Aiden
XXI
Over and over…over and over…
I twirled the knife in my hands.
Over and over…
My heart is beating fast. My veins itch inside my skin.
‘You know you’re thinking about doing it.’
‘Just imagine how easily that knife can slice his skin. Imagine how the beautiful crimson would drip down his exposed body.’
My hands were shaking. My breaths were short and ragged.
I gently touched the blade.
‘Just imagine it, Aiden. Imagine how beautiful he would look, covered in his own blood.’
“Aiden! I’m home!”
“Shit!”
I jumped in fear, causing me to cut two of my fingers.
I quickly dropped the knife in the kitchen sink so that Lucien wouldn’t see.
I couldn’t stop the blood from dripping onto the counter and the floor.
“Aiden? Oh my God, what happened?!”
I didn’t answer him. I just looked away so I wouldn’t have to see the horrified look on his face.
I heard his footsteps draw closer until they stopped in front of me.
“Aiden…?”
“Don’t come any closer…please…”
“Aiden!”
He grabbed my hand and I struggled to pull away.
“No! Stop!”
“Aiden! Please! Let me help you! Please…”
I looked at him, my stomach twisting at the sight.
There was blood smeared on his cheek, my blood.
My heart rate increased again and I felt sick to my stomach.
He did…He did look beautiful with the crimson painting his skin…
“Aiden…Let me see…”
“W-What…What about your fear…?”
He bit down on his lip for a moment, but then he stopped.
He turned over my hand and cringed a bit.
It was now covered in blood.
“Come on…L-Let’s go to the bathroom and clean that up.”
* * *
“Hey, Aiden…”
“Hm…?”
We were in the shower together, and I was helping him wash his hair.
I didn’t want to touch him…I was afraid of hurting him again…
“What happened…? Why were your fingers bleeding…?”
I didn’t want to tell him…I can’t tell him…
I can’t risk it.
“I-I was finishing washing the dishes and drying them. I guess I wasn’t paying attention and cut my fingers.”
I didn’t want to lie to him, but it’s better that I do, right?
What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him, right?
“…You’re lying…”
He rinsed his hair and turned to face me.
The blood from earlier was washed off from his face.
I missed it somewhat…
It just brought out his skin…it lightened his green eyes…
I’m sick…I’m so sick and twisted that it’s disgusting.
It’s disturbing.
“Aiden…”
He came closer to me, gently placing his hands on my shoulders.
“I…I don’t want you to lie to me, anymore…I don’t want to be kept out…I want to help you so badly…but…but…how can I do that when you keep everything away from me?!”
I never liked when he yelled. It seemed like such a strain on his voice…
“Aiden…Please answer me…”
“I can’t…I…I…”
I started shaking.
He can’t know! He doesn’t need to know! He doesn’t need to know!
“Why are you so afraid…? Why are you so afraid of me…?”
My chest ached at those words.
“I’m…I’m not afraid of you, Lucien…I swear I’m not…! It’s just…”
“Just what…?”
I let out a shaky breath.
“Lucien…I…I don’t want to tell you right now…but…when I do…”
I tried to grow some courage and moved my hands so that they were resting on his hips.
“Promise me…promise me that…that you won’t think any different of me…that you won’t hate me…or leave me…”
“Aiden…?”
“Please…Just promise me…”
In a matter of seconds, his lips were on mine.
Such a soft, sweet kiss…he never fails with them…
He pulled away slightly, our lips barely touching.
“I promise, Aiden. I promise.”
Just like that, we went back to kissing.
The hot steam that filled that atmosphere…the needy moans and whimpers…his nails digging into my back as I held him up against the wall, his legs wrapped around me…
Hearts beating faster…
Movements getting slower…
Endless words and sweet nothings tumbling from our lips…
We reached our climaxes, breathless and weak…
I stood him back up, keeping one arm around his waist so he wouldn’t fall.
He looked up at me, tired eyes staring into mine.
“I love you, Aiden…so much…”
I smiled and pressed a small kiss to his forehead, turning off the shower and wrapping a towel around him.
“I love you too, Lucien.”
I love him so much…
Can I really afford to tell him everything…?
Can I really afford to lose him…?
I twirled the knife in my hands.
