Misfits

We live in a world; one where things don't always go your way. No matter how hard you try. One where people have disagreements, and action is taken. One where laws are set; and hearts a broken.

My life is the epitome of stressful. My now ex wife has been fighting me in court since the day I told her I had fallen for Vic, my fiance. Things weren't going so well right now. Laws have been made saying that men couldn't marry men, and the same for woman marrying women.

It was complete and utter bullshit if you asked me and any of my friends. It is our life and our heart. Why would you try to control someones love for another? It baffled me to no end. Not all was horrible per say, though. After fighting for so long in court, they gave me custody of my son Colten. While giving Katelynn custody of our daughter Copeland. It saddens me, knowing that I won't be seeing Copeland any time soon...if ever.

But I'm still happy that I have my beloved son. How I loved being a father. I now lived with Vic and all his other band mates. Jaime, Tony, Mike, and Mike's wife Natalie. Jaime and Tony were in love as well, also being engaged, and expecting too! Everyone was thrilled when they learned the news of Jaime getting pregnant. You see, it isn't all that unusual for men to have pregnancies anymore. Yet, we still could not marry the same sex. Pretty messed up, huh?

Mike and Natalie were already married and had a son named Travis Christopher Fuentes, he was about five years old now. My didn't he look exactly like Mike, yet, he had his mothers eyes and kindness. Seeing him run around the house all day playing with his action figures, I simply couldn't help but think how it would be with Colten here. Would Travis and Colten get along? I sure hoped so. I can't wait to see my son! It's been almost a whole year since he was born. Colten would be one year old in a few days, and I planned on throwing him a huge party. He was my boy; and he deserved the best.

All my friends I had made over Warped Tour were coming as well. Black Veil Brides, Motionless In White, Austin and Alan from Of Mice & Men, Danny and Ben from Asking Alexandria, and Jacky and Ronnie from Falling In Reverse. Being that they all were either bisexual or gay, and either expecting or had children, we got along quite nicely.

We were all arriving at Chris and Ricky's house where Colten's first birthday party would be held. I was just going to have it at Vic's house, but Ricky and Devin insisted. So I agreed. Chris and Ricky, along with Devin and Angelo, all lived in a mansion in Scranton, Pennsylvania. It was very old but they had done a little bit of remodeling and decorating just so it was sturdy. They wanted to keep it as close to the original spooky feel it had when they first bought it. Ryan and Balz shared a small apartment not to far from them, but them mostly hung around the mansion with everyone else.

Vic and I lived in San Diego, California. So it took us a few days to get from there to Scranton, but it was worth it. You see, Colten was currently at the Child Support Center in Scranton, awaiting my arrival to pick him up. So things worked perfectly you could say. As I walked into the tall, black, mansion I was greeted by my motley crew of friends.

“There he is! Hello, daddy, how are you?” Devin asked with a smile on his pale features, hugging me tightly. I chuckled lightly, returning his hug.

“I'm good, thank you. So nice of you to ask, mommy.” I couldn't hold back the smile on my face as I watched Devin squeal with glee. He simply couldn't wait to be a mother to his and Angelo's son.

“Oh Kellin! He's kicking! Here...” Devin grabbed my hand and slowly brought it to his plump tummy. He was showing a bit more than normal, being that he is so skinny. I waited with my hand resting near his belly button. And then...I felt it.

I jumped up and down, not really being able to hold in my excitement. I gently grabbed Devin and squeezed him tight. We both giggled like school girls as we slowly rocked back and forth, not wanting to let go of each other just yet.

“Oh, Devin, you and Angelo are going to be such good parents!”

“Thank you, Kellin. We'll try our best.” Angelo announced while slowly slipping his arms around Devin's waist. I smiled at them.

Soon after, Ricky and Chris came up and greeted me while Vic went off God knows where to play video games with CC. Everyone was now here. Andy and Ashley, CC and Jake, Jinxx and Sammi, Jacky and Ronnie, Austin and Alan, Jaime and Tony, Mike and Natalie, Ricky and Chris, Angelo and Devin, Balz, Ryan and his girlfriend Juliet, Danny and Ben, and of course all the little youngsters that came with their mommy and daddy's.

Majority of the bunch were either toddlers, or just babies not even out of mommy's tummy yet. I looked around the room at all the couples with their children, and sighed happily to myself. A pair of tan arms slipped around my waist as Vic's head rested on my shoulder, I leaned into him taking in his scent.

