Sequel: Don't Fall Back
Status: Completed! Update: Congrats to Colton on the 2-year extension with the Leafs!

Insane Love

XIII. Saturday, April 13th, 2013.

-Mia's POV-


After changing out of my uniform and putting my purse over my shoulder, I started walking out of the medical room with my key chain in my left hand. I sighed after a long day, and headed out. I knew beating the Habs 5-1 made the boys more than happy, especially on home ice. It was full with rival tensity and both teams were battling hard.

Watching the younger guys being physical, the rough fights and talented plays, gave everyone a reason to cheer. Tonight I only had to deal with Frazer McLaren after the last period. His face had cuts and scrapes and most of it was from his jersey, which he said felt like sandpaper.

I glanced at the Maple Leafs history posters on the white walls down the hallway, scanning through the picture frames and photos of legendary players. I could hear the fans rushing through the halls of the ACC, satisfied by the way the game ended.

Once I made my way over to the locker room, I waited patiently outside the doorway instead of going in like the rest of the hockey wives and girlfriends. I wondered if the boys were going out to celebrate, and I wasn't in the mood for drinking tonight, so I didn't know what Colton wanted. I was shaken out of my thoughts when I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder. I smiled at Elisha Cuthbert, Dion's fiancé.

"Hey girl," I spoke. I folded my arms across my chest and we both faced the locker room.

"Hey," she stood beside me. "They sound so excited."

"Yeah," I chuckled.

"How are you and Colts?" Elisha questioned nicely.

"We're good," I answered confidently. I shifted my shoulder, trying to make my right upper chest more comfortable after the sudden pain. I cleared my throat and brought my attention to the players that were now coming out of the room. Dion wrapped his arm around Elisha's back after chatting with Phil.

"Ready to go?" he looked down at her, and then glanced at me.

"Yup, are you boys going out later?" Elisha asked.

"Yeah in an hour," he responded.

"Alright, bye Mia." Elisha placed her hand on my arm briefly. She and Dion both smiled at me before they left together.

Colton and Nazem came out of the locker room in their suits, as well. They nodded at each other and Colton stepped towards me. I grinned and he kissed my forehead.

"Good game."

"Thanks baby," he linked his fingers with mine and we started going down the hall. We got out into the parking lot, talking about the plays and goals. I quickly got into the passenger seat beside him and he started his car, as we were already wet due to the rain.

He drove out and the bright street lights beamed as I stared out the side window. His wind shield wipers were the only things making noise, and we sat in a comfortable silence. I frowned, realizing that the throbbing pain returned.

I swallowed and put my hand on the area. It wasn't my stomach, so I knew it couldn't be something I ate or drank. It felt like an internal stabbing, popping out of my skin. The pain burned and I couldn't sit up straight. The car stopped at a red light, and Colton faced me.

He must have seen me biting my lip and furrowing my eyebrows, because he narrowed his eyes at me. "Are you okay?" he asked curiously.

I turned my head to the side, looking at him casually, "Yeah, I'm fine." I smiled.

The light turned green and he stepped on the gas. After the quiet drive, we arrived his house--which had practically became my house. We rushed inside, escaping the rain. Colton sat on the couch and stretched his arms out tiredly.

"Are you going to McFlannigans?" I sat beside him.

"I don't know," he shrugged. "If you want me to stay, I'll stay."

I wanted him to stay here with me since I didn't want to be alone with this weird pain, but I felt like it wasn't my choice to tell him he can't hang out with his teammates. "You can go celebrate, just as long as you come back." I joked.

"Only if you're still here," he chuckled and rubbed his nose on my cheek, and kissed it gently. He placed soft kisses on my jaw, leaning down to my neck.

I giggled, re-positioning myself on the couch. I went on top of him as his back hit the cushions, and I put my hands on his chest. My legs rested on both sides of his body, and I trapped him under me. Our lips parted and we kissed while our bodies touched.

His hands slid behind my neck and his tongue found its way into my mouth. Colton's hand went up under my shirt on my back and he unclipped my bra instantly. He deepened the kiss after I lifted my shirt over my head. My black bra came off and his hands met them. He squeezed them lightly and I shivered once he placed sloppy kisses on my right one.

I bit my bottom lip and ruffled his hair at the back, and leaned down to kiss his lips again. He took his navy blue suit jacket off, and my hands felt his abs, while his tie flew up and he threw it on the ground where my clothes had landed beside the couch.