Over and over…
My heart is beating fast. My veins itch inside my skin.
‘You know you’re thinking about doing it.’
‘Just imagine how easily that knife can slice his skin. Imagine how the beautiful crimson would drip down his exposed body.’
My hands were shaking. My breaths were short and ragged.
I gently touched the blade.
‘Just imagine it, Aiden. Imagine how beautiful he would look, covered in his own blood.’
“Aiden! I’m home!”
“Shit!”
I jumped in fear, causing me to cut two of my fingers.
I quickly dropped the knife in the kitchen sink so that Lucien wouldn’t see.
I couldn’t stop the blood from dripping onto the counter and the floor.
“Aiden? Oh my God, what happened?!”
I didn’t answer him. I just looked away so I wouldn’t have to see the horrified look on his face.
I heard his footsteps draw closer until they stopped in front of me.
“Aiden…?”
“Don’t come any closer…please…”
“Aiden!”
He grabbed my hand and I struggled to pull away.
“No! Stop!”
“Aiden! Please! Let me help you! Please…”
I looked at him, my stomach twisting at the sight.
There was blood smeared on his cheek, my blood.
My heart rate increased again and I felt sick to my stomach.
He did…He did look beautiful with the crimson painting his skin…
“Aiden…Let me see…”
“W-What…What about your fear…?”
He bit down on his lip for a moment, but then he stopped.
He turned over my hand and cringed a bit.
It was now covered in blood.
“Come on…L-Let’s go to the bathroom and clean that up.”
* * *
“Hey, Aiden…”
“Hm…?”
We were in the shower together, and I was helping him wash his hair.
I didn’t want to touch him…I was afraid of hurting him again…
“What happened…? Why were your fingers bleeding…?”
I didn’t want to tell him…I can’t tell him…
I can’t risk it.
“I-I was finishing washing the dishes and drying them. I guess I wasn’t paying attention and cut my fingers.”
I didn’t want to lie to him, but it’s better that I do, right?
What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him, right?
“…You’re lying…”
He rinsed his hair and turned to face me.
The blood from earlier was washed off from his face.
I missed it somewhat…
It just brought out his skin…it lightened his green eyes…
I’m sick…I’m so sick and twisted that it’s disgusting.
It’s disturbing.
“Aiden…”
He came closer to me, gently placing his hands on my shoulders.
“I…I don’t want you to lie to me, anymore…I don’t want to be kept out…I want to help you so badly…but…but…how can I do that when you keep everything away from me?!”
I never liked when he yelled. It seemed like such a strain on his voice…
“Aiden…Please answer me…”
“I can’t…I…I…”
I started shaking.
He can’t know! He doesn’t need to know! He doesn’t need to know!
“Why are you so afraid…? Why are you so afraid of me…?”
My chest ached at those words.
“I’m…I’m not afraid of you, Lucien…I swear I’m not…! It’s just…”
“Just what…?”
I let out a shaky breath.
“Lucien…I…I don’t want to tell you right now…but…when I do…”
I tried to grow some courage and moved my hands so that they were resting on his hips.
“Promise me…promise me that…that you won’t think any different of me…that you won’t hate me…or leave me…”
“Aiden…?”
“Please…Just promise me…”
In a matter of seconds, his lips were on mine.
Such a soft, sweet kiss…he never fails with them…
He pulled away slightly, our lips barely touching.
“I promise, Aiden. I promise.”
Just like that, we went back to kissing.
The hot steam that filled that atmosphere…the needy moans and whimpers…his nails digging into my back as I held him up against the wall, his legs wrapped around me…
Hearts beating faster…
Movements getting slower…
Endless words and sweet nothings tumbling from our lips…
We reached our climaxes, breathless and weak…
I stood him back up, keeping one arm around his waist so he wouldn’t fall.
He looked up at me, tired eyes staring into mine.
“I love you, Aiden…so much…”
I smiled and pressed a small kiss to his forehead, turning off the shower and wrapping a towel around him.
“I love you too, Lucien.”
I love him so much…
Can I really afford to tell him everything…?
Can I really afford to lose him…?
♠ ♠ ♠
That smexy shower scene though. ;)So, the first two days of school were kind of hectic. Looking forward to this year. (note the sarcasm)
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