Lost
Chapter 1
I shot up from my pillow with a jolt. A cold sweat dripped down my neck, and goosebumps laced my skin. I sighed as I sank back down into our… my bed. I've had the same dream every night since the accident. It’s been 2 weeks since the accident, and that night still haunted me.
The sound of crunching metal and shattered glass still ringing in my ears. How could I have been so stupid, and missed that stop sign? Maybe he’d still be alive. I closed my eyes as a few tears pricked the corners. I tried to fall back to sleep but the mangled mess kept flashing in my mind.
I sighed and got out of bed. I walked down the hall, the memory of his laughter filling my mind.
I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a mug, glancing at the clock on the microwave. 2:30 am.
I made myself some tea and sat on the couch. Memories of him flashing through my mind, I became shaky and dropped the mug. I started sobbing uncontrollably. This was my fault. He was gone because of me.
“I’m so sorry baby” I sobbed looking up at the ceiling
I clung to his sweatshirt that I slept in every night. I cried myself into an uneasy sleep. I woke up the next morning at 7. My body ached and my eyes were puffy from crying. I looked a wreck, I’m sure. I got up and cleaned up the broken glass from my mug and threw it away. Today was the day I dreaded. The day that proved all of this was real and wasn't a dream. Today was the day I buried the love of my life.
I looked at myself in the mirror. A simple black dress was what I was wearing. I sighed and wiped away a stray tear that fell from my eye.
This was really happening. I was really going to put the only person I ever loved in a box in the ground. It was my fault he was there. I shook my head and grabbed my purse, heading to the cab waiting for me downstairs.
It was a dreary day. It set the mood perfectly for the tragic occasion being held. Everyone seemed down, lost, crying hysterically. Me? I was numb. I couldn't feel anything here. Not around all these people. Everyone gave me condolences and hugs. It’s hard hugging people with your arm in a cast. I shouldn't have a cast. I should be in the coffin instead of him.
His mother walked up to me and embraced me. I don’t understand why she didn't hate me. I mean I did cause the death of her son. I let her go and eyed the shiny pine box. I slid my fingers over the polished wood as tears escaped. I kissed my fingers and placed them back on the coffin along with a white rose. I took my place as the pastor began
“Welcome ladies and gentlemen. Thank you for joining me in laying to rest our beloved brother Zayn Javadd Malik.”
The sound of crunching metal and shattered glass still ringing in my ears. How could I have been so stupid, and missed that stop sign? Maybe he’d still be alive. I closed my eyes as a few tears pricked the corners. I tried to fall back to sleep but the mangled mess kept flashing in my mind.
I sighed and got out of bed. I walked down the hall, the memory of his laughter filling my mind.
I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a mug, glancing at the clock on the microwave. 2:30 am.
I made myself some tea and sat on the couch. Memories of him flashing through my mind, I became shaky and dropped the mug. I started sobbing uncontrollably. This was my fault. He was gone because of me.
“I’m so sorry baby” I sobbed looking up at the ceiling
I clung to his sweatshirt that I slept in every night. I cried myself into an uneasy sleep. I woke up the next morning at 7. My body ached and my eyes were puffy from crying. I looked a wreck, I’m sure. I got up and cleaned up the broken glass from my mug and threw it away. Today was the day I dreaded. The day that proved all of this was real and wasn't a dream. Today was the day I buried the love of my life.
I looked at myself in the mirror. A simple black dress was what I was wearing. I sighed and wiped away a stray tear that fell from my eye.
This was really happening. I was really going to put the only person I ever loved in a box in the ground. It was my fault he was there. I shook my head and grabbed my purse, heading to the cab waiting for me downstairs.
It was a dreary day. It set the mood perfectly for the tragic occasion being held. Everyone seemed down, lost, crying hysterically. Me? I was numb. I couldn't feel anything here. Not around all these people. Everyone gave me condolences and hugs. It’s hard hugging people with your arm in a cast. I shouldn't have a cast. I should be in the coffin instead of him.
His mother walked up to me and embraced me. I don’t understand why she didn't hate me. I mean I did cause the death of her son. I let her go and eyed the shiny pine box. I slid my fingers over the polished wood as tears escaped. I kissed my fingers and placed them back on the coffin along with a white rose. I took my place as the pastor began
“Welcome ladies and gentlemen. Thank you for joining me in laying to rest our beloved brother Zayn Javadd Malik.”
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It's like super short, I'm sorry. They get better I promise :)