***ing the Virgin
17- Scared To Death
Cris POV
im so fvcking furious! Shes begging me to stop, ramdam na ramdam ko ang pag pupumiglas niya. But i gripped her hand tighter.
"CRIS BITAWAN MKO! STOPPP!!! CRIS!"
i ripped her dress off and cupped her boobs harshly
"OH GOD! CRIS PLEASE! STOP!"
i didnt listen to her, instead i pulled down her bra sucked her nipples hard! She whimpered in pain
"CRIS TAMA NA!!!!! TAMA NA!"
i positioned myself on top of her and thats when i realize shes shaking uncontrolably and crying endlessly
''HAYOP KA! HAYOP KA! UMALIS KA! UMALIS KA! TAMA NA! *sobs* TAMA NA CRIS! PARANG AWA MO NA TAMA NA!"
i lossen my grip to her. GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?! I ALMOST RAPED ELLA!
Pinag hahampas niya ako sa dibdib at pinag sasampal. I deserve it! Im still on top of her
"UMALIS KA! HAYOP KA! HAYOP KA! UMALIS KANA!"
Shes crying too much, ANO BA TO G NAGAWA KO! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SHES SCARED TO DEATH! I CAN SEE BRUISES ON HER BODY. WHAT THE FVCK DID I DO?!
i was about to hug her when she kicked me in the stomach and she let herself fall on the bed and crawled on the corner of her room. Takot na takot sakin si ella. ANONG GAGAWIN KO?! WHAT THE FVCK! ELLE IM SORRY.
"UMALIS KA NA! HAYOP KA CRIS! UMALIS KNA! AYAW KITANG MAKITA! AYAW NA KITANG MAKITA! LEAVE!"
"E-elle oh god im sorry! Hindi ko-"
"NO! NO! Stop! WAG KANG LALAPET SAKIN! HAYOP KA! BINIGAY KO SARILI KO SAYO CRIS! NG BUONG BUO! DAHIL AKALA KO PAG IINGTAN MKO! NA LIGTAS AKO SA PILING MO! SAYO KO LANG BINIGAY SARILI KO! PERO ANO! HINDI KO AKALAIN GAGAWIN MO SAKIN TO! UMALIS KANA! AYOKO NANG MAKITA YANG OH MUMUMA MO! UMALIS KANA!"
she sitting on the corner hugging herself to death. Her dress is ripped apart. Shes hugging herself to cover her body. Kitang kita ko ang mga sugat ni ella. Sobra na siyang nanginginig sa takot.
AYOKONG UMALIS! NO ELLA! DONT DO THIS! PLEASE! NO! I CANT!
"E-lle please im so sorry e-lle hindi ko-"
Nag lalakad ako papalapit sknya but
"NO STOP! PLEASE AYOKO NA! PLEASE WAG KA NANG LUMAPIT! oh god please stop...stopp...wala akong ginagawang masama..cris tama na..."
Habang lumalapit ako kay ella lalong lumalakas ang sigaw niya, para akong mamamatay tao sa paningin ni ella na takot takot siya sakin. ELLA PLEASE IM SORRY!
"TAMA NA...NOOO..NOOO..PLEASE WAG KA NANG LUMAPIT..CRIS STOPPPP STOPPP.. PLEASE...TAMA NA..TAMA NA.."
Lumuhod ako at niyakap siya ng mahigpit. Lalong lumakas ang sigaw ni ella. Mas lalo siyang nanginig sa takot, ELLA PLEASE IM NOT GONNA HURT YOU ANYMORE. PLEASE. OH GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?!
"Umalis ka! Umalis ka...hayop ka..hayop ka...umalis kana... Ayaw na kitang makita...''
Hindi ko na napigilan hindi umiyak, i can feel elle's fear. Sobra ang takot niya sakin. BAKIT KO BA NAGAWA TO KAY ELLA! FVCK! SHE'S SHAKING TOO MUCH! HINDING HINDI KO MAPAPAYAWAD ANG SARILI KO ORAS MAY MANGYARENG MASAMA KAY ELLA!
"ella im sorry.. Im s-sorry. *sobs* please im so sorry! Shhhhhhh"
I hugged her tight habang pinag hahampas niya ko.
"Tama na..tama na... Stop..umalis kna..hayop ka"
I felt her calming down, for the first time in my life, i cried over a woman. I let myself burst into tears sa nagawa ko kay ella. Takot na takot pdn siya sakin. I felt her body still shaking. Unti unti nang nakakatulog si ella.
I held her face and i looked into her face. I saw a blood on the edge of her lips. ELLA IM SORRY! ANO BATONG NAGAWA KO! PLEASE IM SORRY!
Even though her body is too weak she still utter the words that shows how scared she is
"Tama na cris...please..tama na..tama na'
Hinang hina na si ella, but her body is still shaking. Tuwing gumagalaw ako sa pagkayakap sa knya nagugulat siya bigla.
"Ella im sorry..im sorry..im so so sorry."
