What Am I Getting Myself Into?

It was Saturday now and I was getting dressed to go to Brendan and Tess' house for the cook out. Tommy was in the shower. I had to beg him to go over there,despite being in touch with his brother he still had barely seen his nieces and I could tell that he was nervous so I told him to take a steam shower and try to calm down. He didn't even try to fight me before he pecked my lips and headed towards the bathroom. I decided on a simple floral dress that ended a few inches above my knees,but wasn't too short. I slipped on a pair of brown wedges and fixed my hair in a half up half down style and put on a light amount of make up. Only some eyeliner and a touch of pink gloss. Looking myself over before turning away from the mirror I saw Tommy walk into the bedroom,a towel hung low on his hips and I scanned my eyes over his body. When my gaze reached his face there was a smirk on his full lips. "Checking me out,Rhi?" He chuckled and dropped his towel. I groaned bit my lip. "You don't play fair,Tommy!"

After reminding Tommy that we had somewhere to be and also reminding myself several times,
he was dressed and we were on our way.

Pulling up to the house we didn't even make it to the door before Tess threw it open and ran to me,pulling me into a tight hug as we both laughed. "Im so glad you're here!" she said,a huge smile on her face as we let go and I told her it was good to see her too. She turned to Tommy,her smile going down a notch. I knew that Tommy made her nervous. Tommy just nodded at her and put his hand on the small of my back,guiding me towards the house as the three of us walked inside. "Look whos here!" Tess yelled into the living room. Brendan turned towards us,a smile gracing his lips and Rosie clinging to his head as she sat on his shoulders. I couldn't help but smile at the sight. I wondered what Tommy would be like as a father. Glancing at him and noticing the tense look on his face I let out a sigh. This probably wasn't going to go as well as I hoped. At least their father wasn't here. I know Tommy wouldn't be okay with that. After a moment of awkward silence Tess offered us a beer and we both took one graciously before we all moved to the back yard. My body tensed up when I spotted the man standing by the grill. I knew that as soon as Tommy spotted him that we would be leaving.Tommy turned towards the grill when he came out the door, Brendan and Tess following close behind him. His eyes were angry as soon as he saw who was standing there. He gripped my hand,a little too tight and turned to look at Brendan,a hard expression on his face. "You should have fucking told me he would be here!" He said,nearly shaking from the anger and still holding my hand ever so tightly. "Watch your mouth!" Tess barked,taking hold of the girls and wisely guiding them away from their father and uncle. I turned my eyes to the man that was the reason for the hostility only to find a soft,sad look across his face. His eyes cast down on the brick patio we all stood on. I couldn't help but feel bad for the man.

"Lets go,Rhian" Tommy said,pulling me into the house. I turned back as quickly as I could and mouthed "Sorry" to Tess and allowed him to drag me out to our car.

"He always fucking has to ruin everything!" Tommy yelled,slamming his car door shut and hitting the steering wheel before letting out an aggravated sigh and starting up the car. I didn't know what to say. I still wasn't completely aware of the situation between him and his father. Tess had told me a few things and I could understand why he was angry with his father,but I still hated to see him this way. I would have liked to have gotten to know Rosie and Em better too,but that could always happen another time. Noticing Tommys tight grip on the steering wheel I placed my hand on his shoulder and gave a light squeeze hoping to give him some reassurance. He let out a soft sigh and his grip loosened,one of his hands grabbed mine and he pulled my hand to his mouth,kissing my fingers before letting go and smiling as he looked through the windshield. "I love you,Tommy" I said,smiling gently up at him as we pulled up to our place,getting out of the car. "I love you too,Rhi" he said,walking to me and kissing the top of my head before scooping me up bridal style in his strong arms and carrying me towards the house,me laughing all the way.