"You're g-gonna be late," I breathed once our lips took a break from each other.

"I don't mind," he smirked. He took my hands gently and led them down to his expensive black Versace belt. I smiled and unbuckled it, and took down the zipper. His pants were then added to the pile of clothes we made.

I shifted my body lower, and his back rested against the couch cushion. I rubbed over his underwear first, and then grabbed his dick out. I put my hair over to one side, and my lips touched the tip of his member. I sloppily motioned my tongue around it, placing it in my mouth and began sucking. He groaned quietly and his hand messed with my hair.

"Oh, fffuck.." he lifted his chin up, enjoying every bit of it. I slid most of it into my mouth, and as far as it could go, I allowed it to reach near my throat for a few moments. I gasped for air when I pulled it out and I swallowed. Colton breathed heavily and I smiled to myself.

He pulled my face up to his and kissed me roughly. Both of our eyes were closed but he found his way down to my jeans and he took them off by himself. My black matching thin panties came off as well, and I fell back down on the couch.

He then went on top of me, kissing me with passion. He reached down and pulled a plastic wrap out of the inside pocket of his suit. I kissed his collarbone as he put on the condom. Once he was ready, he leaned down again and my legs opened. His hands went beside my shoulders and he thrusted into me.

I moaned and his lips met mine, making me shut up. I breathed through my nose as my body rocked in the motion. His dick was hard and it felt even better every time. I wished he could take off the condom but we had already not used it once before and I was nervous about doing it again.

He kissed my neck and my nails dug into his back as he continued banging into me. My legs wrapped around him and he pulled me up. He sat against the headboard on the couch with me on his lap. He gave it to me as a signal to make myself comfortable. I put one hand around his neck and the other on his dick. It went up my hole and I screamed under my breath as I fucked him.

He kissed my lips hard again and then lifted me up along with him. My legs were still together around his back, my hands on his cheeks as he squeezed my ass. I had no idea where we were going but I suddenly was pushed up against the wall with him in front of me. Colton kissed my jaw line, making me melt completely when he licked my soft spot. He smashed into me harder, and faster. I couldn't help but moan with pleasure and we were getting hotter by the second.

I bit my lip as he continued to fuck me against the wall, oblivious to the picture frames near us that were about to fall down. The pain under my right breast was minor at the moment, but I didn't want to tell him to stop. We were on our way and I didn't want to ruin it just because I may have sat uncomfortably earlier and caught my right side in a bad position. I hoped that's all it was.

My legs were slipping off his back, and I was so weak under his touch of desire. He put his hands under my knees, holding me up against the wall again. I kissed him passionately and with a rough hip thrust, he cursed sexually. I screamed and there was sweat on the top of my forehead, along with his.

He placed me down and my feet touched the ground. We both breathed heavily and he smirked at me. He always knew the right moves which drove me crazy. The lust and sexual tension was so hard to ignore. I smiled and leaned up to kiss him once more.

"You're amazing," Colton chuckled and wrapped his arms around my waist. I felt his dick touch me and I bit my bottom lip.

"Same goes to you," I winked. I escaped from his arms and went down to pick up my clothes. I turned away from him and we both got re-dressed.

He glanced down at his iPhone and tapped the screen a few times, and replied to a text. He looked at me and said, "Tyler's wondering if I'm on my way."

"Yes, you are on your way." I tossed him his car keys.

He caught them in the air and smiled devilishly. He walked over to me and kissed me gently. "I'll be back."

"Don't drink too much," I told him as he headed for the door. He nodded and once we said bye, I sat down on the couch. I laughed to myself when I saw the picture frames that had been moved and shaped differently. I got up and sighed while fixing them.

I cringed right away after lifting my arm up. I furrowed my eyebrows, and leaned against the wall, sliding down to the floor. My breast was aching and I knew something was wrong.

Every time I breathed heavily, the uninvited shock attacked me. I flinched and my lips were trembling. I let out a quiet sob and the tears managed to fall down repeatedly. I was alone and in pain.

I dragged my body along the hardwood floor with one hand on my chest. I crawled over to my phone on the ground and I wiped my face. My eyes were wet and I could barely see the screen. I swiped it open and tapped through my contacts. I called Lana and waited desperately for her to pick up.

"Hello?"