I placed her hands around my neck biglang dumilat si ella and i can see in her eyes how shes scared of me
"Shhhhh..ella im not gonna do anything..shhh..im sorry."
Unti unting sumara ang mga mata nia. I open her legs in between my legs and carry her on the bed. I laid down while shes on top of me. I let myself cry over her.
HOW COULD I EVER DO THIS TO HER?! ELLA BABY IM SORRY! IM SORRY!
After a few minutes i laid her down properly, i fixed her room and i took a shirt and a panty inside her cabinet. I slowly removed her ripped dress.
Hindi ko mapigilan hindi maawa sa mga nagawa ko kay ella.
"Oh God!"
I felt myself wanting to cry more. Pulang pula ang buong katawan ni ella. Ang dami niyang pasa sa hita. Her wrist is so red from my gripped.
I wore her, her panty and her shirt. I lift her again and i felt her body reacted from fear. I placed her on top of me again.
"Ella im sorry. Sana mapatawad mo pa ako. Im sorry baby.. Please..im sorry."
I hugged her tight and i felt her head nuzzled in my neck.
Hindi ko to kaya hindi ko kayang mawala sakin si ella. Alam ko sa oras ng pagka gising ni ella, things will change. She hate me so much. She will loathe to death. At ayokong mawalay saknya. I cant stay away from her. I dont want to.
Sobrang daming pumapasok sa ulo ko na kinatatakutan ko.
" i cant lose you elle. I cant. Im sorry baby. Im so sorry. God im so sorry."
I hugged her tight and savoured the moment where i can hug this tight. Alam kong mag iiba na ang tingin sakin ni ella, and this might never happen again, im going to take this chance and hug you for the last time.
"Im sorry. Ella im sorry. Im sorry"
I saw a tear dripped from her eyes. I know she can hear me, siguro sobrang nanghihina ang katawan ni ella para idilat pa ang mga mata niya.
I felt her hand squeezed my neck a little. Her tear beacame tears.
"Im sorry baby..im so sorry."
Tears started to fill my face. Hindi ko kayang mawala ka sakin ella. Please! Sana tanggapin mo pdn ako. Im sorry!
I kissed her lips. Hindi ko kayang isipin na baka eto na ang huling beses na maari ko siyang halikan. I cant lose you baby! Please!
I kissed her lips until i let myself dozed off to sleep. Whatever happens tomorrow, i will never give her up. Hindi ako susuko hanggat hindi niya ako napapatawad.
IM SORRY BABY!
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im so fvcking furious! Shes begging me to stop, ramdam na ramdam ko ang pag pupumiglas niya. But i gripped her hand tighter.
"CRIS BITAWAN MKO! STOPPP!!! CRIS!"
i ripped her dress off and cupped her boobs harshly
"OH GOD! CRIS PLEASE! STOP!"
i didnt listen to her, instead i pulled down her bra sucked her nipples hard! She whimpered in pain
"CRIS TAMA NA!!!!! TAMA NA!"
i positioned myself on top of her and thats when i realize shes shaking uncontrolably and crying endlessly
''HAYOP KA! HAYOP KA! UMALIS KA! UMALIS KA! TAMA NA! *sobs* TAMA NA CRIS! PARANG AWA MO NA TAMA NA!"
i lossen my grip to her. GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?! I ALMOST RAPED ELLA!
Pinag hahampas niya ako sa dibdib at pinag sasampal. I deserve it! Im still on top of her
"UMALIS KA! HAYOP KA! HAYOP KA! UMALIS KANA!"
Shes crying too much, ANO BA TO G NAGAWA KO! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SHES SCARED TO DEATH! I CAN SEE BRUISES ON HER BODY. WHAT THE FVCK DID I DO?!
i was about to hug her when she kicked me in the stomach and she let herself fall on the bed and crawled on the corner of her room. Takot na takot sakin si ella. ANONG GAGAWIN KO?! WHAT THE FVCK! ELLE IM SORRY.
"UMALIS KA NA! HAYOP KA CRIS! UMALIS KNA! AYAW KITANG MAKITA! AYAW NA KITANG MAKITA! LEAVE!"
"E-elle oh god im sorry! Hindi ko-"
"NO! NO! Stop! WAG KANG LALAPET SAKIN! HAYOP KA! BINIGAY KO SARILI KO SAYO CRIS! NG BUONG BUO! DAHIL AKALA KO PAG IINGTAN MKO! NA LIGTAS AKO SA PILING MO! SAYO KO LANG BINIGAY SARILI KO! PERO ANO! HINDI KO AKALAIN GAGAWIN MO SAKIN TO! UMALIS KANA! AYOKO NANG MAKITA YANG OH MUMUMA MO! UMALIS KANA!"
she sitting on the corner hugging herself to death. Her dress is ripped apart. Shes hugging herself to cover her body. Kitang kita ko ang mga sugat ni ella. Sobra na siyang nanginginig sa takot.