“Colten's going to fit in nicely to our little bunch, don't you think?”

“Yeah...I hope so.” I felt Vic pull one of his arms away from my waist, bringing it to my back to slowly rub circles into it. I relaxed into his touch.

“I know these past couple of months have been stressful for you. But just imagine having Colten by your side, making everything better. Getting to be a daddy again. I can't wait to see him, he must be so big by now.”

“Oh, Vic, don't say that! I don't want my baby growing up too fast!”

“Hehe, sorry, baby.”

I turned around and cuddled into Vic's chest, resting my head on his shoulder, I began to give him butterfly kisses on his neck.

“Vic?”

“Hm?”

“It's going to be awesome with Colten here, but you should know that you make anything and everything better for me every day.” Vic beamed down at me and gently peaked my lips.

“Thanks, babe. I try.” He said with a slight pink appearing on his caramel features.

“Oi, love birds, when are you going to go get the lad, aye?” Danny called from behind me. I chuckled and slipped out of Vic's grasp. Looking down at my cell phone, I smiled when I saw it was time to leave.

“About now.”

Everyone smiled warmly at me as all the 'mommy's' of the group gave me a big group hug. Vic and I slowly made our way outside, passing by Austin and Alan in the dinning room.

“Kellin, Vic, good luck guys! We'll be waiting here for little Kellin!” I smiled at Austin's enthusiasm as Alan hugged me.

“Thanks, guys!”

I slipped on my gray Toms and Pierce The Veil sweatshirt, walking out to Vic's car. We stepped inside, Vic starting the engine and putting in his Blink 182 CD. I couldn't help but let my nerves get the best of me, I could feel my palms starting to sweat as I tapped my foot against the car door. Vic placed one hand on the staring wheel and the other on my thigh as he drove down to street. I slowly felt my anxiety fading away as he rubbed small circles into my thigh.

“Hey, Vic?”

“Yeah?”

“I love you.”

“I love you too, Kells.” He smiled squeezing my thigh lightly.

After that I let my mind wonder, focusing on nothing but Vic's soothing touch and All The Small Things blaring from the speakers.

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We pulled up to the dull gray Child Support office. I was so nervous that I starting shaking lightly. Vic noticed, so he gently squeezed my hand, smiling at me, silently assuring me that everything would be okay. I returned his smile the best I could and made my way inside. Looking around, it was even more dull on the inside. Nothing but a desk, TV, fish tank, and a few chairs.

“Yes sir, may I help you?” An older woman spoke from behind the counter. I swallowed the lump in my throat that I didn't even know was there, and made my way to the counter.

“Yes, I'm here to pick up my son.”

“Your name, please?”

“Kellin Quinn Bostwick.” The lady scrunched her nose in an unpleasant manner as she scrolled threw the files on the computer that rested in front of her. I could already tell I didn't like her.

“Ah, yes, you got custody of little Colten James Bostwick.”

“Yes, he's my son. Where is he?”

“In the back, dear. Hold and I'll get him for you, but you need to sign a few papers first.” The gray haired lady handed me a few sheets, clipboard, and pen. I quickly filled them out and handed them back to her.

“I'll be right back.” She said not so ecclesiastically as he made her way to the back, taking the papers with her.

My heart was thumping a mile a minute and my palms wouldn't stay dry no matter how many times I rubbed them on my jeans. Vic held me close, massaging my hips and whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

“Shh, Kells, it'll be okay. Soon, you'll get to be a daddy again. Excited about the sleepless nights?” I chuckled and playfully slapped Vic's arm. Going up on my tip toes, I peaked his lips. I could feel him smile into the kiss; which in turn made me smile too. I pulled back quickly as I heard the door open. The lady returned, but was empty handed. I looked at her quizzically as she glared back.

“Where’s my son?”

“I'm sorry to have to tell you this Mister Bostwick, but I'm afraid Colten won't be coming home with you today.”

“W-Well then when can I see him if not today?”

“Not today; not ever.” She spat at me.

“What do you mean not ever? He is my son, I am his father, I have custody of him for Christ's sake! You MUST let me see, Colten!”

“I don't have to do shit for the likes of you, Satan Worshipers.”

“E-Excuse me?”

“It say's here on the papers you filled out that you are Bisexual, or whatever the hell they call it, am I correct?”

“Yes b-”

“And is this your fiance?”

“Yes, yes, he is!”

“Well then, Mister Bostwick, I'm afraid you are not aloud to have custody of Colten by orders of the law. Not only are you not aloud to marry the same sex, you certainly aren't aloud to have children with them either!”

