I Really ***ed It Up This Time, Didn't I, My Dear?

WeGet few day came about regularly
The morning of our first day off, i woke up to the sounds of someone throwing up. I checked my phone
8:57
I sighed and got up and checked on who was throwing up. When I peered into the bathroom, I saw ginger hair and a pale shirtless body leaning up against the white porcelain
"Alan?" I whispered
He looked up at me and his face was pale and purple bags were visible. I opened the door and sat next to him and rubbed his back
"Are you ok?" I asked
He looked at me and shook his head No
"I think i'm going to puke again" he muttered
in a matter of seconds, he was dry heaving and vomiting
I just rubbed his back and tried to make him feel better
"Do you want me to take care of you?" I asked, my cheek against his back
I felt him nod
I got up and handed him the mouth wash
After he got all cleaned up, I made him go back to bed.
Soon, the little ginger was fast asleep in his bunk. I quickly checked my bag for my pack of cigarettes. Once my lighter and my pack were in my hands, I quietly made some coffee, I wasn't sure if they allowed smoking so I might as well cover my breath. I snuck off the bus and put a cancer stick in my mouth, lighting it up and inhaling the deadly toxins I've come to love so much. I closed my eyes and exhaled the smoke

"Those are dangerous, they can kill you."
The voice made me jump
I looked up to see Tino smiling wide
"I'm aware'' I said
''It's okay because we smoke too,But we smoke weed'' He said and laughed
"You want some company?"I asked
He nodded "Sure"
I climbed onto the top of the roof of the bus
We talked for a couple of minutes and it became silent
"Can i say something?" Tino asked
I nodded
"Well, I think Alan might somewhat have feelings for you" He said
"What makes you say that?" I asked emotionless
on the inside I was freaking the fuck out
"Well, when he's with you, he's happy as fuck and he was never that happy with maddie" He said
It was silent for a moment
"Can i say something?"I asked
He nodded
"Well, I think I might somewhat have feelings for Alan" I said quietly
He smiled slightly
"We're playing a show here tomorrow so we're staying in a hotel" He said and paused
I nodded slightly
"And its usually 2-3 to a room" He paused again
I nodded again
"Well, Drew and The rest of us think you and alan should share a room." Tino said
I nodded
''Would you be okay with that?'' He asked
''As long as we have our own beds'' I said
Tino nodded
''Well, it's 10:30 and we're going to hotel at 12:00 so maybe we should wake everyone up and pack.'' Tino said
I nodded
We climbed off the bus and went inside.
Everyone except for Alan was up
''I'll wake him up'' I said and walked to the bunk area
''Alan, you have to wake up so you can pack."I said quietly
He murmured something I couldn't quite understand an got up.
He Slowly Got Packed
"I feel like shit'' He groaned
"I know you do but when we get to the hotel, you can sleep" I murmured, rubbing his back while he packed
"Your hands are cold" He shivered while zipping up his suitcase
"Cold hands, warm heart?" I asked laughing
he laughed and nodded
I packed and got dressed
Soon, the bus had stopped and we all got out into the cold air
"Fuck this" Phil yelled and ran inside
we all laughed and walked faster
walking into the hotel's lobby was
h e a v e n
It was so warm and cozy
"So who rooms with who?" Tino asked
"Gloria and Tinoroom together, Austin and I, Aaron and Phil and Alan with Jillian" Andrew said
We all nodded and went up to our rooms
When I unlocked the door to Alan and I's room, Alan ran in and flopped onto the bed
"Oh my fucking god this bed is so cozy I want to sleep forever" He moaned
"Wow, moaning sounds already?"
I turned my head and saw phil smirking
"Oh my god phil stop" Alan blushed and threw a pillow at him
Blushing?
Phil threw the pillow back and closed the door
"I'm sorry oh my god" Alan tried to explain
"It's fine,I promise" I said
He nodded
"Are you feeling any better?" I asked while sitting on his bed
"Yeah,I'm tired as fuck though" He laughed
"Same,Try to get some sleep, I'm gonna edit some photos" I said while walking towards my suitcase
He nodded and got some sleeping pants and went into the bathroom to change
I turned on my laptop and fucked around with some pictures, I didn't realize Alan was back until I heard snoring.
I looked at him
He was cuddled up in the blankets, his hair sticking up in all sort of directions. His mouth open slightly. Those pale pink lips, what I would do to kiss those cute little lips.
Fuck
what are you doing Jillian
I checked the time and saw it was almost 4:00
I decided it was a good time for a nap. I walked to my suitcase and saw I didn't bring any sleeping pants.
I looked over and saw Alan, fast asleep. I quietly tiptoed over to his suitcase and took I a pink floyd shirt. I smiled to myself.
I tiptoed into the bathroom. I screamed when I saw something on top of the counter. It was a fucking stuffed cat. God dammit Alan.
I took off my shirt and replaced it with the pink floyd shirt. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I returned to the main part of the room and got in bed. Here's to a nap in comfy clothes