**Three months later**

I stood up and from the toilet and flushed it,wiping my mouth before grabbing my toothbrush and squeezing some minty paste onto it and brushing my teeth. I really hadn't thought that I drank that much but I woke up feeling awful this morning and had just puked my guts out. I rinsed my mouth out after intensely brushing my teeth and using mouth wash to get the taste completely out of my mouth and groaned,rubbing my stomach. "Im never drinking again" I stated as I walked into the kitchen. Tommy was holding a mug of coffee out for me,an amused look on his face. I took the mug graciously and gulped down half of the contents. "I didn't even think you were that drunk" he laughed and I rolled my eyes at him.

I had a few days off from the bar and I was grateful for it. That wicked hangover had somehow lasted more than one day.
I was beginning to think that someone had drugged one of my drinks or something,this didn't make any sense.

I pulled on a pair of Tommy's sweats and pulled the drawstrings tight so they wouldn't fall off of me before pulling on a white v neck and walked into the living room,laying down on the couch and burrowing myself into the soft cushions. I clicked on the tv and mindlessly channel surfed,waiting for Tommy to get home.
He demanded that I allow him to take me to the hospital and find out why I had a 'hangover' nearly a week after the last time that I had drank and I was pretty curious too. I even stayed up last night obsessively searching Web MD trying to figure out what could be wrong and after freaking out that I probably had cancer Tommy took the laptop away from me and made me get to bed.

About an hour later Tommy walked through the door and smiled softly at me,walking over and sitting beside me on the couch. "You ready to go baby?" he asked,kissing my cheek and holding his hand out for me to take. I put my hand in his and he helped pull me to my feet. I slid on my house shoes,not really caring that I looked a mess and pulled my hair up into a messy bun to get it off of my neck and face with the elastic band that was around my wrist. "Are you feeling any better?" Tommy asked as we got into the car and he buckled me in,causing me to giggle. "I guess" I half smiled at him and we were on our way to the hospital.

After two hours of sitting in the waiting room and Tommy angrily pacing the floor my name was called and we were told to wait in a small room. "When is the doctor going to look at her? Shes sick!" Tommy growled at the nurse who looked taken aback before stuttering out that he would be in soon to see me. "Calm down,Tommy" I sighed,hopping up onto the little table reserved for patients. He walked over beside me and gently rubbed my shoulders,he could tell how tense I was and I thanked him for the gesture. We didn't have to wait long before a tall,grey haired man in a white coat came into the room looking over a clipboard. "Rhian?" He asked,looking up and smiling at me. I just nodded. Tommy sat down in the chair in the corner and crossed his arms over his chest,intently watching the doctor as he questioned me about my symptoms. He had a nurse come in and take my blood and he listened to my heart and lungs and again,we were made to wait. I could tell it was driving Tommy crazy but I was glad that he was there with me.

Thirty five minutes later on the dot the doctor came back into the room,a smile on his face as he sat on the rolling stool and glanced over my chart again quickly.
"Well,Rhian, no one drugged you" he laughed lightly and looked between Tommy and myself. "But,you are pregnant, about 8 weeks now."

I felt my eyes bulge and my heart beat quicken as I took deep breaths. The doctor talked to me about prenatal care and made an appointment for a month from now but I was hardly listening. I couldn't make myself look at Tommy. I knew he had to be as shocked as I was and we had never even talked about children! We had barely been together a year! Sure,I had thought about it before but I didn't really think that Tommy was a kids kind of guy. I took a few more deep breaths,trying to calm my heart rate as the doctor left the room,saying that we were free to go. I couldn't make myself move though. I was afraid to face Tommy,but after a moment I felt him standing close to me as I stared at the tiles on the floor. "Look at me" he said,his voice low but soft. I bit my lip,forcing the tears back and slowly raised my head up,looking into his eyes. I wasn't expecting what I saw though. Not at all. Tommy had the biggest smile I had ever seen on his face.

"Rhian! Were having a fucking baby!" he laughed,that huge grin still on his gorgeous face.

How could you not be happy when you saw that look on his face?