Dedication Takes a Lifetime but Dreams Only Last for a Night

Jacks POV:

The last 24 fours were the worst in my life.

Alex in the hospital and my parents finding out I was gay. I couldn't believe after all the things I did to protect my secret, all the things I did for Blake, the lying, they still found out. I expected them to find out someday but I wanted to do it myself.

And they ran.

Not one word.

Simply turned around and ran.

"Jack are you okay?" Alex asked worry clouding his eyes.

"I just can't believe they know." I said quietly.

"Well look at the bright side. Blake can't threaten us again!" Alex smiled. It was so adorable the way he was trying to cheer me up. But it didn't work.

There was only one thing that would make me feel better and Alex wouldn't be happy. I could imagine the blade running on my skin, bleeding away everything.

"Jacks what's the matter?"

"I-I want to cut." I whispered shamefully.

"Jack no. You are stronger than that. You are better than that. C'mon show me that awesome smile!"

"I just want the pain and stress to go away."

"Jack come over here." He said and moved so there'd be enough room for both of us on the bed.
I slipped in. It was lucky we were both so thin so we fit.

"Jacky it'll be fine. You'll see." He muttered in my hair as we cuddled.

I started to relax until it hit me we had no where to go. We lost everything. I started to cry softly.Alex hugged me tighter and I sobbed into his chest.

"I don't want my parents to hate me."

"Jack they won't. It'll be fine."

We stayed like that for the entire night. I woke up to Alex's sleeping face. As creepy as it was I stared at him sleep. He was so adorable! His hair was a mess, falling all over his face. His eyes were gently closed. Even with all the bruises covering his face, he was still one of the most perfect human beings I'd ever set my eyes on.

He woke up eventually, yawned and said "Good morning".

As I started to reply a nurse entered the room, and appeared startled that there were two people in the same bed.

"Well technically that's against the hospital rules but I'll let it slide. You two make a cute couple. Who is Alexander Gaskarth?".

Alex said me and she checked his blood pressure,pulse, temperature and other things when I suddenly realized I had school. "What time is it?" I asked groaning inwardly.

"Oh ten to eight." the nurse answered cheerfully.

"Dammit." I muttered as I rolled out of the uncomfortable bed, and ran to my car saying bye to Alex.
I arrived to school late to my first class.

The day went by shockingly slow. I missed Alex. Blake kept teasing me, and asking about Alex's whereabouts but I just ignored and avoided them. They weren't worth my time and anger. Alex didn't want me to get involved with that.

When school ended I ran to my car and drove to the hospital. Alex was sleeping so I sat down and tried to concentrate on my English homework, wishing Alex was awake as he was a genius when it came to English.

After about ten minutes of failing I just started to stare at Alex. I couldn't believe how lucky I'd gotten.
He was mine. I loved him. He was so amazing. I hated the fact that Blake did that. Blake, the one I thought I loved. I brushed away thoughts of Blake as it made me upset.

Alex looked so peaceful, so calm and relaxed. I just wanted to give him a big hug. He looked like a little kid. Then he slowly moved a bit. He opened his light golden eyes.

Alex groaned and stretched. "Stop staring at me. It's creeping me out." He muttered with his sleep filled voice which was so sexy.

"Can't you're so hot." I winked.

He winked back and we started to talk. I could do that forever. Talking with Alex was just so much fun. He told me about the good memories of his childhood in England with Tom. I told him about my rebellious years.

As we laughed at Alexs Christmas story when his dog ate all the food, my parents entered the room.

"We knew we'd find you here. We wanted to talk to you."

I was speechless but happy. Maybe I could convince them that being gay isn't a bad thing. It would be hard but I could do it. Right? They'd love me either way right? I mean I'm their son no matter what I do with my boyfriend. Right? Then why was I so worried?

"Jack we love you but we can't accept your disgusting lifestyle." My mom said.

"Dad Mom this is who I am. It's part of me. Why should my sexuality change the way you feel about me?"

They seemed shocked but answered "It's disgusting, and unnatural. We can not condone it. We didn't raise you to be like this. What will we tell everyone?"

I was so hurt. Each word felt like a stab. They basically said I'm disgusting just because what I do with Alex, because I love Alex.

"You should be happy with who he is. It doesn't matter who he likes and if it's a boy or girl. He's still Jack the boy you raised. Be happy and proud of him." Alex intervened.

"You're his er boyfriend?" My mom asked distastefully.

"Yes I am." Alex answered pridefully smiling widely. I wanted to kiss him so badly then.

My parents seemed surprised and more disgusted. They shared horrified looks.

"Look do I need to look for a new home?" I cut the chase sick of it.

"No you can still stay. But I'm not sure about that boy." My mom said angrily.

"I have a name, Alex. And fine. I'll find a new place to stay."

"No it's not fine! Alex saved me and has no where to stay!" I yelled.

That's when I broke down. My life was perfect for less than a week and now this happens. I started to cry well aware of the fact that I've cried more in there 24 hours than in the past year practically.

"What do you mean Alex saved you? What aren't you telling us?!" My dad asked angrily.

I finally broke down and told them everything.

From my relationship with Blake(though I didn't tell Blake's secret, knowing how much he'd hate that), the cutting, Blake's abuse, meeting Alex, and until the way he was willing to get beat up so they wouldn't know about my sexuality just cause he knew how important it was to me.

My parents faces were so petrified and Alex was also surprised when he heard just how bad the cutting and the bullying was.

When I finished I felt scared but also calm like a big weight was lifted from my back.

My parents both begged for forgiveness. They were shocked all this had happened and they didn't know. My dad was so angry at Blake. They invited Alex to stay again and said they were sorry and so thankful for him. My mom actually called him a blessing in our lives.

I was just so happy. I asked permission to stay in the hospital as Alex didn't want to be alone and they agreed.

When they left they hugged me and Alex. I loved the fact they finally accepted me and knew everything. Finally no secrets.

"Oh my god! Jack I'm so goddamn proud of you and the fact I'm your boyfriend." Alex practically squealed.

As an answer I simply kissed him again.

When we stopped we just stared at each others eyes for a long time shocked at the days events. I loved Alex's light golden eyes. They had light brown streaks in them that reminded me of cinnamon in hot chocolate.

I was so happy. I had my parents blessing to be with Alex. They knew about the cutting and still didn't shun me.

I fell asleep with Alex in my hands and a big smile.