Falling for You Was Out of My Control
We Need Each Other
Evgeni’s POV
I lost count of how many times she called me. I lost count of all the times she messaged me and then when she called my home phone and was talking to my mum I knew it wasn’t going away quietly.
“Look you two love each other and if you don’t talk to her I am going to drag you over to her house and lock you in a room until you talk.”
“Not a good idea mama,” I knew my anger would turn into something else if I was around her. Even as I tried to ignore her, tried to say that we never were I couldn’t help but think how much I loved her, how much I craved her and how much I just wanted to give in.
“Zhenya sweetie please, she is confused but I know she loves you… and I know you love her,” my mother sat down next to me and looked at me seriously.
“Mama I have a hockey game to get ready for,” I got up not wanting to talk about it anymore.
“Just be careful,” she warned.
Usually I had Jessie with me, we would take a nap together if she had the time, she would have my suit laid out on the bed by the time I had gotten out of the shower and she always had some pasta ready and waiting for me. She had become a part of my routine and without her it all felt so wrong.
Instead I couldn’t sleep through my nap because I missed having her in my arms, when I got out of the shower I had to rummage through the cupboard that was bare because let’s face it all my things were at her place. Then I had to try and find a tie to go with it, which was hard enough with Jessie’s help. The only bonus to being at home was I had borscht waiting on the table but I didn’t feel like eating so I went hungry.
“Hey G you ready?” Nealsy slapped my shoulder as I sat staring at the carpet trying to convince myself everything was going to be ok.
“Yeah,” but I wasn’t. I wasn’t thinking about the hockey game I was thinking about Jessie and how much I loved her, how much I missed her.
Jessie’s POV
There wasn’t a second of the day that he wasn’t on my mind that I wasn’t thinking about what I had done, how I had wronged him and I wanted to fix it.
The house wasn’t the same without him. He took up all the space in bed but pulled me into him to make up for it. He made me dinner to make up for the all the washing and cleaning I did. He kept me company, he helped with the dogs, he helped me when I was hurt but most of all he loved me. He loved me no matter what. I just hoped I hadn’t messed that up completely.
“So what? Do you love him or Liam?” Anna pointed to the screen as Evgeni took off down the ice.
“I love him, I want to be with him not Liam,” I had spent the last 3 days thinking about this. I thought about my relationship with Evgeni and my relationship with Liam and I knew what I had with Liam would never be the same again.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes I am sure, I am positive a hundred percent.”
“Well why have you been sitting here moping for days? Why don’t you do something?”
“Because he won’t listen to me, he doesn’t want to listen,” I sighed.
“Oh my god Jessie!” she screeched covering her mouth as she stared at the screen.
“What?” I was confused as looked back to see Evgeni lying motionless on the ice, “what happened?” I could feel the tears already beginning to form in my eyes.
“He hit the boards, his head.”
We stared at the screen and I couldn’t breathe until he was up and even then I wasn’t convinced. I could see the pain he was in, he couldn’t hide that from me. I knew him too well.
I lost count of how many times she called me. I lost count of all the times she messaged me and then when she called my home phone and was talking to my mum I knew it wasn’t going away quietly.
“Look you two love each other and if you don’t talk to her I am going to drag you over to her house and lock you in a room until you talk.”
“Not a good idea mama,” I knew my anger would turn into something else if I was around her. Even as I tried to ignore her, tried to say that we never were I couldn’t help but think how much I loved her, how much I craved her and how much I just wanted to give in.
“Zhenya sweetie please, she is confused but I know she loves you… and I know you love her,” my mother sat down next to me and looked at me seriously.
“Mama I have a hockey game to get ready for,” I got up not wanting to talk about it anymore.
“Just be careful,” she warned.
Usually I had Jessie with me, we would take a nap together if she had the time, she would have my suit laid out on the bed by the time I had gotten out of the shower and she always had some pasta ready and waiting for me. She had become a part of my routine and without her it all felt so wrong.
Instead I couldn’t sleep through my nap because I missed having her in my arms, when I got out of the shower I had to rummage through the cupboard that was bare because let’s face it all my things were at her place. Then I had to try and find a tie to go with it, which was hard enough with Jessie’s help. The only bonus to being at home was I had borscht waiting on the table but I didn’t feel like eating so I went hungry.
“Hey G you ready?” Nealsy slapped my shoulder as I sat staring at the carpet trying to convince myself everything was going to be ok.
“Yeah,” but I wasn’t. I wasn’t thinking about the hockey game I was thinking about Jessie and how much I loved her, how much I missed her.
Jessie’s POV
There wasn’t a second of the day that he wasn’t on my mind that I wasn’t thinking about what I had done, how I had wronged him and I wanted to fix it.
The house wasn’t the same without him. He took up all the space in bed but pulled me into him to make up for it. He made me dinner to make up for the all the washing and cleaning I did. He kept me company, he helped with the dogs, he helped me when I was hurt but most of all he loved me. He loved me no matter what. I just hoped I hadn’t messed that up completely.
“So what? Do you love him or Liam?” Anna pointed to the screen as Evgeni took off down the ice.
“I love him, I want to be with him not Liam,” I had spent the last 3 days thinking about this. I thought about my relationship with Evgeni and my relationship with Liam and I knew what I had with Liam would never be the same again.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes I am sure, I am positive a hundred percent.”
“Well why have you been sitting here moping for days? Why don’t you do something?”
“Because he won’t listen to me, he doesn’t want to listen,” I sighed.
“Oh my god Jessie!” she screeched covering her mouth as she stared at the screen.
“What?” I was confused as looked back to see Evgeni lying motionless on the ice, “what happened?” I could feel the tears already beginning to form in my eyes.
“He hit the boards, his head.”
We stared at the screen and I couldn’t breathe until he was up and even then I wasn’t convinced. I could see the pain he was in, he couldn’t hide that from me. I knew him too well.