Anorexic Neighborhood
Anorexic Neighborhood (part ten)
I woke up to water drops on my face. I moved slightly and heard my sister asking me if I was all right. I nodded lightly. "Yes Nicole I'm fine." My voice sounded far away, like I was speaking from another place. I lay there trembling. My sister helped me up, and out of the bathroom, practically carrying me the entire way. "I'm just tired, I'm soo tired." I said emotionless.
My sister led me on to my bedroom, where she helped me onto my bed pulling the blankets to my chin. I looked at her face, and noticed how solemn she looked. Her cheeks had tear stains and her eyes were red. I couldn't tell but it looked as though my sister was frightened. I then realized the whole house seemed dead quiet.
As if she could hear my thoughts, she explained how Mom took Jessica shopping with her. I sighed in relief. "Nikki, you can't tell Mom! Please don't. I'll do anything! I'll decorate your room, and you can wear any outfit of mine to school." I pleaded in desperation. She just walked out of my room. "Wait! What are you doing? Where are you going?" I called after her but she didn't reply.
I listened holding my breath, to be sure she wasn't calling anyone. Her and Jessica's Dad. My Mom. Or even worst the hospital. I listened for a sign, but only heard dishes clanking in the kitchen.
My brain was completely exhausted. I needed sleep. I closed my eyes, and sunk deeper into my bed.
I was
Sinking...
I saw images of Jenny and her diet coke
The bathroom scale
Sinking...
I saw my eyes
I saw the girl from the mall
She was getting further away from me
She became skinnier and skinner
Until she looked like a skeleton
her eyes were the same
big and haunted and full of warning
She was screaming something I couldn't hear
I tried getting closer but she just went further away
until I couldn't see her at all.
Then there was only black.
(to be continued)
My sister led me on to my bedroom, where she helped me onto my bed pulling the blankets to my chin. I looked at her face, and noticed how solemn she looked. Her cheeks had tear stains and her eyes were red. I couldn't tell but it looked as though my sister was frightened. I then realized the whole house seemed dead quiet.
As if she could hear my thoughts, she explained how Mom took Jessica shopping with her. I sighed in relief. "Nikki, you can't tell Mom! Please don't. I'll do anything! I'll decorate your room, and you can wear any outfit of mine to school." I pleaded in desperation. She just walked out of my room. "Wait! What are you doing? Where are you going?" I called after her but she didn't reply.
I listened holding my breath, to be sure she wasn't calling anyone. Her and Jessica's Dad. My Mom. Or even worst the hospital. I listened for a sign, but only heard dishes clanking in the kitchen.
My brain was completely exhausted. I needed sleep. I closed my eyes, and sunk deeper into my bed.
I was
Sinking...
I saw images of Jenny and her diet coke
The bathroom scale
Sinking...
I saw my eyes
I saw the girl from the mall
She was getting further away from me
She became skinnier and skinner
Until she looked like a skeleton
her eyes were the same
big and haunted and full of warning
She was screaming something I couldn't hear
I tried getting closer but she just went further away
until I couldn't see her at all.
Then there was only black.
(to be continued)