***ing the Virgin
29- Your Voice
Ella POV
Nandito ako ngayon sa office ko. Wala padin ako sa sarili ko dahil natatakot akong dumating si Josh. Napansin nila Miles at Mase ang pagkabalisa ko, kinakabahan ako sa pweden mangyare.
*tutut tutut*
From: Josh
I'll pick you up at lunch.
Hindi nako nag abalang nag reply pa. Hindi pa din mawala ang takot ko sa ginawa niya. Biglang namatay ang cellphone ko.
*tok tok tok*
"Sis, pwede pagamit ng cellphone mo? I left mine at the house, wala sa rxtra phone ko yung number ni rick eh" -mase
"Mase kakapatay lang ng cellphone ko eh. Bu if you want you can put my sim in there and call rick, naka save naman sa sim ko lahat ng contacts ko."
I handed her my sim card. Hindi mapanatag ang loob ko dahil natatakot akong mag text bigla si Josh at malaman ni Mase ang lahat. Sa amin apat na mga babae si Mase at Miles pinaka matapang.
"Great here's my phone...oh wait, my meeting pa pala ako, i'll borrow it later, puntahan na lang kita dito''
WHEW! BUTI NA LANG! THAT WAS SO CLOSE!
"yea sure"
She left my office and *krrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiinng* i took a glance on the screen at.......pakiramdam ko tumalon ang puso ko. TOTOO BA TO? Y.Y BAKIT NGAYON KA LANG TUMAWAG?! Y.Y
Calling.........
Crissy ko :*
OH GOD IM SO HAPPY! FINALLY TUMAWAG NA DIN ANG LALAKING MATAGAL KO NANG GUSTONG MAKAUSAP! BABY!
nanginginig kong sinagot ang cellphone ko
"H-hello?"
"E-ella? ELLA! ELLA IS THIS REALLY YOU!? BABY?!.......BABY ANSWER ME!" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni cris.
"C-cris! Cris! *sniff* k-kamusta kana?" Hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luha ko. GOD I MISS THIS MAN SO MUCH! I FEEL LIKE I WAS STRUCK BY A LIGHTNIG OF HAPPINESS BY HEARING HIS VOICE.
"ELLA! OH GOD! BABY! FINALLY!.......Im fine..i-ikaw kamusta kana?"
IM SCARED CRIS! IM SCARED OF HIM! GUSTONG GUSTO NA KITANG YAKAPIN! Y.Y BABY I NEED YOU!
"A-ayos naman ako."
We both didnt talked for a minute. Ang saya saya ko dahil tinawagan ako ni cris, kahit papano nawala ang takot na nararamdaman ko. Kahit ngayon lang pakiramdam ko ligtas ako, na walang josh na maaring manakit sakin.
"I h-heard h-he's courtig you" hirap na tanong ni Cris.
"Y-yes...*sniff*" Hindi na ulit nagsalita si Cris. Why do i feel like im hurting him? Masaya naman siya diba? May iba na siya. H-hindi na ako ang gusto niya. I broke the silence and
''B-bakit ngayon k-ka lang tumawag?" I finally had the guy to asked him. Pero kinakabahan ako na baka sumbatan ako ni Cris, dahil alam kong hindi naman ako ang girlfriend niya.
Cris POV
I close my eyes in pain. I feel like someone stabbed me in the heart when she confirmed it. Hindi nako nakapag salita pa ng
''B-bakit ngayon k-ka lang tumawag?"
ANONG IBIG NIYANG SABIHIN!? biglang bumukas ang mga mata ko sa gulat, SHE'S GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!
"WHAT! ELLE I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU A MILLION TIMES! SIMULA NG ARAW NA DUMATING AKO DITO, I'VE TRIED CALLING YOU RIGHT AFTER MY MEETING BUT I COULDNT REACH YOU ANYMORE. I'VE TEXTED YOU EVERY.SINGLE.DAY......every single day ella, kahit nawalan nako ng pag asang sasagot ka, nag tetext padin ako sayo, hoping that you'd explain to me everything. That you'd talk to me. Ive tried my luck today if its going to work, and fvck! HINDI MO ALAM GANO AKO KASAYA MARINIG LANG ANG BOSES MO ELLA..finally baby." I close my eyes tightly. I tried my best to hold back my tears. Wala akong karapatan para iyakan si Ella, she's not mine anymore.....i guess she never was.
