Sincerely, Poppy
1/29/2013
Dear Logan,
It's been two weeks since I've written and you haven't written back telling me to fuck off which is a good sign unless you haven't gotten my original letter. At any point of this if you want me to stop just say so. I don't want to be a bother although I know I am so okay whatever.
Can I be honest? It's been really hard here, Logan. All of these people (the doctors I mean) are making me face things I've tried so hard to repress. I'm fine, Logan. I really am. Okay sure I miss a meal every once in a while but I have short term memory loss, they can't blame me for that. And maybe I'm sad a lot...most of the time but that's okay, right? To be sad I mean? I'm so sad and tired and maybe I do things I shouldn't when I get that way but nothing else makes me feel better.
And there are people here who are nuttier than me! Some people bang their head into the walls and other people scream at all hours of the day and night. I'm not that bad, I'm not that far off. I can't be and I won't let myself. I've got a handle on things. I just wish more people would believe me.
I don't deserve to be here. I'm a wasteland.
Sincerely,
Poppy
It's been two weeks since I've written and you haven't written back telling me to fuck off which is a good sign unless you haven't gotten my original letter. At any point of this if you want me to stop just say so. I don't want to be a bother although I know I am so okay whatever.
Can I be honest? It's been really hard here, Logan. All of these people (the doctors I mean) are making me face things I've tried so hard to repress. I'm fine, Logan. I really am. Okay sure I miss a meal every once in a while but I have short term memory loss, they can't blame me for that. And maybe I'm sad a lot...most of the time but that's okay, right? To be sad I mean? I'm so sad and tired and maybe I do things I shouldn't when I get that way but nothing else makes me feel better.
And there are people here who are nuttier than me! Some people bang their head into the walls and other people scream at all hours of the day and night. I'm not that bad, I'm not that far off. I can't be and I won't let myself. I've got a handle on things. I just wish more people would believe me.
I don't deserve to be here. I'm a wasteland.
Sincerely,
Poppy