Suicide

In a room full of people, she felt so alone, and she never knew why.
She hit rock bottom so many times and always climbed back up to the top.
But this time, I think she hit the bottom for good.

She felt like she was in quick sand, struggling to get out of this hole,
but all she did was sink deeper and deeper.

Nowhere else to run, and nowhere else to go.
She kept it all on the inside because in reality, that's the safest place to hide.
She tried to keep herself occupied, but something would always trigger her.

She said that blade never felt so good next to her skin,
She said she's trying to find the courage to press in.

She's tired of the life she lives, she just wants to end it all for good.
She said nobody would miss her, and she wonders if you would even show up at her funeral.
She's tired of everyone judging her, and she's tired of everyone lying.
She let's this all out at the end of the day, when she's in the shower crying.

So no one hears her, the water blocks it out,
When she wants to scream, when she wants to shout.

She's always so paranoid, every little things make her afraid
and her insecurities could eat her alive....

She said when she goes, she wants to be remembered as the girl who
always made people smile.
When she couldn't even put a smile on her own face ; when she couldn't even
make her own day...

She puts everyone before herself, and she just wishes someone
would do that for her.
She said no one ever worries about her, she worries about everyone.

She said she wants to slit her wrists and end all this.
She wants to throw the magnum to her head, threatening to pull it.

She's confused as if she should do it or not.

She said she wants to think about herself for once.....