Bite My Tongue

I woke up to an empty room, jigsaw pieces still slung all over the floor. I don't remember falling asleep, Harry must of put me to bed how cute! I decided to get up before the alarm so I could get a desperately needed shower, I grabbed a towel from my chest of draws, a shampoo bottle, body wash and a scrubber to wash myself down with. Once I was in the shower I felt so relieved of being in a rehabilitation centre. I actually felt like I was at home, getting ready for college or something (which I rarely did) but somehow it only brought back bad memories of smoking up before college or bunking off to go to a day time party and get so mashed that I would get carried home. I no longer wanted that life, I mean I could still drink but only on an occasion and with good friends. Hm, friends. Then I came to realise I had non, all the people who were my friends on the outside were just there for the parties, not taking me out shopping for the day or if I was down we would go to the cinema together; they were all bad people, and that made me bad I guess.

After my philosophy session in the shower I scrubbed myself down and washed my almost white hair which made me feel a whole load better. I got to brushing my teeth and as I looked up to the mirror on the cabinet I was shocked when I saw a blonde haired boy leaned up against the door frame with a contagious grin on his face. "um, hello?" I ask him sending a smile back to him. He giggled childishly "I'm Niall!" He bursts out happily. "Excuse me if I sound rude but how come you are in my room?" I smiled at him so he knew I wasn't trying to be nasty. He looked down at the ground in shame, he looked embarrassed or something "When I found out there was someone new here I thought I could make friends with the person. Not many people like me here.." He almost whispered. I noticed how he broke down what he was saying into smaller sentences, there was something wrong with this kid. A sad face looked up at me almost in tears. "Why would nobody like you?" I ask sympathetically as I walked to my room and sat on the bad patting the space next to me telling him to join me. "I don't act my age. They are all nasty to me because I have stuff wrong with me. I don't like it. It's bad," He then looked up to me "Will you be my friend?" Niall tilted his head to the side, he was so cute! I nodded and pulled him into a hug. He seemed so simple, I wonder if Harry would like him. What if Harry bullies him?

When I was finally ready with a comfortable outfit (outfit in authors note) and my hair fish plaited over to one side of my head. Once I came out the bathroom I grabbed hold of Niall's bony hand and walked him out of my room down the corridor and into the cafe. I looked across the room to find Harry already smirking at me from the other side of the room with Louis looking over too. I smirked back and started to walk over but Niall pulled me back "they're scary!" He whisper screamed to me, I shook my head to him "Listen they will like you! They are both nice guys they just look a bit scary I promise Niall!" I chuckled a bit as he tried to hide behind me but his massive messy blonde hair gave it away. He mumbled an 'okay' before cautiously taking my hand and letting me lead our way over to the other two boys. Once Harry saw me holding Niall's hand his smile quickly faded and my stomach felt slightly nauseous as this usually meant bad things as well as his frown becoming more apparent. I sat down with Niall next to me cowering behind my shoulder almost because of the deathly look he was receiving from Harry. "Guys, this is Niall! I'm not sure if you two have seen him around before but he struggles making friends so I said I would be his friend okay?" I looked over to Harry and his frown faded slightly hearing that I wasn't getting close to Niall in that way. It was still there though, creasing his perfect face up. "Hey Niall why don't we go grab you and Amber some food?" Louis said happily which made Niall jump out of his seat and give him a massive yes. Louis chuckled as they both walked down to the food counter. "Harry, please like him! He has something wrong with him that makes him act like a 5 year old literally he won't do no harm!" I begged Harry feeling brave since there was a table separating us from each other. He smirked at my outburst of bravery and nodded "Yeah, go on then. He kind of reminds me of my little cousin I used to look after I mean, he can't be more hard to handle than an actual kid can he?" He smirked looking over to Niall's excited face beaming up at Louis "Louis likes kids, he will make sure Niall won't have any shit said to him, Louis wouldn't take any of that he has 4 little sister back at home who he is protective over," He nodded towards Louis again who was getting the drinks while Niall passed him the cups carefully.