"HINDE! HINDI TOTOO YANG SINASABI MO! HINDI TOTOO YAN! *sniff* *sniff* GABI GABI KO INAANTAY ANG TAWAG MO! TUWING UMAGA HALOS MALUSAW NA ANG CELLPHONE KO KAKATINGIN NA BAKA NAG TEXT KA, NA...NA BAKA NAGPARAMDAM KA...BUT I NEVER GOT A SINGLE TEXT NOR A CALL FROM YOU THAT NIGHT! *Sniff* NO CRIS! *sniff* i lost hope of waiting for you when i saw your pictures so undeniably happy with your new woman, *sniff* thats why i let josh court me, Dahil hindi ko kayang lagi kang iniisip, umaasa na baka..baka maalala mko *sniff*" She burst into tears
"WHAT PICTURES!?" WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT! WHAT WOMAN!? ELLA YOUR THE ONLY WOMAN I WANT!! IKAW LANG!
"i saw it cris....alam kong masaya kan-'
"NO ELLE! NO! THATS NOT FVCKING TRUE! SEND ME THOSE FVCKING PICTURES AND I SWEAR TO GOD IM GONNA KILL THAT SON OF B'TCH! ELLA WALA AKO BABAE IKAW LANG! ELLA IKAW LANG! WHOEVER YOU SAW ME WITH ITS NOT TRUE! YES I'VE BEEN A CASSANOVA BEFORE PERO LAHAT YON NAG BAGO NA NG MAGING AKIN KA.,.. YOU'RE THE ONLY WOMAN I'VE EVER WANTED THIS MUCH ELLE...hindi totoo ang mga nakita mo...hindi totoo yon"
I laid down in sadness. Halos mawalan ako ng pag asa ngayon alam kong wala na talaga sakin si ella. I heard Ella crying so hard.
"E-ella stop crying... Tama na... Shhhhh..baby stop baka mapano ka..shh its okay baby im here..tama na"
I wanna hug her this very moment, i hate hearing my baby cry. Gusto gusto ko siyang buhatin paharap sakin habang nakahiga ako. I know she's shaking in tears.
"C-cris, bakit ganun! Bakit wala akong natanggap! Cris! *Sniff* Cris nakakainis! *sniff* nakakainis *sniff* cris i-i miss you so much! S-so much! *sniff*"
"Baby i miss you too...very much elle.. I wanna hug you so tight baby.. Sinasaktan ka ba niya?"
Ella POV
THIS CANT BE! NO! BAKIT NGAYON PA! BAKIT NGAYON KUNG KELAN PUMAYAG NAKO KAY JOSH MANLIGAW SIYA SAKIN.... PAKIRAMDAM KO NAPAKA WALA KONG KWENTA... NAGSISI AKO KUNG BAKIT HINDI KO INANTAY SI CRIS! I MISS HIM SO MUCH!
After everything he said, i felt happiness inside my heart, ako pa din pala, pero sino ang kumuha ng mga litrato na yon? Im crying myself to death, hindi ko matanggap na sinayang ko ang lahat. Y.Y
"Baby i miss you too...very much elle.. I wanna hug you so tight baby.. Sinasaktan ka ba niya?"
OO CRIS! I NEED YOU HERE! CRIS IM SCARED!
"N-no.." After a long moment of silence
"I-i guess hanggang dito na lang tayo Elle. This actually the moment i wish your somehow like the other girls Elle, because im ready to be the 3rd wheel just to get you back..Im also happy that your different baby, because i want to get you the right way...But if he fvcking dared to hurt you I.SWEAR.TO.GOD.IM.GONNA.GET.YOU.BACK.ELLA.I.SWEAR.ON.MY.LIFE.I.WILL.GET.YOU.BACK"
Humagulgol ako sa iyak matapos kong marinig lahat ng sinabi ni Cris. Wala nang makakapalit kay Cris sa puso ko, i should've trusted him! Y.Y CRIS IM SORRY...IM SORRY BABY! V.V
"Cris thank you so much! *sniff* thank you for everything* sniff*"
"Baby- i-i mean Elle.. I'll send you a new phone, para matawagan mo ko agad in case na kailangan mo ng tulong ko, i guess you phone's jammmed up.....wag na wag mong papabayaan ang sarili mo, naiintindihan mo?" He asked with full authority
I smiled after hearing his commanding tone. NA MISS KO NA TO! Y.Y
"O-opo... C-cris t-tawagan mo pa din ako ah?"
"I will Ella... I guess i'll be seeing you at the wedding next week?"
"Y-yes...Mag iingat ka lagi.. "
"You too baby.. Always take care of yourself.. I cant accept the fact that someone's doing that for me."
