Nothings Gunna Change My World

The bus ride seemed longer then usual, mainly because my entire being hurt so bad I felt like I was on fire, or maybe it was because I hadn't taken enough of anything to last for this long and all my highs and protections against the real world were gone all at once. In a flash of pain mid-way to the city, to Charles's house I was sober, and I didn't like it. My thoughts came easier, I didn't like it, my vision was foggy and I noticed and I didn't like it.

How had I survived the world before drugs??

Oh yeah, I hadn't.

A girl climbed on in one of the smaller towns we stopped at the way, she sat in front of me and all I could notice was that her hair smelled really good. "Hey...do you have a cigarette or something?" I asked a few minutes later when my foot started tapping without my consent. "Uh...yeah actually." She pulled out a red and white box and handed the whole thing to me, "I'm trying to quit." I smiled and accepted it gratefully lighting one up immediately and breathing in the smooth smoke.

"I'm Daisy." She said and I nodded, "Kevin." I shook her hand, she was tiny, couldn't be older then 16 and she was like a girl version of Joshua, down to the fact that she was wearing a shirt tight to her skin, hugging her every curve, that said the same name of the band I knew for a fact Joshua liked. Staring at him for years really allowed you to know these kinds of things.

"Well, Kevin, where are you headed?" She asked and I shrugged, "I need some shit." I said and she laughed, "Like literally or like...pot?" I laughed, "Kinda like pot-except I tend to lean to harder drugs." She nodded and turned around completely in the seat so she was looking at me.

"I know how that goes." She said and I gave her a smile as I inhaled more smoke. "You look like someone I know." I finally said and she laughed, "Is that a good thing of a bad thing?"

I just took another look at her, "I don't know." I said before putting the cigarette out on my shoe and throwing the remaining half into the pack. "What about you? Where are you headed?" She looked up at the ceiling, "Where-ever life decides to take me." What the hell is that supposed to mean? "Life should take you home with me." As soon as I said it I felt the confusion cloud my face. Why would I invite a strange, pretty, Joshua-like girl to come home with me? She wasn't a fucking puppy!

"Really?" I guess she noticed the weird expression on my face too.

"Why not?" I couldn't take it back, that would be rude.

"Gee, I don't know-we met each other two minutes ago??" She was playing with her hair. It made me want to play with her hair. "Doesn't matter, you're my new friend." I said and she laughed, calling her that reminded me so much of Raven when she had just moved here, almost a year ago.

"Okay kid." She said and I laughed, thinking about how I was probably older then her.

After a quick visit to Charles's house and Burger King and another bus ride we were standing outside my house. "Are you sure this is a good idea??" Daisy was holding my hand, I just pulled her up to the door. "MOMMY I'M HOME!" I yelled and pulled Daisy into the kitchen where my mom was making dinner, and Miley was doing her homework on the island. Susan was sitting at the table and they all turned to stare at Daisy. "Hi..." She waved nervously at them and they just stared back. "We'll be in my room, unpacking." I said it quickly before any of them could realize what I meant and then ran to my room. "Wow." Daisy plopped down on my bed and I pushed play on my CD player not knowing what would come on.

"Chiodos?" Daisy said as soon as the recorded deep breathing played out into my room. I nodded and fell backwards on my bed. "You'll have to sleep on the floor, or in the bed with me." I said and she giggled, "I bet." She said and I laughed. Not because I was trying to be flirty or anything, I just realized she didn't know I was gay.

...Why would she even need to know that?

Exactly, she doesn't.

"Well since I'm a giant whore I guess it's on the bed with you." She jumped up on my bed and I laughed, "Come on, stop ittttt!" I whined and she plopped down into a laying position.

"Tell me about Kevin." She looked up at the ceiling and I lied down next to her, "I've been in love once, movies lie about everything." She nodded and I continued, "I've only recently started loving music, I get high to make it through the day, and I think you're pretty." She giggled, "Tell me about Daisy." I whispered and she rolled over so she was facing me. "I've been in and out of love like a fat girl to a candy store," I smiled at that one, "No one's ever stuck to me like glue like everyone says it should be. I'm trying to stop taking drugs all the time, even though it's hard and freaking painful, and I think you're pretty too." I rolled over so I was facing her too.

"Of course you do, I'm the best there is." She snorted and leaned in closer kissing my lips slowly.

I moved my lips slowly against hers and thought about how I hadn't had a real kiss like this since Joshua. Maybe I wasn't gay, maybe I just thought I was...maybe I had been wrong all along and that's why me and Joshua hadn't worked out because I wasn't gay.

Or maybe I'm gay and Daisy's so amazing that she attracts gay men to her.

Daisy pulled away, "I am so sorry." I smiled and her, put my hand on the back of her neck and pulled her into another kiss.

At first that's all it was, a tiny kiss until I started nibbling on her lip, she opened her mouth and my tongue was instantly tangled with hers. "Ohhh." She moaned into my mouth and I just pulled her closer. "OH MY FUCKING JESUS!" Daisy pushed me away from her but I didn't let go so we both ended up on the ground while screamed at me and Susan looked shocked. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING THAT IS SO GROSS GET A ROOM OH MY GOD WAIT UNTIL RAVEN FINDS OUT!" Then she ran out of the room and Susan walked in. She looked sad now...sad?

"Uhhh congratulations?" She said and I smiled. "This is Daisy my new uh...girlfriend." I said and Daisy looked at me, "Am I now?" She asked and I nodded. "You are." And then I crawled on top of her and kissed her again. "God, ew." Susan said before walking out of our room. She basically lives here since her parents found out she was a lesbian and since Miley won't let her leave for too long. Clingy bitch.

I mean, I love my cousin.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked and Daisy giggled, "Yeah but you're gunna dump me like a sack of potatoes as soon as you find I'm not as pretty on the inside as on the outside." I smiled, "Well neither am I. I have a very dark past." It's easy to make fun of when drugs make you think rape is fucking hilarious.

"I bet." She grabbed my cheeks and pulled me down for another kiss. "What is this shit Kevin?!"

Oh great, Raven's here. "YESTERDAY YOU WERE FUCKING G-" I cut her off as quick as possible, "Tired, I was really tired yesterday Raven like I am today you should leave." She narrowed her eyes at me, it really wasn't fun to be the one she's always yelling at, I felt like Joshua. "I'm not leaving until I find out who she is-and why you guys are attached at the mouth. And Massie wants a hug." She added the last sentence as an after thought and I laughed. "You'll be okay?" I asked and Daisy nodded and I got up to go talk to Massie, who apparently wanted a hug.

"Now what the hell is your name?" Was the last thing I heard before my bedroom door was slammed in my own face.