I'm Slowly Drowning

"Lex, baby, we have to get up soon" a deep voice whispered next to my ear, while stoking his fingers down my back, drawing random patterns.

"Mmmm?" I answered and opened my eyes slowly, blinking a few times.

I couldn't help but smile when my eyes found Andy's beautiful face, and this scene was just perfect, I'd always imagined that it'd be awkward to wake up naked next to a person, but it wasn't, the way the morning sun shone trough the window and hit my back and Andy's face, and just the peace and love that was caught it this moment was perfect, nothing less than perfect.

"I love you" I mumbled and Andy's smile widened as he pressed his lips against mine softly, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me closer into him.

"I love you too" he whispered back and kissed me again, I just wanted to stay like this, but we had to get out of bed or Max would end up, finding a way to break the lock and make his way into our room.

"C'mon babe, you should go and take a shower, we have to leave in an hour to get to Disneyland in time" Andy said quietly and I let out a tired groan, making Andy laugh.

"Don't laugh at me" I mumbled with a blush and slowly sat up, and rubbed my eyes tiredly. We were going to Disneyland today, I'd never been there and I was so fucking excited about it. Still I couldn't get myself to leave the bed and Andy, everything was so perfect and I was scared that if I left to go take a shower now, I'd come back to find out that everything had been a dream.

"Go take a shower, Lex, I'll still be here when you get back" Andy laughed as I rested my head on his shoulder. He carcassed my back and a short glimpse of the night before came back to me, making me blush and hide my face in his mane of hair. I breathed in his scent of cigarettes and cologne before I let out a sigh and slowly got out of bed.

As I stood up, Andy whistled at me and laughed when I gave him a glare telling him that I didn't approve of the whistle-thing, even though I couldn't help but blush again. I went over to the wardrobe and grabbed a towel which I wrapped around my naked body before I found some of my black leather-like shorts, some underwear and my gray t-shirt with Winnie The Pooh on it - I loved that crazy bear - before I headed to the bathroom, closing the door after myself but not bothering to lock it, it wasn't like Andy would see anything new if he walked in while I was showering.... I couldn't believe that I just had that thought.

I dropped the towel and looked at myself in the mirror, I'd been looking more alive since I met Andy, but never as much as I did now, and I'd never felt so beautiful as I did now, even with my scars and everything... And my really bad bed head.

I took a quick shower and got changed in a hurry, walking out of the bathroom with the towel wrapped around my hair.

Andy smiled at me from his spot on the balcony where he stood with a cigarette between his lips, only dressed in his batman boxers, which made me giggle.

I walked out to him and he wrapped his hands around my waste, turning out the cigarette and putting it back in the packet, only half done.

"Aww, I already miss to see you without clothes on" he teased and I blushed again, just like he wanted me to.

"Idiot" I mumbled with a laugh.

"But I'm a loved idiot tough" he laughed back and I agreed.

"We should probably get completely ready since we only have 30 minutes left" I said and he nodded, letting out a sigh.

We got dressed and did our hair and makeup quickly, 30 minutes later, Andy grabbed my hand and we left our room and walked into the living room where Max, Jamie, Shane and Ashley was waiting on us, we'd meet up with CC, Lauren, Jinxx, Sammi, Jake and Ella outside of Disneyland since we couldn't get into one car anyways.

We got down to the parking lot where we squeezed ourself together in Andy's car and drove off towards Disneyland.

"Where should we go first?" Max asked, standing next to a slightly awkward Shane. (A/N, I don't know anything about Disneyland since I've never been there :c And I hate A/N's sorry for this one, won't happen again!)

"I really want to check out Tarzan" I mentioned.

We started out with Tarzan and moved on, throughout the day we parted ways and walked around in smaller groups. Andy, Max, Shane and I walked together while CC, Lauren, Ashley and Jamie walked together and Jake, Ella, Jinxx and Sammi walked together. We were with Shane and Max since he was most comfortable with me and of cause I was with Andy.

"We planned on checking out Alice In Wonderland next, right?" Max asked, trying to figure out where we was by looking at a map.

"Yeah, that was the plan right?" I laughed and let go of Andy's hand to go over and help him.

"Why is this damn park so huge?" Max whined and Shane laughed.

"Why didn't you let one if us lead the way if you suck at maps?" He asked and Max groaned, still trying to find his way on the map.

"We're somewhere around here" I noted and pointed at the map, "if we just walk this way," I moved my finger and pointed to give Max a picture of what I meant," then we should be there in no time"

"You feel so smart don't you?" Max asked with a over dramatic angry glare, making me laugh.

"I do actually" I laughed back.