I felt so guilty for everything. KASALAN KO TO! CRIS IM SORRY! Y.Y IM SO SORRY
"CRIS IM S-"
"Dont Elle... If he really makes you happy i wont stand on your way... But it doesnt mean im letting you go completely... Im just waiting for him to make a move. I'll be heading for my meeting... Goodbye Ella"
NO! IKAW ANG NAGPAPASAYA SAKIN! CRIS IKAW LANG! BABY PLEASE COME BACK! Y.Y
"Goodbye Cris... Goodluck po.." *pout*
"DONT POUT ON ME WOMAN! I MAY NOT BE THERE BUT I CAN SENSE YOUR LUSCIOUS LIPS TEASING ME ALL THE WAY OVER HERE.. YOU BETTER STOP BEFORE SOMEONE WAKES UP INSIDE MY PANTS"
^________^ MY PERVERT CRIS!
"HMMMMMM OK PO..UHHH CRIS....OHHHH GODLUCK AHHHHH".
^________^ >O< kahit papano nakalimutan ko lahat ng lungkot na nararamdaman ko. CRIS SANA MALAMAN MO NA ANG TOTOO V.V
"D@MN IT WOMAN! URGH YOUR--"
"BEEHHHHHH" i teased him and ended the call. CRIS WILL ALWAYS BE THE MAN WHO CAN RAPIDLY SHIFT MY EMOTIONS.
Cris POV
"BEEEEHH". THAT WOMAN! KUNG WALA LANG HAY0P NA YON! I NEED TO FIND OUT WHO SEND THOSE PICTURES! I NEED TO SEE IT!
i slowly walked inside the room, hoping little cris wont wake up. THAT NAUGHTY WOMAN! HIRAP NA HIRAP TULOY AKO MAG LAKAD! UGH I MISS HER BODY! I MISS HER SO MUCH! unti unti kong nararamdaman na tumatayo ang sandata ko.. FVCK! SON! NOT NOW!
I texted Mase.
To: Mase
MASE! SEND ME THOSE GOD D'MN PICTURES! IM GONNA FIND OUT WHO'S BEHIND IT!
IM GONNA KILL THAT BAST'RD! I HOPE EVERYTHING'S NOT TOO LATE FOR ELLA AND I.
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Nandito ako ngayon sa office ko. Wala padin ako sa sarili ko dahil natatakot akong dumating si Josh. Napansin nila Miles at Mase ang pagkabalisa ko, kinakabahan ako sa pweden mangyare.
*tutut tutut*
From: Josh
I'll pick you up at lunch.
Hindi nako nag abalang nag reply pa. Hindi pa din mawala ang takot ko sa ginawa niya. Biglang namatay ang cellphone ko.
*tok tok tok*
"Sis, pwede pagamit ng cellphone mo? I left mine at the house, wala sa rxtra phone ko yung number ni rick eh" -mase
"Mase kakapatay lang ng cellphone ko eh. Bu if you want you can put my sim in there and call rick, naka save naman sa sim ko lahat ng contacts ko."
I handed her my sim card. Hindi mapanatag ang loob ko dahil natatakot akong mag text bigla si Josh at malaman ni Mase ang lahat. Sa amin apat na mga babae si Mase at Miles pinaka matapang.
"Great here's my phone...oh wait, my meeting pa pala ako, i'll borrow it later, puntahan na lang kita dito''
WHEW! BUTI NA LANG! THAT WAS SO CLOSE!
"yea sure"
She left my office and *krrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiinng* i took a glance on the screen at.......pakiramdam ko tumalon ang puso ko. TOTOO BA TO? Y.Y BAKIT NGAYON KA LANG TUMAWAG?! Y.Y
Calling.........
Crissy ko :*
OH GOD IM SO HAPPY! FINALLY TUMAWAG NA DIN ANG LALAKING MATAGAL KO NANG GUSTONG MAKAUSAP! BABY!
nanginginig kong sinagot ang cellphone ko
"H-hello?"
"E-ella? ELLA! ELLA IS THIS REALLY YOU!? BABY?!.......BABY ANSWER ME!" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni cris.
"C-cris! Cris! *sniff* k-kamusta kana?" Hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luha ko. GOD I MISS THIS MAN SO MUCH! I FEEL LIKE I WAS STRUCK BY A LIGHTNIG OF HAPPINESS BY HEARING HIS VOICE.
"ELLA! OH GOD! BABY! FINALLY!.......Im fine..i-ikaw kamusta kana?"