I couldn't believe my ears, just as I got my son back, he was gone again. I felt hot rivers of tears pouring down my face as Vic tried to console me the best he could, I felt his strong arms tighten the more the old hag went on. He was almost red with anger.

“B-B-But you c-can't!”

“Oh but I can. You don't really understand do you? Did he fuck your brains out or something? It is illegal for you to have custody of the boy. Therefore you will never see him again; ever. Might as well get over it and go die of herpes, fagots!”

How cruel could this woman be? Obviously very. I kicked, cried, and screamed at the stop of my lunges as security drug Vic and I out of the office. I latched onto Vic and balled my eyes out into his chest as we were thrown out into the freezing cold Scranton rain. I was crushed. My heart; it is broken; it is gone. My heart no longer exists. What is the meaning to life? Why most it be so cruel?

Vic took his jacket off and wrapped it around my pathetic figure, returning to squeezing me tightly a second later. I buried my head into his soaking wet chest as now cold streams of tears continued to pour. My breathing was unnatural at this point, I was sure I would pass out soon. I whimpered as Vic's grasp tightened around me and headlights washed over us, illuminating my pity to the world.

I continued to cry as I heard a pair of heels coming towards us, getting louder and louder by each passing second.

Click. Clack. Click. Clack. Click.

I sniffled as I realized the clicking had stopped, wondering what it was in the first place. I felt Vic growl from under me. I slowly lifted my head, and turned around to be met with Satan herself.

“Katelynn.” Vic growled low in his chest. Sounding almost unrealistic.

She directed a wickedly gruesome smirk at me as I whimpered. I was too crushed to fight back. Whimpering and holding a death grip onto Vic was about all I could manage at this point.

“I told you I would win, Kellin. You should have listened.” She spat at me with venom seeping through the freezing rain. I cried more as I watched her walk in, and back out with a small child in her arms, curled up into a blanket. That was it? All she had to do was walk in and get him? Where as I had to fill out forms, and got drug out by cops? This world is so fucked up.

Vic pulled me to the car and buckled me in as the tears simply wouldn't stop, no matter how hard I tried. I cried all the way home as Vic tried his best to not have a wreck, holding in his rage.

As we pulled up to the eerie mansion, I couldn't move, I couldn't do anything. Everything hurt, I was sure I was dead, I lost my baby. My only hope. What is hope? Vic let out an angered sigh, resting his head against the head rest. He reached over to my slim figure that was currently having a nervous breakdown, and pulled me into his lap with ease.

My arms instinctively warped around his neck as I cried into his shoulder. He held me close and started rocking slightly, while rubbing soothing circles into my back. After about an hour of tears, I felt like I had cried all the water in my body out and onto Vic's soaking figure. I sniffled, rubbing my face into Vic's neck. After a while he gently pulled me to face him, our foreheads touching. I opened my eyes getting lost in his deep chocolate orbs, as he did the same with my pained blue.

“I'll tell you right now what I said when all of this started, because I still believe it. Everything will be okay. I promise you, Kellin. Everything will work out in the end, if it isn't working right now...then it obviously isn't the end yet.” He whispered against my face as I basked in his warm addicting breath.

I let what I think was a smile appear on my emotionally drained features, as Vic returned with his usual sweet grin. His hand reached to the back of my neck and swiftly pulled me closer in to a rough kiss. I kissed back gripping is dripping shirt for support. His other hand gripped my hip while his thumb rubbed it softly. We parted, gasping for air as we slowly climbed out of the car. We made our way up to mansion hand in hand, my eyes remaining on the ground the entire time, while I was curled into Vic's side like a pathetic soaked kitten.

We never expected what we were about to find when we walked into our dear friend's home.

As we walked in, we were met with a living room full of tears, heart break, and anger. There wasn't a dry eye in the whole room. I swallowed desperately trying to get rid of my strained and dry throat.

“G-Guys?” I let out in a voice that didn't even resemble mine. It was hoarse and dripped with sadness.

Tear stained faces looked up at me and simply continued to cry. I couldn't help myself, I dove into Vic's chest and let out what I had left of my emotions.

“T-There all gone. O-O-Our b-babies.” I heard Ghost whimper from Angelo's arms.

It was all too much for me, I simply couldn't take it anymore. I felt myself slowly fading away, and Vic's name calling me, as darkness engulfed me like wildfire.

Why must the world be so cruel?