My Savior is Dead
Nathaniel
I woke up and sighed.
Another day I wish I was dead.
Another day I have to suffer pain and agony.
Depression and being ashamed of myself.
Another day I suffer straining myself and stopping myself from doing it.
From commiting the perfect crime.
From finally killing myself.
The thoughts are always there.
Ideas of ways to do it are always here.
Another day I blame myself for why I lost the best boyfriend I've ever had to society.
Rumors ruined that perfect relationship.
Trust and honesty did too but rumors were a big factor.
I got dressed, did my hair, and put my contacts in.
I grabbed my bag and quickly got out of the house before dad woke up and got in my car.
I turned the ignition for it to not start.
Damn piece of shit.
I turned it again and it sprung to life.
I backed out of the drive way and slowly drove to school.
Once I claimed a parking spot I turned off my car and sat there.
I was early any way.
I listened to the radio in the background.
I was thinking about brad, my ex, when there was yelling.
I looked up to see Stephanie and Brad fighting.
Yes my ex.
I cracked my window I listen in.
"Fuck you! You cheating lying bastard!" Stephanie yellow throwing something at him.
"Baby!" He yelled back.
I winced.
That hurt.
"No! We're over! I'm sick and tired of this! Why don't you go back to that freak! You two are sooooo perfect together anyways!"
With that she stormed off.
Brad turned and looked at me.
I sunk down in my seat.
He turned away and walked off.
I sighed and a tear escaped.
I missed him...
I realized what time it was and got out locking my car and walking to the school.
Every time I step foot in here it's a death sentence.
Whispers were about me.
Every one always liked talking about me.
I walked to my locker when it was slammed shut.
I looked to my right to find none other than Stephanie.
"Look here, freak. I know you saw what happened. That does NOT mean you can have him back. He's still MINE. Got it?"
"Keep him." I said before opening my locker again.
I grabbed the books I needed, shut it, locked it and walked off.
I walked into class and took my seat in the back.
Once everyone came in Mr.Terrance came in.
And after that someone new.
"Class we have a new student. Nathaniel Black."
"Oh man, I'm going to have fun with that one." Brittany said.
Brittany was just another school slut.
"Brittany enough." Mr.Terrance scolded.
"I didnt even say anything."
"Anymore outbursts and I'll send you to the office."
Nathaniel walked to the back of the class and took the seat right next to mine.
He had pale skin and bright green eyes.
His hair was dark brown and if he auditioned to be a model he would deffinately make the cut.
He had a few tattoos but nothing serious.
Before I realized I was staring he looked right at me.
I quickly looked away blushing.
Fuck.
***********
After that class I rushed to second period.
Once again he had that class.
And he sat right next to me.
After that I was on my way to my locker when I was pushed to the ground.
I turned over to see Tyler.
He hated me.
I embarrassed him several times.
I tried getting up but his friends stopped me.
"Beat the shit out of her but no noise." Tyler said turning around.
"What?!" I screamed.
One of his friends gagged me holding me down.
"Shut up, slut." The blonde one said.
That pissed me off.
I kicked and thrashed until one of them kicked me over and over repeatedly.
They then kicked my side and I heard a crack.
Blood seeped out of my mouth.
I started coughing an gasping for air.
That's when they fled.
Pussies.
I started to lost consciousness.
Suddenly I was being lifted an I blacked out.
***********
I heard beeping and opened my eyes.
I saw white and then Nathaniel?
I touched his hand and he looked at me.
"How are you feeling?"
"Why are you here?"
"Doesn't matter."
"Nathaniel."
"You were hurt I couldn't leave you there."
"Well thank you."
"Why did they do that?"
I sighed.
"I'm hated. I'm always getting beat up or bullied. But I'm used to it."
"That's not something to be happy about."
"I'm never happy." I whispered.
"That's about to change."
"What?"
"Just let me handle it."
"Okay?"
He sighed.
"I never got your name." He said.
"Athena."
"Beautiful."
"Hardly." I snorted.
"Don't speak such lies."
"It's true. I'm ugly and I'm a disgrace."
"No you're not."
"You can't say anything! You don't know anything!"
"Then fill me in."
"Yeah, like I'm gonna tell a stranger my problems."
"Sometimes that's the best way."
I sighed.
"Brad used to be my boyfriend then Stephanie spread a rumor that I cheated with Tyler. Tyler is the one who old his friend to beat me up. Ever since then I've been known as a whore as a slut. Nobody likes me and you'd be a fool to want to be my friend."
"I'm willing to risk that."
"You're an idiot."
"Sure I am but I like you. You're different."
"Is that supposed to be a compliment?"
"If you want it to be."
"Okay then."
The rest of the day was spent with Nathaniel.
He was really cool.
He was a caring person.
He was my first and only friend made this year....