IM SCARED CRIS! IM SCARED OF HIM! GUSTONG GUSTO NA KITANG YAKAPIN! Y.Y BABY I NEED YOU!
"A-ayos naman ako."
We both didnt talked for a minute. Ang saya saya ko dahil tinawagan ako ni cris, kahit papano nawala ang takot na nararamdaman ko. Kahit ngayon lang pakiramdam ko ligtas ako, na walang josh na maaring manakit sakin.
"I h-heard h-he's courtig you" hirap na tanong ni Cris.
"Y-yes...*sniff*" Hindi na ulit nagsalita si Cris. Why do i feel like im hurting him? Masaya naman siya diba? May iba na siya. H-hindi na ako ang gusto niya. I broke the silence and
''B-bakit ngayon k-ka lang tumawag?" I finally had the guy to asked him. Pero kinakabahan ako na baka sumbatan ako ni Cris, dahil alam kong hindi naman ako ang girlfriend niya.
Cris POV
I close my eyes in pain. I feel like someone stabbed me in the heart when she confirmed it. Hindi nako nakapag salita pa ng
''B-bakit ngayon k-ka lang tumawag?"
ANONG IBIG NIYANG SABIHIN!? biglang bumukas ang mga mata ko sa gulat, SHE'S GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!
"WHAT! ELLE I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU A MILLION TIMES! SIMULA NG ARAW NA DUMATING AKO DITO, I'VE TRIED CALLING YOU RIGHT AFTER MY MEETING BUT I COULDNT REACH YOU ANYMORE. I'VE TEXTED YOU EVERY.SINGLE.DAY......every single day ella, kahit nawalan nako ng pag asang sasagot ka, nag tetext padin ako sayo, hoping that you'd explain to me everything. That you'd talk to me. Ive tried my luck today if its going to work, and fvck! HINDI MO ALAM GANO AKO KASAYA MARINIG LANG ANG BOSES MO ELLA..finally baby." I close my eyes tightly. I tried my best to hold back my tears. Wala akong karapatan para iyakan si Ella, she's not mine anymore.....i guess she never was.
"HINDE! HINDI TOTOO YANG SINASABI MO! HINDI TOTOO YAN! *sniff* *sniff* GABI GABI KO INAANTAY ANG TAWAG MO! TUWING UMAGA HALOS MALUSAW NA ANG CELLPHONE KO KAKATINGIN NA BAKA NAG TEXT KA, NA...NA BAKA NAGPARAMDAM KA...BUT I NEVER GOT A SINGLE TEXT NOR A CALL FROM YOU THAT NIGHT! *Sniff* NO CRIS! *sniff* i lost hope of waiting for you when i saw your pictures so undeniably happy with your new woman, *sniff* thats why i let josh court me, Dahil hindi ko kayang lagi kang iniisip, umaasa na baka..baka maalala mko *sniff*" She burst into tears
"WHAT PICTURES!?" WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT! WHAT WOMAN!? ELLA YOUR THE ONLY WOMAN I WANT!! IKAW LANG!
"i saw it cris....alam kong masaya kan-'
"NO ELLE! NO! THATS NOT FVCKING TRUE! SEND ME THOSE FVCKING PICTURES AND I SWEAR TO GOD IM GONNA KILL THAT SON OF B'TCH! ELLA WALA AKO BABAE IKAW LANG! ELLA IKAW LANG! WHOEVER YOU SAW ME WITH ITS NOT TRUE! YES I'VE BEEN A CASSANOVA BEFORE PERO LAHAT YON NAG BAGO NA NG MAGING AKIN KA.,.. YOU'RE THE ONLY WOMAN I'VE EVER WANTED THIS MUCH ELLE...hindi totoo ang mga nakita mo...hindi totoo yon"
I laid down in sadness. Halos mawalan ako ng pag asa ngayon alam kong wala na talaga sakin si ella. I heard Ella crying so hard.
"E-ella stop crying... Tama na... Shhhhh..baby stop baka mapano ka..shh its okay baby im here..tama na"
I wanna hug her this very moment, i hate hearing my baby cry. Gusto gusto ko siyang buhatin paharap sakin habang nakahiga ako. I know she's shaking in tears.
"C-cris, bakit ganun! Bakit wala akong natanggap! Cris! *Sniff* Cris nakakainis! *sniff* nakakainis *sniff* cris i-i miss you so much! S-so much! *sniff*"
"Baby i miss you too...very much elle.. I wanna hug you so tight baby.. Sinasaktan ka ba niya?"
