for me. But maybe Oli's what I want, and Vic is what I need. My head began to ache, trying to figure out who I was supposed to be with.
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The party continued on. We all ate and drank a little, having a good time. Vic remained tense. He kept glancing and Oli and I being so close together. Good, let him be jealous for a little while. It went on for a few more hours before Vic checked and phone, and started to get up and walk away from the party. I told Oli to hold on a minute, and got up to chase after Vic.
"Where are you going?"
"Just out." He averted my eyes.
"If you wanna date me, you better stop fucking lying to my face." I was growing more and more angered by Vic's little lies.
"Well..I'm going out to hang with Selena."
"Of COURSE you are, aren't you. I can't believe you, not for a second. Two dates, Vic? Really? Figure yourself the fuck out. You know what? Forget the date tonight." Infuriated wasn't a strong enough word for the wave of anger I felt. I was turning around, away from him and another step closer to Oli, when I felt his hand grasp my shoulder and spin me back around. Suddenly I was face to face with him again. I was staring at him. His eyes looked pained and he pulled me in again and we were kissing and his mouth felt heavenly against mine. I felt a tear slip out of his eye and land on my cheek and I gripped his neck for dear life as his hands on my waist tightened. His lips were fevered against mine, kissing and nipping and licking softly and I inhaled his taste. He was different from Oli. Oli was all muscle and chiseled features. Vic was soft and moldable. I melted into Oli. Vic and I melted into each other. Don't get me confused, his muscles and body was toned and orgasmic. But he, Vic, his essence, was soft and vulnerable and beautiful. I didn't want to. I didn't want to like him. But he was him and he was adorable and sweet and crazy and made me feel butterflies and laugh; he made me feel a rush of adrenaline, and wanted to bad to make me happy. And when I snuggle with him it's beyond the way it is with Oli. It feels right.
So clearly I never wanted to let him go, and hold him tight. Even though I was furious, and even though I couldn't trust him I still wanted him. But I eventually remembered my anger and broke the kiss. He looked at me with a brilliant smile, and I gave him a hard grimace.
"You listen to me, I will NOT be played. And you WILL tell Selena you won't see her again. And if you DON'T, you will never ever have a second chance with me Victor Vincent Fuentes." I was full of anger, but before I turned back to the party, I put on a large grin and looked at him with daggers, then turned around to go forget about Vic for a while. God help him if he betrays me one more time...

[Vic]
*ONE NEW MESSAGE*
Selena: Hey (: Waiting outside the bus. See you soon <3