"Lana," I sobbed, thankful to hear her voice. The words couldn't come out of my mouth and my cries were clear.

"Mia!? Mia what's wrong? What's going on!?" she asked quickly with a worried tone.

"I'm in a lot of pain!" I sniffed. "I don't know why, my breast just hurts."

"Where are you? Where's Colton?"

"He went to the bar but please come, he doesn't know about this." I begged.

"I'm coming, try to breath, okay?" Lana spoke. "Mia you're going to be okay."

I wiped my eyes and waited for her to arrive. I laid down completely, by the coffee table on the rug. My head was pounding and it made the pain even worse. My hands were shaking and I felt light, like I was floating. The room became unclear and my eyes were shutting. All I could hear was my heart beat and soon I drifted away and couldn't feel anything.

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"Hey, she's waking up." I heard a voice as my eyes fluttered open. I stared up at the young man with blue eyes and dark hair. He was wearing a simple green tee with navy jeans. His hand gently brushed my cheek and he smiled down at me, like he knew who I was. There was a girl and another guy beside him, who also looked like they were sixteen.

"W-Who are you?" I forced myself to look around at the circus tents and candy shops. I listened to the teenagers and other adults who were making their way over to the large ferris wheel.

The sky was dark, and the grass was green. It felt like a Summer night and I could see the carnival better as I sat up carefully. I stared at the people near me once more and I sensed their confused looks.

"It's me, Josh." he held his hand out, waiting for me to grab it. I glanced at the others and he continued, "Emily, and Aaron." They all smiled at me and Emily came closer to help me stand up.

I let out a smile once I recognized some of my best friends and also my boyfriend from high school, but I had no idea why they were here. It didn't take long for me to realize that I was back in my hometown.

"What happened?" I asked them quietly.

"You ran into some guy when you were running to get in line for the bumper cars," Aaron explained. "I guess you hit your head pretty hard."

"Are you okay, girl?" Emily put her hand around my back, hugging me from the side lightly. I still felt the pain and I flinched.

"Yeah," I managed to say. I glanced back at Josh and his worried look changed into a sweet grin.

He looked so young, and so did Emily and Aaron. Just the way I remembered them. Emily's brown hair pulled into a ponytail, and she wore a bright yellow sundress. Aaron's curly brown hair and freckles under his eyes. Josh's calm voice and popular sense of style. I was wearing a familiar red tank top, and white shorts. My hair was shoulder length and it was naturally wavy.

I looked around the area, at the pink striped tents and talented rope walkers. There were water balloon stations and more equipment for people to enjoy. The swing rides and teddy bear awards, popcorn stands and ticket sellers. I grew more confused, until I saw the entrance sign behind us.

Kingston Summer 2006 Carnival


"C'mon, let's go buy you some water." Josh spoke. He put his arm around my shoulder and I felt uncomfortable having someone other than Colton near me.

Emily and Aaron chatted behind us and I crossed my arms as we all walked. A girl screamed happily and hugged a guy beside her, as he handed her a pink elephant toy he had won.

I was so confused and I could have sworn there was no way this was happening. I was a teenager again, sneaking out to the festival that my parents thought they could keep me in my room for.

"You scared me there, when you asked who I was." Josh's hands were in his pockets as we walked beside each other. He smiled down at me and added, "I don't know what I'd do if you forgot me."

I chuckled nervously and shook my head once he was facing forward again. He paid for a water bottle and handed it over to me. I thanked him and took a few long gulps, hoping it would wake me up. But it didn't.

"So what ride do you wanna go on now?" Aaron asked me.

"Um, I don't know." I spoke. I still felt dizzy and tired, unaware of what was happening.

"Well the Batman line is pretty short right now, we should go there!" Emily said cheerfully and blushed when Aaron flashed her a grin.

Once we were in the line, waiting for the roller coaster to arrive back and stop for the next people to climb on, I turned to Josh. "Do you know where Zoe is?"

"She and that Mike guy from Mr. Root's class decided to leave and go walking along the lake shore earlier, by the park." he told me.

I managed to laugh at the thought of teenage Zoe and Mike, sneaking around together. It felt so weird, knowing what was going to happen to most of the people here. The lady opened the gate and we all climbed onto the roller coaster. It was long and the track looked frightening, but I remembered this as my favorite ride.