AYOKONG UMALIS! NO ELLA! DONT DO THIS! PLEASE! NO! I CANT!
"E-lle please im so sorry e-lle hindi ko-"
Nag lalakad ako papalapit sknya but
"NO STOP! PLEASE AYOKO NA! PLEASE WAG KA NANG LUMAPIT! oh god please stop...stopp...wala akong ginagawang masama..cris tama na..."
Habang lumalapit ako kay ella lalong lumalakas ang sigaw niya, para akong mamamatay tao sa paningin ni ella na takot takot siya sakin. ELLA PLEASE IM SORRY!
"TAMA NA...NOOO..NOOO..PLEASE WAG KA NANG LUMAPIT..CRIS STOPPPP STOPPP.. PLEASE...TAMA NA..TAMA NA.."
Lumuhod ako at niyakap siya ng mahigpit. Lalong lumakas ang sigaw ni ella. Mas lalo siyang nanginig sa takot, ELLA PLEASE IM NOT GONNA HURT YOU ANYMORE. PLEASE. OH GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?!
"Umalis ka! Umalis ka...hayop ka..hayop ka...umalis kana... Ayaw na kitang makita...''
Hindi ko na napigilan hindi umiyak, i can feel elle's fear. Sobra ang takot niya sakin. BAKIT KO BA NAGAWA TO KAY ELLA! FVCK! SHE'S SHAKING TOO MUCH! HINDING HINDI KO MAPAPAYAWAD ANG SARILI KO ORAS MAY MANGYARENG MASAMA KAY ELLA!
"ella im sorry.. Im s-sorry. *sobs* please im so sorry! Shhhhhhh"
I hugged her tight habang pinag hahampas niya ko.
"Tama na..tama na... Stop..umalis kna..hayop ka"
I felt her calming down, for the first time in my life, i cried over a woman. I let myself burst into tears sa nagawa ko kay ella. Takot na takot pdn siya sakin. I felt her body still shaking. Unti unti nang nakakatulog si ella.
I held her face and i looked into her face. I saw a blood on the edge of her lips. ELLA IM SORRY! ANO BATONG NAGAWA KO! PLEASE IM SORRY!
Even though her body is too weak she still utter the words that shows how scared she is
"Tama na cris...please..tama na..tama na'
Hinang hina na si ella, but her body is still shaking. Tuwing gumagalaw ako sa pagkayakap sa knya nagugulat siya bigla.
"Ella im sorry..im sorry..im so so sorry."
I placed her hands around my neck biglang dumilat si ella and i can see in her eyes how shes scared of me
"Shhhhh..ella im not gonna do anything..shhh..im sorry."
Unti unting sumara ang mga mata nia. I open her legs in between my legs and carry her on the bed. I laid down while shes on top of me. I let myself cry over her.
HOW COULD I EVER DO THIS TO HER?! ELLA BABY IM SORRY! IM SORRY!
After a few minutes i laid her down properly, i fixed her room and i took a shirt and a panty inside her cabinet. I slowly removed her ripped dress.
Hindi ko mapigilan hindi maawa sa mga nagawa ko kay ella.
"Oh God!"
I felt myself wanting to cry more. Pulang pula ang buong katawan ni ella. Ang dami niyang pasa sa hita. Her wrist is so red from my gripped.
I wore her, her panty and her shirt. I lift her again and i felt her body reacted from fear. I placed her on top of me again.
"Ella im sorry. Sana mapatawad mo pa ako. Im sorry baby.. Please..im sorry."
I hugged her tight and i felt her head nuzzled in my neck.
Hindi ko to kaya hindi ko kayang mawala sakin si ella. Alam ko sa oras ng pagka gising ni ella, things will change. She hate me so much. She will loathe to death. At ayokong mawalay saknya. I cant stay away from her. I dont want to.
Sobrang daming pumapasok sa ulo ko na kinatatakutan ko.
" i cant lose you elle. I cant. Im sorry baby. Im so sorry. God im so sorry."
I hugged her tight and savoured the moment where i can hug this tight. Alam kong mag iiba na ang tingin sakin ni ella, and this might never happen again, im going to take this chance and hug you for the last time.
"Im sorry. Ella im sorry. Im sorry"
I saw a tear dripped from her eyes. I know she can hear me, siguro sobrang nanghihina ang katawan ni ella para idilat pa ang mga mata niya.
I felt her hand squeezed my neck a little. Her tear beacame tears.
"Im sorry baby..im so sorry."
Tears started to fill my face. Hindi ko kayang mawala ka sakin ella. Please! Sana tanggapin mo pdn ako. Im sorry!
I kissed her lips. Hindi ko kayang isipin na baka eto na ang huling beses na maari ko siyang halikan. I cant lose you baby! Please!
I kissed her lips until i let myself dozed off to sleep. Whatever happens tomorrow, i will never give her up. Hindi ako susuko hanggat hindi niya ako napapatawad.
IM SORRY BABY!
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