Status: One shot for you lovelys

Fast Car

Leave Tonight Or Live And Die This Way

"You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did"

When Alex was seventeen, he woke up to an empty kitchen where his mom usually was and replaced her was a
little white note with blue lines. Freshly woken up, Alex scratched his blurred eyes and started to unfold the single
piece of paper. The things he read still haunt him to this day.

Alex's father Peter flew off the rails that day, hasnt been the same since. Two months later, he got fired from his job
because of too many absences, moody remarks and uncompletion of his tasks.

Three months later, Alex swears Peter is a lost cause. A bottle in his hand, a shitty attitude and no more goals or even
smiles. Everything is grey for his father and he knows he won't be able to take care of himself. Alex took it upon
himself to quit school and take care of his mentally ill father.

See Alex was depressed, angry and hated the world but his boyfriend Jack got him to see that no matter how mad
he is now it won't bring her back. And to pursue the life his mother told him to do in the letter. Alex tried to reason
with his father his way of looking at this but no luck.

"Dad, Im going out with Jack for a bit."

"Whatever." Peter's voice sounded lazily through the room.

"Do you need anything before I go?"

"Booze." Ah Alex should have guessed. Signing in defeat, Alex walked over to the cupboard and grabbed a full bottle
of Crown Royal.

He passed it towards his dad, placing it near his feet. "Do you need a glass?" Alex asked quietly.

Before Peter could respond he has the cap already off and drinking straight from the bottle.

"Guess not..." Alex whispered to himself.

A horn honked from the front of the house, sounded Jacks arrival. "Oh, I got to go, bye dad. Love you" Alex said.

No response came from the older man, not even a glace to acknowledge his existance. Just nothing.
Alex signed and hung his head, and hoped Jack would make the pain tolerable.

'You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way'

Later that night, both were sat in Jacks parked car. A tight arm around Alexs shoulders, as he sobbed into jack chest.

"I can't do it anymore Jack. I can't. I'm going crazy, he doesn't care about me like he use to. He blames me for my mothers
disappearance I know it Jack. He hates me. I need to get out of here, before I do something stupid, J-jack I-I-I...."
Alexs sobs got harder making it close to impossible to get any words out.

"Baby, shush" Jack soothed as he rubbed Alexs hair in a calming manor. "Breathe baby, its okay, I promise everythings
fine darling."

"N-No its not Jay, I can't do this anymore. I need to get out of this town. Please baby, please." streams of tears running down
his face.

Jack took ahold of Alexs face between his palms and used his thumbs to wipe away his tears. looking deeply into his
eyes "Lets go then, lets leave tonight or live and die this way."

Alex's eyes srung open, and suddenly Jack felt lips pressed tightly against his. Pulling away breathless Alex whispered
"God, I love you."

'I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone'

"C'mon Jack, lets go before my dad wakes up!"

"Okay, okay baby, I just need to grab your last bag." Alex smiled sweetly at Jack, kissing him on the nose.

Later that night Jack was speeding through the streets of Chicago, watching the lights flash buy them as the took in their

Jacks arm tight around Alex's shoulder as he drove and Alex felt like he was where he belonged right next to his one and only

Feeling as if this were already looking up from now on and to start fresh was a feeling he'll never forget.

"You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs"

Things haven't been the way Alex planned it out to be. Living in the cramped, dirty shelter. But Jacks still here with
him through everything. The one who cuddles him at night and tells him he loves him with everything in his body.

Sometimes Alex comes home cranky from working in the grocery store, but Jack is always waiting for him right after his
shift because of his unlucky job search. To make him feel better and bring a smile to his face.

The thing is even through their struggle, their love just seems as its got stronger and is unbreakable. Every night
the talk about their dreams for their future, the big house they'll live in, the brand new cars they'll have and the family
they will create and call it home.

Those nights make Alex the happiest, talking about his future, their future as a bright and sucessful one.

"And, we'll live in the suburbs, with a wrap around porch and a white picked fench." Alex describes as he cuddles farther
into Jacks chest with Jacks arms tight around his shoulders holding with with all his strength.

"And we will have three kids, two boys and a little girl with your big beautiful brown eyes. And we will love them more than
we thought possible."

"I'm so in love with you." Alex says looking deeply into Jacks eyes.

"But I love you more."

That night, Jack and Alex made love for the first time. It was slow and paced as Jack thrusted into Alex, with Alex's
back arching off the bed up towards Jack, as moans of pleasure left his mouth. His hands gripping Jacks shoulders
as he kissed Jack passionately. And when his orgasm hit the beautiful screams of Jacks name that left his mouth
was something Jack swore he'd never forget.

"You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving"

6 years later

A lot has changed in the past few years, Alex and Jack got married on may 17, 2007. Alex getting hired at a boring
office job, but paid the bills well. Bought a new house a year later in the suburbs as they always planned. On January 19,2009
Alex gave birth to their first born boy, Landon. In October that year they adopted a dog named Baz. And on August
29,2011 Alex gave birth to their second child Malery.

Now its the summer of 2013, Landons four and Malerys one and a half and Jacks no where in sight. He's rarely ever
home anymore, always out drinking after work with his friends. Leaving me home with the kids, never spending anything
with them. They barely even know their own father.

At one am Jack stumbbles in drunk, Alex sat on the couch, waiting for Jacks arrival.

Jack sees Alexs pissed of look and knows he's in shit."Where the hell have you been?"

"I-I was at the bar lexi, with som-me guys from work." Jack explained drunkly.

"Like you were last night and the night before that and that one to?" Alex yelled and stood up tall.

Jack hung his head in defeat, not saying anything.

"Your own children barely know you, you never spend time with them. Don't take it out on the kids because
your addicted to booze or your just not happy Jack, your never around. The kids are suffering, your god damn kids for
christ sake Jack and you don't even fucking care!"

"I was going to spend the day with them soon this week in fact-"

"You've been saying this for almost two months now Jack, Im done with the lies, Im done with the drinking and Im done
with letting our kids down." And then it hit Alex, he married his father. He married the exact same person who is exactly
like the person he hates.

And thats when he snapped "Get the fuck out of my house now. You don't care, you don't love us. I am so fucking done."

"W-what baby ple-"

"i really tried to make this work Jack, I really did but I needed your help and now its too late. Im sorry" Alex said, removing
his wedding ring from his left hands and opening Jacks hand and placing the ring in Jacks hand.

Now, both were crying uncontrolably. "Alex baby please I can change, please baby." Jack tries to plea.

"Just go Jack" Alex said and walked off towards Malerys and Landons bedroom and getting in bed with Malery and cuddling her close

Alex hears the front door open and then slam shut with Jcks cries with it. He hears Jacks car start up and drive away.

Alex knows he did what was best for his children and their happiness but he's not so sure about his.
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Sorry its pretty sad:( comments would be lovely though beauts.