Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow

I stared in silence at the man across from me. Matthew Charles Saunders the man who had held my heart since I was seven years old and here we are 19 year’s later with a 9 year relationship under our belt’s and a baby on the way. I broke the silence,

“When?”

“The day after tomorrow”

“How long have you known?” I asked looking away from him and down at my four month’s pregnant belly

“About a month” he said quietly, I continued to stare at my stomach trying not to let the tears slip through. I’m not a crier, but my hormones where all over the place

I only looked up at him to ask “How long?”

He sighed “Three month’s” I looked back down at my stomach and let a few tears slip through and wet my eyelashes “I still have a month before I go and I swear Shannen I didn-”

I held my hand up cutting him off “Save it Matt” I took a deep breath “I just need some time alone right now” He nodded in understanding as I stood up and left the room.

I made my way upstairs and stripped down to just my t-shirt before getting into bed. I felt really bad I didn’t mean to give Matt the could shoulder but since getting pregnant my hormones have been all over the place and I’ve been doing a lot of things I wouldn’t usually do. I stared up at the ceiling letting a few tears escape down my face and a few turned into crying my self to sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night when I felt Matt get into bed next to me, I turned around and cuddled up to him, having his arms instantly wrap around me.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t tell you sooner” I shook my head

“No I’m sorry for being moody with you, as well as my hormones being all over the place im worried. What if something happens to you while you’re away? Or what if the baby comes while you’re gone and you don’t get to see it?”

He shook his head "Nothing will happen. And if you do go into labour while I’m gone all you have to do is ring me all of the venues are within a few hours driving distance” I nodded “Don’t worry” He kissed me and everything was forgotten I pulled away falling back into a peaceful sleep.

I was woke up again this time the next morning by the sound of a drawer shutting and some rustling, I knew it was Matt packing for tour, he always left it until the last minuet. I got out of bed and grabbed his duffle bag off of the floor and put it on the end of the bed and began pulling things out so I could repack them neatly

“You shouldn’t be lifting heavy things in you’re condition” Came Matt’s voice from behind me I turned around

“I’m pregnant Matt, not disabled” He grinned

“I’ll remember that” I rolled my eyes and ignored him as I began repacking everything. I came across a bright green piece of spandex which stopped me in my tracks.

“Matt. Why the hell do you have a mankini in your bag?” He laughed

“Jimmy bought it me to wear on tour” I shook my head

“It’s probably best if you don’t take it. Especially after what happened last time” Hi paled and his eyes widened

“Yeah you’re probably right” I put the mankini to the side and continued to pack.

***

Today was the dreaded day; Matt was leaving for tour. I stood on the door step as Matt helped with loading some last minute things in the bus. The guy’s each in turn came up and said goodbye to me. Zacky was the first, making it quick so he could have longer with his wife Katie, since she wasn’t going with them but staying with me instead in case I dropped, her words not mine.

Brian was next giving me a quick hug and a peck on the cheek before going and helping with the loading. Johnny came and hugged me next saying good bye and then getting dragged away by Jimmy who then picked me up and spun me around being careful not to hurt the baby. He put me down but still continued to hug me.

“I’m going to miss you shorty”

“I’ll miss you too beanstalk” He grinned at me

“Hey Jim I have something to ask you”

“Go ahead mi amigo”

“How would you feel being god father to baby James Owen?” He nearly chocked on thin air

“Me? God fathe… JAMES OWEN! Your naming your baby after me?!” I nodded and he pulled me into another hug “I love you!” He pulled away when we heard Matt chuckling behind him

“Not moving in on my woman are ya Jim?” Jimmy pulled Matt into the hug too

“I love you both! I need to go and tell Katie!” He skipped off and grabbed Katie away from Zacky in the middle of their heated make out session.

I turned to Matt shaking my head “Remind me why we’re friends with him?” Matt shrugged

“We need a drummer and the mans a genius” We hear Jimmy in the back ground shout ‘I heard that’ which caused us to both burst out laughing.

When the laughter died down a wave of sadness washed over us both since we knew what was quickly coming. Instead of having some heartfelt goodbye we hugged until it was time for him to go.

Katie cam and stood next to me as we watched the big black bus drive away the last thing both of us saw before the bus turned the corned was Jimmy mooning us out of the back window and Brian pulling him away looking at us apologetically.

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“I swear to god between you and Jimmy this child is going to be institutionalize by the time he reaches 4” I laughed at my best friend as she was sat in her Gryffindor Harry Potter robe painting a scene from that very same movie on my belly, don’t ask how we ended up doing this we just did, Katie can be very persuasive when she want’s to be.

“Correction, this kid will have just developed its awesome jeans early and he will have an awesome god mother to kick anyone who say’s otherwise into next week” She change the paint colour she was using and I tried not to laugh at her concentration face which was just her scrunching her face up and sticking her tongue out to the side.

“Speaking of kid’s when can we expect a little Baker?” I asked cocking my left eyebrow at her

“Ask Zack he’s convinced if we have kids I’m going to either turn it into a psycho or name it something so bad it will get bullied”

“You’re not that bad!”

“I know! But he won’t listen to me. To be honest it doesn’t bother me when we have kids. I just know when we do it will be one of the most loved babies to have ever lived, besides its cousin of course. Now stop moving your going to smudge me!”

“Hold on, how did you even convince me to let you paint on my stomach?” She shrugged

“I have a talent and I’m awesome and you love me. Pick any of those three they’re all true - aaand I’m done” I looked down to see she had painted a pretty amazing picture of Hogwarts

“That is actually quite awesome” She grinned

“I didn’t get an A star in art for no reason” I shook my head

“Kate, you didn’t get an A star in art, since you never took it” She shrugged

“I say potato, you say patato”

“Freak” I laughed

“Fat whore” She winked, then began to clean the paint pots up.

***

I was sat on the bed when I heard the door open downstairs alerting me that either someone was in my house or Matt was back, I knew it was the latter of the two so I got out of bed and bounded down the stairs. I vaguely noticed the bag by the front door and ran into the front room where there he stood.

I jumped into his arms and we held each other as best as we could with my protruding stomach, he stroked my back and I felt him kiss the top of my head before mumbling into my neck “I missed you” I held him tighter

“I missed you too” He pulled back and melded our lips together in a passionate kiss and when he pulled away he kept eye contact with me

“Shannen there’s something I’m long over due asking you” I nodded signalling for him to go on “I remember you once telling me if I did this publicly or ever got down on one knee you we’re going to slap me” I knew exactly what he was going to do as he pulled out a velvet box and opened it to reveal a simple but flashy silver engagement ring

“Shannen Casey Smith. Will you marry me?” I opened my mouth and my eyes widened and Matt panicked a bit “Will you say something?”

“I would, but I think my water just broke!” I managed to gasp out.