I smiled at how Harry was being so kind towards Niall, I thought he would be a nightmare to talk to about this. Niall came pouncing over with a piece of toast half chewed in his hand while Louis was behind him shaking his head and laughing at an excited Niall. "Nobody told me that he's practically a 3 year old in a teenagers body! I love him," Louis exclaimed as Niall sat down next to him trying to butter his toast but failing, I took it off him and started to butter it for him. "So what are we doing today?" I asked Harry knowing how he knows the days scheduled off by heart since he has been here for so long. "Well Louis is going to a alcohol counsellor, I have a doctors appointment for a blood test and I think you do too since your new, they do blood tests to everyone to check we are clean of drugs and stuff." He replied as my face turned paler than it already is. "I don't like needles," I said more quieter than usual, I put my spoon of coco pops back into my bowl since my stomach told me food wasn't an option at this moment in time. "God, I will hold your hand if you wan't it doesn't hurt!" Harry whined complaining about how much of a wimp I am. "Says the one with a load of tattoos!" I retorted. He looked confused for a moment then looked down remembering he had tattoos 'oh' he mumbled under his breath. "I forget they're there sometimes," He chuckles "But there is still no need to be scared! All they do is put a little needle in your arm and take a bit of blood, it takes seconds!" He complained again. I didn't reply this time I just stared up at him with my scared face. The bell went off again signalling that we all had to go to our designated places for the next hour. Shit.

Me and Harry walked down the winding corridors, he was the only one who knew where he was going. My hands were shaking as we came closer and closer to the doctors office. I hated needles, those are the only things I wouldn't use to take drugs, it made me feel uneasy. We had reached the door and Harry opened it for me revealing an oldish looking man with a warm smile on his face and silver hair. We both sat down and he went through the whole 'why we are here lecture' "Well lets get started!" He clapped his hands together and Harry walked over to the bench and rested his muscular arm onto the table. This was a rather beautiful sight for me to witness. "You're still working out then Styles?" The doctor chuckled as he tapped Harry's arm in search for a vein he could stab into. Harry chuckled "Just a bit Doc," Harry looked over to me and gave me a reassuring smile. My hands were trembling as I watched the doctor pull out the needle that he was using to draw Harry's blood. I turned away before I could see the need go into Harry's vein making myself feel even more sick. My hands covered my face for about 30 seconds before I felt someone poking me in the shoulder "Finished!" Harry smiled, I looked up at his arm which now had a tiny plaster where the needle had went in. I stood up shakily and copied Harry's movements and sat down on the bench. My tremors running through my bones became more and more obvious. "Ah we have a squeamish one today then?" The doctor chuckled "It's okay it's over within seconds, just relax your arm and don't look at it!" I took heed of the doctors advice and turned my head away. I reached my other arm out towards Harry motioning him to come over. "Hey, it's alright you big pussy!" He laughed and wrapped his arm around my shoulder and held my free hand. I nuzzled my face into his side bracing myself for the uncomfortable feeling of the needle. I felt the strange feeling running up my arm, my other hand having an iron grips on Harry's hand and my face almost pushed right into his armpit. Before I knew it, it was all over and I sat smirking to myself as I achieved getting through the injection. "Here both of you have one of these to get your blood sugars even again," The doctor said before handing us a lollypop each. I felt like a kid again! "One more thing, Amber I know your're new here so I have to go through this procedure with you sit down, Harry could you wait outside?" The doctor nodded to the door as Harry made his way out with the lollypop hanging from his mouth. "I understand this is only your second day but I have to ask you this, do you have any family member that we can contact if anything goes wrong?" He asked subtly. I shook my head looking down "I no longer talk to them, I have no idea where they are or what they are doing," I looked down in shame of no longer knowing my family, I stopped wanting to know them at 15 and found a new place to live and just like that I moved out without telling anyone. I'm better off really, they were to kind to me in an annoying way. The doctor nodded and allowed me to leave making sure that I understood that further investigation will go into finding a family member. Not that they would care about me anyways.

"So the rest of the day is free for us, how do you feel about going on the field for a few hours, Niall and Louis are coming too?" I smiled at his gesture and gave him a vicious nod, I then see Niall and Louis come pouncing over with a football and Niall with a bag of toy cars obviously prepared for spending the day on the field. I guess I was pretty excited to finally smell fresh air!