Ella POV
THIS CANT BE! NO! BAKIT NGAYON PA! BAKIT NGAYON KUNG KELAN PUMAYAG NAKO KAY JOSH MANLIGAW SIYA SAKIN.... PAKIRAMDAM KO NAPAKA WALA KONG KWENTA... NAGSISI AKO KUNG BAKIT HINDI KO INANTAY SI CRIS! I MISS HIM SO MUCH!
After everything he said, i felt happiness inside my heart, ako pa din pala, pero sino ang kumuha ng mga litrato na yon? Im crying myself to death, hindi ko matanggap na sinayang ko ang lahat. Y.Y
"Baby i miss you too...very much elle.. I wanna hug you so tight baby.. Sinasaktan ka ba niya?"
OO CRIS! I NEED YOU HERE! CRIS IM SCARED!
"N-no.." After a long moment of silence
"I-i guess hanggang dito na lang tayo Elle. This actually the moment i wish your somehow like the other girls Elle, because im ready to be the 3rd wheel just to get you back..Im also happy that your different baby, because i want to get you the right way...But if he fvcking dared to hurt you I.SWEAR.TO.GOD.IM.GONNA.GET.YOU.BACK.ELLA.I.SWEAR.ON.MY.LIFE.I.WILL.GET.YOU.BACK"
Humagulgol ako sa iyak matapos kong marinig lahat ng sinabi ni Cris. Wala nang makakapalit kay Cris sa puso ko, i should've trusted him! Y.Y CRIS IM SORRY...IM SORRY BABY! V.V
"Cris thank you so much! *sniff* thank you for everything* sniff*"
"Baby- i-i mean Elle.. I'll send you a new phone, para matawagan mo ko agad in case na kailangan mo ng tulong ko, i guess you phone's jammmed up.....wag na wag mong papabayaan ang sarili mo, naiintindihan mo?" He asked with full authority
I smiled after hearing his commanding tone. NA MISS KO NA TO! Y.Y
"O-opo... C-cris t-tawagan mo pa din ako ah?"
"I will Ella... I guess i'll be seeing you at the wedding next week?"
"Y-yes...Mag iingat ka lagi.. "
"You too baby.. Always take care of yourself.. I cant accept the fact that someone's doing that for me."
I felt so guilty for everything. KASALAN KO TO! CRIS IM SORRY! Y.Y IM SO SORRY
"CRIS IM S-"
"Dont Elle... If he really makes you happy i wont stand on your way... But it doesnt mean im letting you go completely... Im just waiting for him to make a move. I'll be heading for my meeting... Goodbye Ella"
NO! IKAW ANG NAGPAPASAYA SAKIN! CRIS IKAW LANG! BABY PLEASE COME BACK! Y.Y
"Goodbye Cris... Goodluck po.." *pout*
"DONT POUT ON ME WOMAN! I MAY NOT BE THERE BUT I CAN SENSE YOUR LUSCIOUS LIPS TEASING ME ALL THE WAY OVER HERE.. YOU BETTER STOP BEFORE SOMEONE WAKES UP INSIDE MY PANTS"
^________^ MY PERVERT CRIS!
"HMMMMMM OK PO..UHHH CRIS....OHHHH GODLUCK AHHHHH".
^________^ >O< kahit papano nakalimutan ko lahat ng lungkot na nararamdaman ko. CRIS SANA MALAMAN MO NA ANG TOTOO V.V
"D@MN IT WOMAN! URGH YOUR--"
"BEEHHHHHH" i teased him and ended the call. CRIS WILL ALWAYS BE THE MAN WHO CAN RAPIDLY SHIFT MY EMOTIONS.
Cris POV
"BEEEEHH". THAT WOMAN! KUNG WALA LANG HAY0P NA YON! I NEED TO FIND OUT WHO SEND THOSE PICTURES! I NEED TO SEE IT!
i slowly walked inside the room, hoping little cris wont wake up. THAT NAUGHTY WOMAN! HIRAP NA HIRAP TULOY AKO MAG LAKAD! UGH I MISS HER BODY! I MISS HER SO MUCH! unti unti kong nararamdaman na tumatayo ang sandata ko.. FVCK! SON! NOT NOW!
I texted Mase.
To: Mase
MASE! SEND ME THOSE GOD D'MN PICTURES! IM GONNA FIND OUT WHO'S BEHIND IT!
IM GONNA KILL THAT BAST'RD! I HOPE EVERYTHING'S NOT TOO LATE FOR ELLA AND I.
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