my diary 03-04-13

tuesday 09-04-13
dear diary
i'm sorry i didn't write yesterday i emotionally didn't feel good i cried like the entire day.
my mom is quiet since saturday!! idk why she just is... i guess something is wrong or something
she doesn't come upstairs only if she has to... it's kinda weird like maybe someone knows about me being here! my mom doens't want anyone to know so if that's the reason (i hope so!)
i didn't cut today or yesterday today i kinda cried my eyes out.... i gues i needed that i felt waaaaaayyy better after it....
i don't even know why i cried like that hard i just did and it felt good!
sometimes (just like now) i feel really scared and idk why i feel like my mom can come in when she wants and that feeling is really scaring me it's true but it still scares me when i think of it like hello if she wants she can come in when i'm sleeping and then she can just fucking kill me!! not that i sleep much bcs i can't i like sleeping but i can't i'm way to stressed i guess but i'm going off right now
i am tired like hell bye guys xo alexander