After the scary but fun ride, we headed for the popular ferris wheel. We started to rise up, me and Josh beside each other, Emily and Aaron behind us. Josh wrapped his arm around my shoulder as the ferris wheel started going around, in a soothing motion.

It was slow, and enjoyable. I got a better chance to look at the whole carnival once it stopped, so everyone could see. It started again and Josh took the time to speak, "I like this year better, don't you?"

I nodded, and he kissed my right temple. I smiled lightly but didn't want him to touch me. I wanted my real boyfriend. "Can I ask you something?"

"Anything," he responded.

"Um, what team does Colton Orr play for?"

"Uh, I think the Rangers claimed him in November."

"New York. I see." I couldn't help but giggle under my breath.

Josh just laughed and shrugged casually. Our seats arrived at the top, and we were now able to get an even better view. I could see the lake, and the trees that blew in the wind. It smelled like popcorn and cotton candy.

I stared down at my side, not getting tired of the perfect view. I closed my eyes, and breathed. The air was warm but the wind began to make it cool up here.

"Her heart rate is normal," he smiled.

I turned my head to the side to face him again, wondering why he just said that. "What?"

"Everything seems to be fine," he pushed a strand of my hair behind my ear. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.


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My eyes blinded by the bright rows of lights on the ceiling. I blinked twice and looked at the old male doctor who was reading something on a clipboard. Lana noticed that I had came to, and she walked over beside the hospital bed.

"Hey," she put her hand on top of mine.

I sat up carefully and the doctor came closer as well. "How are you feeling?" he asked.

"Did I pass out?" I replied with my own question.

"Yes, your friend brought you and you've been here for about an hour." he told me.

"Am I gonna be okay?" my voice cracked once I saw the tubes of blood on the counter. I glanced at my arms and saw that they had taken from me.

"I was just explaining that your heart is fine and it's not an organ issue," he put his pen in his lab coat pocket. "I have to ask you some questions now."

I nodded and he began, "What were you doing when the pain first started?"

"I was just talking to a friend of mine. We were waiting outside the locker room, and it just randomly hit me."

"Has anyone in your family ever had this problem?"

"Not that I know of.." I said.

"Well, we took some blood tests and the results should come back next week."

"Do I.. have breast cancer?" I bit my bottom lip and felt my tears stain beneath my eyes.

The doctor looked at Lana and then they both turn to me. "The results will determine it." he spoke quietly and my eyes shut at his words.

"You have to get rest," he wrote something down on a piece of paper. "I'm giving you pain medication and you can bring this note to work. It just says that you're going to have to miss a few days."

I swallowed and took the note from him. He sighed sadly, and nodded at both of us before leaving the room. Lana hugged me and I cried on her shoulder.

"Can you take me back to Colton's?" I wiped my eyes.

"Yes, I'll call him too and--"

"No!" my voice was fierce. "No, he can't know."

She looked at me with horror on her face, "Mia, he's going to find out."

I glanced at the wall clock and stood up, standing tall, and being able to walk again. "I know he's not back from McFlannigan's yet, and I don't want him to know I was here, or that any of this happened, okay?"

"Mia.." she whispered.

"Please." I urged. "I need to know if it is what I hope it isn't. I don't want him to worry."

"Okay," she sounded sad. She picked up the pain meds and we started walking out of the room.

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"Do you know what ever happened to Emily Terrence and Aaron Williams from high school?" I asked in the car.

Lana faced me, "Uh.." she looked confused by my random question. "They dated through University at Queens, but I don't know about now."

Once Lana had dropped me off, she said she'll always be available for help and told to eat fruits and vegetables. After she finally left, I took a pill and drank it down with a glass of water. I hid the orange container in my purse and carefully walked upstairs.

I undressed into my pajama shorts and silk top, and crawled into bed alone. I clasped my hands together near my neck and I shut my eyes, trying to lullaby myself to sleep by humming. Tears were rolling down my eyes as I heard Colton's car pull up in the driveway.

I wiped them off and pretended to be asleep once the bedroom door cracked open. Thankfully, my back was turned to it and he couldn't see my face.

He quietly got undressed and went under the covers, hoping he wouldn't wake me up, having no idea what happened when he was gone. He kissed my hair, and drifted into his sleep.
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Mia's outfit

Sorry it took so long to update but I have the next few chapters planned out so all I have to do is write them. You should read my other fic (featuring Nazem Kadri): Inevitable