Letters on Leave

Dearest Emma, Wednesday January 9, 2013
I miss you horribly. We’re my phone background.. Before when I saw it I wouLd fill with glee now it breaks my heart. I miss you. I told my therapist about you and how I love you. How I love our book, I love us. I miss you so, so much. I want to hold you, I want to love you. I’m high, I’m sorry. I’m really scared. I hate this world, and I hate this life. I want you in my life. I want you mine. Oh my god. Sarah thinks we’re beautiful together. I dream about you. I dream about us. Sarah gives us her blessing; SARAH! I just. I fucking want you. I crave you. I love you. I’m so scared of him tonight. He’s very gone, and I’m emotional. I’m so tired. I just want to love you. I just want all of you, all to myself. I’m intoxicated and I can’t help what I’m staying, but I want to apologize. If only you loved me like I love you. If only you didn’t get sent off. It’s not your fault! Dont feel bad... I just... I need you here. I need your stability. I need my rock.