Letters for Muscles
March 5
My Dearest Muscles,
I lost it again this afternoon.
I thought Noah lost the files on the gala, and I sort of flipped out on him. This shit just does my head in, but he found them. I apologized, and he left. Chandler’s been on the phones for the last two days trying to figure out what they plan on doing with all of your things. But we haven’t talked about it.
Avery’s still here. I want him to go away, but then the night comes, and I never want him to leave. I don’t sleep anymore, not even a little.
There’s never going to be a time I won’t ache with missing you.
I’m so desperate for you to come home.
Every loud car that passes makes me look up.
But I know that red car is in the garage, and the SUV is too.
It still doesn’t feel real. Just like a nightmare I can’t wake up from.
I love you beyond life,
Blondie
I lost it again this afternoon.
I thought Noah lost the files on the gala, and I sort of flipped out on him. This shit just does my head in, but he found them. I apologized, and he left. Chandler’s been on the phones for the last two days trying to figure out what they plan on doing with all of your things. But we haven’t talked about it.
Avery’s still here. I want him to go away, but then the night comes, and I never want him to leave. I don’t sleep anymore, not even a little.
There’s never going to be a time I won’t ache with missing you.
I’m so desperate for you to come home.
Every loud car that passes makes me look up.
But I know that red car is in the garage, and the SUV is too.
It still doesn’t feel real. Just like a nightmare I can’t wake up from.
I love you beyond life,
Blondie