solitude
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the wind brushes past me; rushing back, rushing home. rain follows her, trailing like a bridal train, caressing heated cheeks and sunburnt noses. squeals of surprise, excitement, joy fill the air and in that infinitesimal moment, the world holds her breath and i with it.
"daddy!" a little girl yells. i blink, i breathe. the smells of the fair - of sweat, cotton candy, candied pop corn and sno cones - tickle my nostrils. it reminds me of home. it reminds me of happiness. it reminds me of him.
the sudden rain lightens and quietly, almost in a whisper, she leaves.
i imagine the sun's rays surrounding me, embracing me. i imagine her fingers reaching out, curling around my arms in a heated embrace. i imagine the warmth, the burn, the touch and suddenly, i stop. it reminds me too much. reminds me too much of him.
so i look back at the world, at the people around me, at nothing and i ache. i ache for the man that i will never get the chance to love, and i ache for the boy that i always would.
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"daddy!" a little girl yells. i blink, i breathe. the smells of the fair - of sweat, cotton candy, candied pop corn and sno cones - tickle my nostrils. it reminds me of home. it reminds me of happiness. it reminds me of him.
the sudden rain lightens and quietly, almost in a whisper, she leaves.
i imagine the sun's rays surrounding me, embracing me. i imagine her fingers reaching out, curling around my arms in a heated embrace. i imagine the warmth, the burn, the touch and suddenly, i stop. it reminds me too much. reminds me too much of him.
so i look back at the world, at the people around me, at nothing and i ache. i ache for the man that i will never get the chance to love, and i ache for the boy that i always would.