"You're only so cocky because of the fact that you got sex last night" he mumbled and I instantly blushed, "omg! It was just a joke but, I'm so happy for you!" Max whined and threw his arms around me.

Oh god, or non existent god, please, just kill me now? This is so fucking embarrassing. At least Andy found it funny, or maybe it was just my face expression he found funny, anyway, he laughed.

At the same moment, Jamie, Ash, CC and Lauren passed by and walked over to us.

"Why do you look like a tomato?" Jamie laughed at me as Max let go if me, oh no, let me die now.

Max opened his mouth to tell them, but I quickly held my hand over it, laughing a bit as he tried to tell them, but just ending up with a weird mumble.

"Nothing, just nothing" I said quickly, still not letting go of Max, afraid that he'd start talking and make this day even more embarrassing than it was already.

"Ooookay" Jamie responded and chuckled at us, it was incredible how much she'd changed since she admitted what she's been doing before, she also seemed more laid back and relaxed when she was in our company.

"We should get going, we're trying to find the way to Alice In Wonderland" I said, still holding my hand over Max's mouth.

"Oh, we've just been there" Lauren said with a smile.

"Yeah, if you just walk the same way we came from then it's easy to find" CC continued, placing one arm over her shoulder and puling her closer to him.

"Thanks guys" Andy said, still catching his breath after laughing at me, I glared at him but he shook it off with a wink.

"I kinda wanna know what's going on here" Ashley admitted with a laugh, after swing the way I clearly acted 'angry'' towards Andy and still tried to shut up Max.

"Max just said something too personal about... Things" Shane hinted and I glared at him, like I'd just glared at Andy.

Both Andy and Ashley started laughing this time, great, now the big pervert knew everything about my sexual life also! Well, why don't we just admit it in a tweet and let the whole world know it also!

I don't think I've ever been so embarrassed before, honestly, and no one was here to help me, CC and Jamie was about to laugh, and the others were the ones embarrassing me.

"We should really get going" Lauren said and smiled at me, showing that she clearly understood my suffering, oh, I don't even dare to know what they put her trough...

It took a short around of time but they finally left and I let go of Max again.

"This is the most embarrassing day of my life." I whined and hid my head in my palms.

"It could've been five times worse" Andy said, placing his arm over my shoulder and kissing my cheek lightly.

"Gah, let's just get going before I find somewhere to drown myself" I mumbled and let my arms fall from my face.

We easily found our destination after that and went on after, all of a sudden, we'd spend all day there and we met up with the others at the entrance.

I couldn't help but thinking back to the day we spend in Legoland back when I met the guys, I guess that's the day when I actually started to fall for Andy, back then I was nervous and uncomfortable around people but now, I'd changed so much! Tho, in Legoland, we'd been met by two fans while now, we kept on running into them.

"Let's eat something unhealthy!" Max said with a laugh when we were all gathered again, he'd been holding hands with Shane earlier and I knew the look that kept in appearing on his face.

"I could really use some burgers" Jake joined in and soon after, the guys dragged us to some burger-place which made really good burgers btw, but I wasn't able to eat it at all, they were huge.

After that, we headed home, as simply as that.

It had been one if the best days ever though, I loved Disneyland! I could live there if it is, I would love to work there also, imagine working as one of the Disney princesses, that would just be indescribable!

Being the child I am in soul, I ended up buying a stuffed Eeyore, seeing he's one of the Disney characters I can relate to the most, always depressed yet doing everything to help his friends when they need him.

I was so fucking tired when we got home, I think we all were though. Shane ended up sleeping over, I supposed that he'd be sleeping on the couch but instead of that, he followed Max and they disappeared into his room, while Jamie said a quick good night and disappeared into her own room as well.

"I'm so done" I mumbled and tossed myself at the bed, not even thinking about changing.

Andy chuckled behind me and I heard the door close before I felt the bad shifting beneath me and Andy's hand stroking my back.

"So. Tired." I mumbled.

"You have to change tho" Andy whispered and kissed my neck softly.

"Fine" I mumbled back and crawled out of bed again, quickly removing my makeup and pulling an oversize t-shirt over my head before I fell down on the bed again, smiling at Andy as he crawled in next to me and wrapped his arms around me like he'd done so often before.

I suddenly realised that this would end soon, that my entire life would just... Change, again.

"I don't wanna leave you" I mumbled and cuddled up to Andy, hiding my face in his hair.

"Then don't" he whispered back, I didn't answer him though, I fought my tears back and closed my eyes tight.

"I love you" Andy mumbled, kissing my head lightly, probably believing that I fell asleep. Nine days, nine days, nine days kept repeating in my head, giving me a hard time falling asleep.

9 days.