Letters for Muscles
March 4
My Dearest Muscles,
Life is just… wrong. How the hell did we get here? I just don’t understand…
Kennedy came on the telly, and he was saying all these things, that you’re—it’s just wrong. I don’t know how to make it right. I can’t fix it, no matter what I do.
My heart’s broken into a million little pieces. I don’t ever want anybody to feel the pain I feel inside.
I miss you so much.
I’m terrified of spending life without you. I don’t understand how I’m supposed to do it, how to make this work. I don’t want to be in a world without you in it.
Everyone’s trying to talk to me, and all I want to do is be alone. Avery keeps sitting in here with me, watching me like a hawk. I wish he’d just go away.
People kept saying words like: strong, resilient, brave, doing well, coping.
But that’s all such shit. I don’t feel like any of those things.
I’m very small, and I’m very broken.
My heart is torn in two, but it keeps beating. I wish it would stop.
I’m never going to be whole again.
I miss you.
I need you.
Everyone needs you.
They need me to. I suppose I’ve got a purpose here yet. So I’ll keep plodding along… because I promised you I would.
I love you beyond life,
Blondie
Life is just… wrong. How the hell did we get here? I just don’t understand…
Kennedy came on the telly, and he was saying all these things, that you’re—it’s just wrong. I don’t know how to make it right. I can’t fix it, no matter what I do.
My heart’s broken into a million little pieces. I don’t ever want anybody to feel the pain I feel inside.
I miss you so much.
I’m terrified of spending life without you. I don’t understand how I’m supposed to do it, how to make this work. I don’t want to be in a world without you in it.
Everyone’s trying to talk to me, and all I want to do is be alone. Avery keeps sitting in here with me, watching me like a hawk. I wish he’d just go away.
People kept saying words like: strong, resilient, brave, doing well, coping.
But that’s all such shit. I don’t feel like any of those things.
I’m very small, and I’m very broken.
My heart is torn in two, but it keeps beating. I wish it would stop.
I’m never going to be whole again.
I miss you.
I need you.
Everyone needs you.
They need me to. I suppose I’ve got a purpose here yet. So I’ll keep plodding along… because I promised you I would.
I love you beyond life,
Blondie