The Time We Spent Is Now Gone, but Let's Get It Back

‘Happy birthday love.’ I heard Oliver whisper and he kissed my cheek. I had no strength to open my eyes, so I fell back to sleep almost straight away.

‘Mom, mom, mom, daddy said to wake you up at nine, and it’s almost nine and you take soooo long to get up from the bed.’ Benjamin jumped up and down on me. I opened my eyes and almost shit myself when Alexander’s face was just inch away from mine.
‘Where’s daddy?’ I yawned and pushed both of the twins away.
‘Dumb mom, daddy left to drive around England. Happy birthday mom.’ Alexander laughed.
‘Great, you two are just as big assholes as your dad.’ I sighed. ‘Why am I supposed to get up at nine?’ I rolled out of the bed. The twats took my hands and pulled me downstairs, not caring when I told them to slow down, that I was going to fall, but no.

‘Daddy did this, we helped.’ They smiled, well Alexander smiled and Benjamin smirked. The dining table was covered in different color roses, mostly red though. There was just enough space for a cake with a frosting that said. ‘I know how to bake cunt!’ and under that ‘HFBD 26.’ I couldn’t help but to laugh at the cake. In front of the cake was a CD. I reached to grab it.

‘You are the first one to hear it and the first track is for you and about us.’ The green post it note said. I told the twins to start the cake and they didn’t even hesitate.
I walked over the sound system and put the CD in. It took ten seconds before the room was filled with music.

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?

(Can you feel my heart)

Can you help the hopeless?
Well, I'm begging on my knees
Can you save my busted soul?
Will you wait for me?

I'm sorry brothers, so sorry lover
Forgive me father, I love you mother
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel my heart?
Can you feel my heart?
(Can you feel my heart)

(Can you feel my heart)

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim

(Can you feel my heart)

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?

Before the song ended, I was on my knees on the floor. He loved me like I loved him and next time I was going to see him was at the twins birthday at the first of May, it was tenth of January.