Maybe he can help me out of this depression.
Another day I wish I was dead.
Another day I have to suffer pain and agony.
Depression and being ashamed of myself.
Another day I suffer straining myself and stopping myself from doing it.
From commiting the perfect crime.
From finally killing myself.
The thoughts are always there.
Ideas of ways to do it are always here.
Another day I blame myself for why I lost the best boyfriend I've ever had to society.
Rumors ruined that perfect relationship.
Trust and honesty did too but rumors were a big factor.
I got dressed, did my hair, and put my contacts in.
I grabbed my bag and quickly got out of the house before dad woke up and got in my car.
I turned the ignition for it to not start.
Damn piece of shit.
I turned it again and it sprung to life.
I backed out of the drive way and slowly drove to school.
Once I claimed a parking spot I turned off my car and sat there.
I was early any way.
I listened to the radio in the background.
I was thinking about brad, my ex, when there was yelling.
I looked up to see Stephanie and Brad fighting.
Yes my ex.
I cracked my window I listen in.
"Fuck you! You cheating lying bastard!" Stephanie yellow throwing something at him.
"Baby!" He yelled back.
I winced.
That hurt.
"No! We're over! I'm sick and tired of this! Why don't you go back to that freak! You two are sooooo perfect together anyways!"
With that she stormed off.
Brad turned and looked at me.
I sunk down in my seat.
He turned away and walked off.
I sighed and a tear escaped.
I missed him...
I realized what time it was and got out locking my car and walking to the school.
Every time I step foot in here it's a death sentence.
Whispers were about me.
Every one always liked talking about me.
I walked to my locker when it was slammed shut.
I looked to my right to find none other than Stephanie.
"Look here, freak. I know you saw what happened. That does NOT mean you can have him back. He's still MINE. Got it?"
"Keep him." I said before opening my locker again.
I grabbed the books I needed, shut it, locked it and walked off.
I walked into class and took my seat in the back.
Once everyone came in Mr.Terrance came in.
And after that someone new.
"Class we have a new student. Nathaniel Black."
"Oh man, I'm going to have fun with that one." Brittany said.
Brittany was just another school slut.
"Brittany enough." Mr.Terrance scolded.
"I didnt even say anything."
"Anymore outbursts and I'll send you to the office."
Nathaniel walked to the back of the class and took the seat right next to mine.
He had pale skin and bright green eyes.
His hair was dark brown and if he auditioned to be a model he would deffinately make the cut.
He had a few tattoos but nothing serious.
Before I realized I was staring he looked right at me.
I quickly looked away blushing.
Fuck.
***********
After that class I rushed to second period.
Once again he had that class.
And he sat right next to me.
After that I was on my way to my locker when I was pushed to the ground.
I turned over to see Tyler.
He hated me.
I embarrassed him several times.
I tried getting up but his friends stopped me.
"Beat the shit out of her but no noise." Tyler said turning around.
"What?!" I screamed.
One of his friends gagged me holding me down.
"Shut up, slut." The blonde one said.
That pissed me off.
I kicked and thrashed until one of them kicked me over and over repeatedly.
They then kicked my side and I heard a crack.
Blood seeped out of my mouth.
I started coughing an gasping for air.
That's when they fled.
Pussies.
I started to lost consciousness.
Suddenly I was being lifted an I blacked out.
***********
I heard beeping and opened my eyes.
I saw white and then Nathaniel?
I touched his hand and he looked at me.
"How are you feeling?"
"Why are you here?"
"Doesn't matter."
"Nathaniel."
"You were hurt I couldn't leave you there."
"Well thank you."
"Why did they do that?"
I sighed.
"I'm hated. I'm always getting beat up or bullied. But I'm used to it."
"That's not something to be happy about."
"I'm never happy." I whispered.
"That's about to change."
"What?"
"Just let me handle it."
"Okay?"
He sighed.
"I never got your name." He said.
"Athena."
"Beautiful."
"Hardly." I snorted.
"Don't speak such lies."
"It's true. I'm ugly and I'm a disgrace."
"No you're not."
"You can't say anything! You don't know anything!"
"Then fill me in."
"Yeah, like I'm gonna tell a stranger my problems."
"Sometimes that's the best way."
I sighed.
"Brad used to be my boyfriend then Stephanie spread a rumor that I cheated with Tyler. Tyler is the one who old his friend to beat me up. Ever since then I've been known as a whore as a slut. Nobody likes me and you'd be a fool to want to be my friend."
"I'm willing to risk that."
"You're an idiot."
"Sure I am but I like you. You're different."
"Is that supposed to be a compliment?"
"If you want it to be."
"Okay then."
The rest of the day was spent with Nathaniel.
He was really cool.
He was a caring person.
He was my first and only friend made this year....
Maybe he can help me out of this depression.